N2Light

A Question About the Life Review

2008-11-24T16:44:00.002-05:00

Q) I’ve never had an NDE, but I’ve been fascinated with them for 20 years. Unfortunately the part about the life review scares the daylights out of me. I’ve always tried to be a good person, sometimes too hard, and I always suffer from too much guilt (working on that one!), so the idea of being presented with every negative thought or deed experienced throughout my life is paralysing. Some folks relating their NDEs say they learned to “never do anything hurtful”, but we are all still human and will never be perfect! Please tell me that this life review is nothing to be afraid of, and that I shouldn’t be afraid to make mistakes during my life. Because no matter how good I try to be, it’s obviously still going to happen and I’ll feel even worse about it if I know someone in the afterlife is “keeping tabs” and will make me relive all of my faults at the end of my life. Please, if you can, help me understand. If not, maybe you can direct me to someone who can answer my question. Thank you very much for your time.

A) I'm more than pleased to tell you that 'the life-review is nothing to be afraid of' ... and to address your questions herein!

First, the 'guilt' and fear all stem from a belief in a vindictive 'he-god' or 'man-god' that was created in the image and likeness of the human ego — true story! It also stems from the belief that we are 'separate' from Source and from one another, when nothing could be further from the truth! However, since such a 'he-god' doesn't really exist, you can relax in the knowing that you will be surrounded in unconditional love from the LightSource and, furthermore, love and accepted just the way you are! WE are the ones who judge ourselves and no one else. No one is 'keeping tabs' or looming over you with pending reproaches or punishments or the threat of some kind of 'exile' into a 'hell'. But let me also add that our frame of mind is very different in the Afterlife than it is on this plane in most cases; i.e., we are more detached and not centred in or identified with the ego. This allows us to see and experience things more objectively and not be so emotionally 'charged' as opposed to when we're caught up in the perspective of the ego-mind.

When NDErs, after experiencing a life-review, are compelled to 'never do anything hurtful', it is because one is made aware of how one has impacted others throughout one's sojourn on this plane and thus making a conscious decision to be more loving towards others (and towards one's self!) — also stemming from the realisation that we're all so interconnected and are One — so you can look at this as a means of 'self-correcting' and making adjustments to live a more harmonious life that's aligned with truth and love. It's not about, 'you blew it, so down you go'; oh, not in the least. It's really about providing an overview that is meant to be neutral at its core, and then we decide and make appropriate adjustments from there...

To err is human and there's nothing 'wrong' with having shortcomings and making mistakes. Indeed, there's never anything to feel 'guilty' or frightened about. The soul chooses in advance what type of life and persona it will take on and the challenges and experiences that take place ... and there is a reason for this. That's part of the sojourn of being on this plane and it's intended to be a learning experience and an opportunity for healing, growth and renewal. There's NO 'condemnation' here, because the notion of an angry, judgemental or vindictive he-god is nothing more than a horrible myth and has got nothing to do with reality! That myth has been imposed on society and perpetuated for time immemorial for the express purpose of keeping people locked in fear and being oblivious to their own divine — yes, DIVINE — heritage.

Alas, during my life-review, I was uncomfortable at times, but the love surrounding me 'softened' the discomfort and it was very clear to me that we judge ourselves, period. But we're so hard on ourselves with our own judgements, who needs an angry he-god!? Again, I was in a more detached frame of mind during the life-review and not centred in the ego; thus there was no sense of guilt or fear. It is nearly impossible to describe our state of being/thinking from the vantage point of the Other Side or Afterlife, because it is very different from the perspective of how we think and identify ourselves on the physical plane.

Interestingly, it has also been pointed out that the 'life-review' mostly occurs with NDErs from western societies, but not so much with other cultures such as eastern and indigenous cultures. This leads me to believe that since the religious mindset of western cultures is so centred in the fear-based Judaeo-Christian belief system where one is constantly hounded with the 'fear of god' and the 'judgement' scene at the 'pearly gates', which is packed with such outrageous misinformation and myths ... that people expect to have a 'life-review' since that's all a part of the western mindset as regards the pending scenario at death. Am I making any sense here? Yet, this is not the case with other cultures.

We are gathering a lot more NDE accounts from other regions of the world currently, which is a very positive and important step, because one will see how vastly different they are from western cultures. What we experience during a near-death episode is so strongly influenced by our current belief systems and mindset (!), so this is something to be aware of, by all means.

The bottom line behind all this work with regards to the NDE, death, dying, the Afterlife and the immortality of the soul, is to help dissolve the fear — that is so charged with regards to this topic — which must be replaced with truth and love. These two things are what will liberate us from the stranglehold of fear — that is the opposite of love and, consequently, is a lie — and thus granting us peace of mind.

Another thing I found out years and years ago is that: if it isn't coming from love, it isn't real. If anyone tries to 'scare' you into doing or believing something, that's not of truth and should be disregarded at all costs. Truth isn't about fear; it's about love. And you are loved ... no matter what! :)

Religion ~ The Ultimate Fear Propaganda

2008-11-05T02:55:00.002-05:00

Recently, a sweet little lady appeared at my door and handed me some literature. Without her saying a word about her purpose at my door, I already knew what it was. She was a Jehovah’s Witness passing out propaganda, as they are robotically programmed to do. I was going to toss it in the rubbish straight away without even looking at it, but something told me to stop and examine it.

I opened the four-page leaflet and found, to my horror, such blatant lies — lies that specifically address the very theme that my work is centred in! I realised then, that this provided a tremendous opportunity to expose the lies and offer the truth. Truth affords one genuine peace of mind; whereas this propaganda only instils fear, that’s all it does!

Here is some of what was addressed in the leaflet (and I’m including the Q&As that address death here):

Q. What happens to Us When We die?

A. Why the question arises: Most of the world’s religions teach that something inside a person continues living after death. Some hold that the dead can harm the living or that God punishes the wicked by condemning them to eternal torment in a fiery hell.

What the bible teaches: At death, humans cease to exist. ‘The dead ... are conscious of nothing at all’, states Ecclesiastes 9:5. Since the dead cannot know, feel, or experience anything, they cannot harm — or help — the living. (Psalm 146:3, 4)

Q. Is There Any Hope for the Dead?

A. Why the question arises: We want to live, and we want to enjoy life with those we love. It is only natural that we yearn to see our dead loved ones again.

What the bible teaches: Most people who have died will be resurrected. Jesus promised that ‘those in the memorial tombs will ... come out’. (John 5:28, 29) In harmony with God’s original purpose, those resurrected as humans will have the opportunity to live on a paradise earth. (Luke 23:43) This promised future includes perfect health and everlasting life for obedient humans. The Bible says: ‘The righteous themselves will possess the earth, and they will reside forever upon it’. (Psalm 37:29)

‘...everlasting life for obedient humans’? Obedient to what or whom? Crikey! What nonsense here and how horribly damaging these claims are! The first statement about the ‘dead being conscious of nothing’ reminded me of when I had confided in a former friend about my transcendent NDE that occurred in the mid 1970s. She was a Seventh Day Adventist (SDA) who believed the above statements ... and she accused me of having had an hallucination! Needless to say, we haven’t spoken since and I was shut down about being an NDEr for over 20 years! I cannot stress how severely dangerous such belief systems are. I’ve also had others counter my claims, even though I’m an experiencer and not merely hypothesising here; whereas they’re only going on what’s been preached to them or what they’ve read in a book!

Obviously these individuals are totally oblivious to the fact that literally millions of NDErs have come back to share their experiences of the Afterlife; and they are furthermore oblivious to quantum physics! Goodness me, the whole notion of what is stated above is totally ludicrous — not to mention, downright absurd! Where have these people been? Obviously sleep-walking, wouldn’t you say?

If your eyes were rolling whilst you read the above — especially if you’re a fellow experiencer — I’m sure that you can understand why we are needed here on this plane at such a critical time in order to help eliminate these blatant lies about our being, the nature of consciousness, the Afterlife and the immortality of the soul!

Now, I will correct the above statements to reflect something more accurate!

First statement:

At death, the human body ceases to exist, but that is all that is lost. The ‘dead’ (which is a misnomer in itself) ... are conscious of everything all round them, since they have merely moved on to other dimensions. Like changing radio stations, they’ve moved ‘up the radio band’ and are now operating at a higher frequency, that’s all, but still fully in tact and more aware. Since the ‘dead’ indeed continue to know, feel, and experience many things on a much broader spectrum of existence, they can communicate with ... and help the living. Only those who are ‘lost’ or ‘stuck’ can become a nuisance to the living at times...

Furthermore, there is no ‘punishing’ or ‘vindictive’ god that condemns one to a ‘fiery hell’. Sadly, it has been human nature to create a ‘god’ in the image and likeness of men, rather than the other way round. Only the human ego would do such things as condemn or destroy its own creation, never a God of love. Love does NOT condemn or destroy ... ever!

For the countless NDErs, including myself, who have had first-hand experience of unconditional love, such a notion of condemnation and destruction is rendered utterly impossible.

Second statement:

This promised future includes perfect health and everlasting life for all ‘obedient’ humans (i.e., those who are true-to-soul) — once fear has been completely expelled and eliminated. Love will be the prevailing force and all will share and co-create on the earth, and they will reside forever upon it in harmony.

Perhaps you can see what I’m driving at here. The whole motive behind this propaganda is to keep people locked in a stranglehold of fear — which keeps us divorced from truth and totally disempowered! But what is even more scary is that people fall for these lies without even so much as a second thought or question!

I’ve got to wonder at the thought-processes of that little lady who passed out that leaflet filled with such blatant lies — such that can only produce deep feelings of anxiety and woe! The fact is that these people do NOT think ... at all! It is as if they’re being remotely controlled by some invisible force that propels them just like robots. Alas, and it’s so sad to note that, many many human beings are so shut down as to be little more than a human robot.

It is individuals like myself and my fellow experiencers and researchers throughout the world who are diligently working to expel these lies that are extremely menacing — not to mention what effect this propaganda has on the human psyche. And my former SDA friend is a perfect example of this. She’d been a very talented artist, poet, writer, songwriter and so forth — a very creative free-thinking individual whom I had dearly admired. But what happened is that she started to be pursued by the mob (Mafia) and fear (there’s that word again!) drove her to destroy all of her creations and take refuge in ... religion! She had disappeared and the next time I saw her, she resided in an SDA ‘camp’ or compound. She was wearing long drab grey coloured skirts and looked haggard and had aged tremendously. There was no longer any light in her eyes; she was no longer animated or celebrating life as she once did. She only lived by the dictates written in books by Ellen G. White and I even remember her saying that we had to deny and not trust our feelings (!) and only go by the tenets of her religion. I told her, ‘There is no love here. No one can heal where there is no love’ and I departed, never to see her again!

We’re at a pivotal place in this world right now ... as we are being called to choose between love and fear. It’s that simple. We can no longer be in the ‘middle of the road’ (MOR) or ‘on the fence’ about anything. We’ve got to choose one or the other ... and that’s what will determine the course of this planet and all life upon it. Are we going to choose Love or are we going to choose fear?

One statement that I do resonate with in the bible (and there are precious few of them) is: God is not the author of fear. THANK YOU! If you can remember that simple little statement, then things will be pretty straight forward and easy for you. In fact, I was telling a client the other day: if anyone or thing imposes, propagates or instils fear in you, run the other way! It’s not of Truth. In fact, many years ago, I was wrestling with intense fear — even terror — but a voice intervened and said, ‘If it isn’t coming from love, it isn’t real’, and it kept repeating that statement to me until I was able to calm down. I’ve clung to that statement ever since. Even on a logical level, it makes perfect sense that any thing that comes from love is not going to generate feelings of fear and anxiety — least of all, terror.

Love is the opposite of fear ... and now we’ve even got quantum physics to prove that! It’s been pointed out numerous times that love and fear vibrate at completely different frequencies ... so you literally cannot mix them. You’re either in the frequency of love ... or fear.

I firmly believe that all of this propaganda centred on death is meant to keep us ignorant of our true identity and divine heritage as beings who are of the light and always connected with Source and with one another at all times. Why? Because when we realise our true nature, we discover that we’re tremendously powerful beings. But the fact is, when we’re locked down in ignorance and fear, we’re more easily manipulated and controlled. And this is exactly what is needed to keep us totally enslaved.

OK, well, here’s another biblical statement that can’t be stated enough: ‘Know the truth and the truth shall set you free’. The truth is, we live forever ... and ... only love prevails! Need I say more...?

Birthing A New Economy

2008-10-11T00:35:00.002-04:00

This year has brought some irreversible and challenging changes—both on personal levels as well as to the global community. The economy, as we’ve known it, is crumbling, because it is based on a lie centred in consumerism and materialism. Hence, many people—who are not driven by the quest for and acquisition of revenue—are being ‘left out’ or ‘disregarded’ and worse... What I'm seeing, as a result, is the need to create a new economy—an economy that's not centred strictly in revenue, but rather, in the mutual sharing of goods and services without necessarily the need to have and be dominated by a 'middle media'—using something external that so-called 'defines the value' of a specific item, product or service. Furthermore, an individual’s worth should never be determined by how much revenue or material possessions one’s got, but, rather, by one’s capacity to love and to share one’s talents and skills.

Think about it: it isn’t really money that we want anyway; it is only something that money can buy—a service or item that we really want to obtain. Money, in and of itself, is meaningless. It's just a piece of paper or an aluminium coin or worse, just a number on a screen! In fact, the New World Order is working on eliminating cash altogether, so we’ll only be left with numbers on a screen! Oh yes, it's a score system ... and some people can get carried away boasting about how many 'points' they've got, but when it comes right down to it, those points mean nothing. You can't actually 'use' them for anything. They're just ... numbers—something totally intangible and unreal!

The exclusive use of revenue as a means of exchange has severely warped our sense of what constitutes true value and worth—denying us the capacity to have a fair and meaningful system of exchange. Why should one be completely disregarded solely on the basis that one lacks revenue? One may have a wealth of goods and services to offer, but simply hasn’t got many ‘numbers on a screen’. So what can one—who is wealthy in the truest sense of the word—do, in spite of having precious little revenue?

Let me give you an example: I'm sure this was true for all of us that, when we were kids, we'd be with a friend and admire something the friend had; then we'd offer to give the friend something of ours in exchange for the item of admiration. Money never even entered the conversation. It was 'I'll trade you my [item] for your [item]' and so on; the trade or exchange was made and we were happy!

Therefore, by applying this straightforward means of exchange that we used as children, we can offer something more meaningful, more tangible, more useful and more inspiring. In terms of something of genuine substance, for example, I'm truly wealthy and I want to share my wealth ... but as far as the numbers on the screen go, I haven't got many of those. I've got something far more tangible and real—something that one can actually use. Does this seem familiar? Perhaps you’re one of many who are thinking and feeling the same way.

Now in this day and age, we're having to create a new paradigm in the way in which we share goods and services and it's one that, I believe, will create a lot more harmony and restore us to a more complimentary form of exchange where human contact is implemented and revered. We live too much in a robotic existence where everything is automated and denying us any kind of 'live' human contact or interaction ... but where's the human connection? It only serves to make us feel more alienated and alone—denying us any sense of human dignity.

Everyone came into this life with special skills and talents in tact—something that, however slight or wide-ranging, is of tremendous worth and meaning for serving and contributing to the Whole. All of it is significant and rich with purpose. Once the warped definition of what constitutes true value and worth is eliminated, all of this will become apparent. People can offer so much—a variety of goods and services for which they’re truly qualified—but not necessarily money. I’m sure that many individuals are feeling the same way and are ready to create social and economic change—developing a more enlightened and complimentary system of exchange in which our various talents and skills are honoured as being of true worth. This system will serve in the ability to generate a mutual and meaningful exchange of goods and services—creating a win/win situation where everyone is both pleased and fulfilled.

It is time to create a new economy where we return to the simplicity of sharing and the exchange of goods where we implement genuine human contact and honour the rightful worth that is within everyone—regardless of how much money one may have. The universe is abundant; now it is time to allow that abundance to flow!

A Question Concerning Peggy Kane's Claims on NDEs...

2008-07-10T16:43:00.005-04:00

Q) What do you think about Peggy Kane's claims of NDEs, of heaven and the light being a trick or deception by the Reptilians? This makes me very concerned for my safety and others that will pass over to the Other Side sometime in the future...

Also, is it true that we are infinite consciousness as David Icke puts it and the philosophy of Advaita Vedanta?

A) I appreciate your good and intelligent questions and am very pleased to answer them.

I do believe that Peggy Kane is well-meaning; however, I strongly beg to differ with regards to some of her conclusions and claims about a number of things. As I shared with my friend, David Icke, I think she is too focused on and centred in the negative and dark entities—giving them way too much power and credit—and I also feel that she is somewhat misguided.

Alas, when David Icke was most recently on my radio show in March 2008, we did discuss the nature of consciousness and where one goes and what one experiences during a near-death episode. As I stated to PK, not all NDEs are created equal; i.e., what one experiences and where one goes is very much influenced by ones state of mind and coloured by ones belief system. If one believes in 'Jesus', then one is likely to interpret the Light as being 'Jesus', etc. If one is in a horrific state of fear, one is likely to experience a hellish NDE, but this is not always the case. Howard Storm—having been an atheist—did experience a tremendously hellish NDE initially. Then, in desperation, he called out to 'Jesus' and beheld a light in the distance moving closer and closer—his ultimately being lifted out of the hellish underworld that he was in where demons were biting and tearing at his 'flesh'. Because he'd been trained in the Christian belief system, he automatically reverted to believing in the Christian god in a desperate plea to save him from the demons. Sometimes the opposite happens when one is in a state of fear, however ... and it is contingent on what one believes in and also what one needs to learn/experience during a near-death state.

Furthermore, there are multiple dimensions and sections within each dimension ... so there are many places one can 'go' during an NDE (or even an OBE without being on the verge of death) and when one ultimately transitions, thus my conclusion that not all NDEs are created equal.

What Howard Storm experienced, for example, is typical of the type of NDE that Peggy Kane addresses. This has been discussed on my show with a variety of guests as well. Again, some NDErs will experience a 'physical' and 'humanoid' type of body and the sensations that go along with the physical plane and, yes, there can, indeed, be pain or pleasurable sensations. Some people have talked about eating on the Other Side (!), but this sort of thing was never my experience during any of my NDEs. I believe that these more 'worldly' NDEs are typical of young souls who are not spiritually evolved or mature.

If you read the NDE account that's on my website, Nightingale's NDE, I do make mention of a scene that one might interpret as a ‘hell’ or ‘purgatory’ where faceless, grey coloured entities moved about aimlessly and moaned, etc. ...', but I was never there; it was strictly a point of observation and being assured that these suffering beings would ultimately return to the Light—no exceptions!

I will say that the dark ones do tend to have a 'monopoly' on some of the lower astral planes—such as the lower fourth dimension ... so a number of NDErs can and do get caught within the web or matrix that is controlled by the reptilians, etc. When people are coming from a place of ignorance and are unaware, these individuals are more prone to being misled and deceived and caught in the trap of the matrix. However, to make claims that ALL NDErs and people who transition to the Other Side get caught in this web is daft at best! It's simply NOT so! Many NDErs do, indeed, experience the true essence of the Light and unconditional love. I do not believe that the dark ones can mimic or replicate the truth essence of this love; they don't even know what love is! They are flat thinkers and totally centred in fear. But they are most clever when it comes to deception, granted.

PK also has made claims that Source cannot penetrate this web/matrix ... but, as I stated to DI, since when is Source less powerful than the dark ones?! Indeed, I do not resonate with PK's claims about NDEs, psychics, mediums, the Afterlife, etc. I'm a psychic medium and I do not believe that I'm being deceived and manipulated by the 'reps'. Some are, I'm sure, but not everyone. It really comes down to how aware, evolved and centred in love a given individual is. That, right there, is going to influence where one goes, what one experiences and the messages or lessons gleaned from such experiences.

I believe that it is healthy to ask questions, by all means, but not to make blanket or blatent statements or conclusions based on a few negative experiences. Also, because of the powerful messages of truth and love—not to mention the awakening that's taking place and our becoming more and more aware of our own divine heritage—there are the 'naysayers' and those who are committed to attacking the truth in order to keep us dumbed down and locked in ignorance. We're at a very critical place in our evolution right now and it's paramount that we do not succumb to fear! Fear is always going to drive us to information that is incomplete and unclear at best. We must be careful of this! Only through Love can we gain clarity and truth, period!

I've also written a bit about 'hell' and I do regard that as a very temporary state and one that is experienced via the lower dimensions where the dark ones reside and do their dirty work. Still, they cannot ever have a permanent hold on anyone. What will readily release one from the 'clutches of hell' is when one raises ones frequency into the higher vibration of love ... and this is brought about by one becoming more aware and centred in truth and love. In this state, NO dark entity can influence or enslave you ... ever!

I absolutely do resonate with DI's claims that we are infinite consciousness, (see his articles on my site under 'Near-Death Studies'), by all means! That is our true state and the other muck is just for the sake of learning. As has been so rightly pointed out: in order to know what is real and true, we must first experience its opposite; thus, that is what we're experiencing on this plane in the form of ignorance, greed and fear. However, once the collective masses have risen to a state of love, this plane will truly become the 'heaven on earth' that many strive for. It is a possibility and it is within our reach!

Everything is energy; everything consists of frequencies ... so when one is vibrating at a higher frequency, one is beyond the ability for the dark ones to impose their stranglehold and control via fear. And there's the key right there. If one is caught up in the lower frequency of fear, one is very susceptible to being trapped and experiencing 'hell'. Therefore, when one is struggling, it's important to focus on raising ones frequency back into its natural state of love. 'Be in the love! Be in the love!' is my motto when I'm struggling with the fear. Sadly, it's all too common for the ego-mind to be caught in fear, so it's a piece of work to rise above that state and move into the love.

Also, in my NDE account, I clearly state that fear is an acquired state—not a natural one. Every time I've been on the Other Side from a near-death episode, or even from another spiritually transformative experience (STE), I had no sense of fear whatsoever—none! I was in a total state of peace and knowing and bliss in the truest sense of the word ... and that can only come from Love. Again, given our divine heritage, this is truly our natural state: love.

Indeed, God (Source) does not 'punish' anyone. It's the ego that judges and punishes. How daft! But when all is said and done, we come to realise that divine Love is the only reality and the Light will prevail, no matter what.

A Question About Loss, Grief, Worthiness & Carrying On

2008-04-19T00:57:00.004-04:00

Q) Hello ~ My partner of over 4 years died instantly 5 weeks ago. The shock and disbelief are still so surreal. I know he is gone but why? And I know he is in a beautiful place because he was such a decent, loving, kind, selfless soul. Now I am left alone. He was so much more evolved than me. He was my teacher. How can I move on? It is slowly seeping into my awareness the loss of him in my life. I never knew such unconditional love, but my love was nowhere as loving and giving as his. I was not able to love like he did. Now I feel like I did not deserve him. Can you help me?

A) I certainly do understand the shock and anguish associated with the apparent loss of a friend or loved one, but the 'loss' is only of the form that was familiar to you on this plane ... and not of that blessed soul whom you love and who still, indeed, loves you!

It is all right to grieve and experience pain; that's very natural and even to be expected. Allow yourself to be with it ... and flow. It is all right to do so. It is also essential, however, that you not allow yourself to fall into the misconception that he is actually 'non-existent' now and the further erroneous thinking that you 'don't deserve' his love. Of course you deserve his love ... and any love that comes your way! It is love that heals and revives! Please don't allow any negative religious (or other) dogma or fear-based thinking to cause you to think yourself unworthy ... ever! You are a part of Source and are divine in essence. You can never be separate from Source ... or those you love—both on this plane and in the Afterlife—because we are all One. The illusion of separation is merely a perception of the ego that is entirely erroneous. There can truly be no separation, except in a mind blinded by fear and nothing more.

It is hard to be on this dense plane known as the physical (or 3D) realm, because we are so blinded to what is real and true and what is all around us at all times. Because the physical plane is such a low and dense vibrational frequency, we cannot 'see' what is all round us, because it's at a higher vibrational frequency from what we can perceive on the physical plane. It's very much the same principle as with a radio or television. When you're tuned in to one station/channel (frequency), that's the only one you can experience in the moment, but the other stations/channels are broadcasting simultaneously, even though you cannot hear/see them! It's simply because you're not tuned into them, that's all.

As a medium, I can and do tune in to these other frequencies all the time. The fact is that we're all natural mediums, but have been conditioned out of that natural ability and shunned it. We've been taught not to honour our own intuition and experiences of other realms and told that that's only 'our imagination'; and all of this higher awareness has been 'demonised' and thwarted. Nothing could be further from the truth and, thank goodness, this is starting to be proven and discussed everywhere now—that we are multidimensional beings who have got access to awareness way beyond the limited scope of the mortal ego mind!

Your beloved has merely moved on to a higher frequency now and one that you can't easily access presently. This is especially true since you're in the throes of grief, for time being, and that makes it even harder to see or perceive his presence round you—not to mention the fear that is currently plaguing you. You just need to work on tapping in to a different radio programme, as it were, and not allowing yourself to get 'stuck' in just one radio broadcast setting. Am I making sense to you, here?

The good news is that, the veil is getting thinner, and that is partly as a result of the massive awakening that's going on now. And as more and more individuals start to realise their own divine heritage, this will become easier and easier all of the time. More and more people are able to pierce the veil and see into other dimensions and commune with those they love who are on the Other Side. You can do this too ... and it will become much easier as you're able to relax, for one, and honour your own worthiness and the fact that there is a deep and abiding love between you two—always has been and always will be!

Of course you'll miss the exchange that you shared on this plane and there's nothing wrong with that, but as you realise that no one can ever really die—that we merely transition to another frequency or dimension and change form—you will experience greater peace of mind and even feel a sense of elation.

Whilst you're quietly in your space, just start talking to your beloved, as you would when he was visible on this plane, and just take the time to listen and be open to what you may experience. You may feel a simple warm glow inside ... or you may actually see and/or hear something. But don't be upset if you don't experience something straight away. Sometimes, it takes time for you to be relaxed or aware enough to receive input ... and ... he may still be in the 'intake' period where he must make his adjustments and integrate! There is also a time of rest that the newly transitioned soul may go through, so it will be a 'quiet' time with no exchange taking place, but not to worry. You'll connect again soon. :)

You may also experience his presence in your dreams. Pay attention to that. People on the Other Side often reach out to us via our dreams, because we're more open and receptive in the dream-time. Whatever you do, be open to the myriad of ways that he may make his presence known to you. He could even speak to you through a pet, birds or butterflies, clouds in the sky, a breeze, the sensation of a soft touch ... oh it can go on in countless ways.

You can go on, my dear, and your beloved wouldn't want you to shut down, just because he's 'graduated' and moved on from this plane. That would be a bit selfish, really, and you need to celebrate his transition to a higher realm. Sure, all graduations are a mixed blessing—with tears and laughter—but one should feel joy when one graduates, not sorrow or regret. You are not parted from him ... ever! He's just removed an old garment (earth-suit) that he no longer needs, but he's still very conscious and very much in tact. Listen ... and love ... and allow yourself to receive love—very important!

A Question About the Right To Die

2008-04-19T00:02:00.006-04:00

1) Is doctor-assisted suicide okay from a spiritual point of view? Ethically, I agree for a person's right to die.

I totally agree with you on this ... and it's something that I've been meaning to write about. This has also been brushed upon on some of my radio shows. I think it's really up to the dying person ... and ... that individual needs to be really in tune with his/her soul, because the answer, the truth as to what is best ... is there. It's not about the ego and trying to 'escape' pain, but really being in touch with the soul and honouring the calling of the soul. On a soul level, we know what is right and appropriate ... and no one's got the right to make any judgements about this.

It has been pointed out that, during ones lifetime, there are actually four or five 'exit points' made available, when one can choose to either transition or not; i.e., there isn't only one 'right' time to transition. With all the times I've experienced physical death, I should have a dozen of them! LOL ;) Yet, I kept being told that I've still got more work to do. It's a hard call, really, and yet we'll know when it's really our time—provided we tune in to our soul and not the ego ... that harbours fear and causes poor decision-making. When we're in a place of love, then we gain the clarity we need to know what is right and true...

2) On two occasions the following happened: A person prayed for someone to be cured of her lung issue and 2 months later her brother died out of nowhere. My friend prayed for her mother to live one more year, and 3 weeks later the brother of the mother just collapsed; he was in good health. Is there some kind of spiritual law that demands balance? If so, how does it work?

That's very interesting, indeed, but I don't think it's some kind of 'pay-off' or 'bargaining' or anything negative in the least. Perhaps, on a soul level, these individuals did a 'swap', as it were, or made some kind of agreement, but also not necessarily. These things do happen; and it could, indeed, be a balancing of sorts. However, it must be made very clear that no one was/is in 'error' or being 'punished' in any way. Death is not about 'punishment'; it's merely the ending of a chapter in a souls sojourn and nothing more.

Also, when I pray for someone, I pray for the best good for that individual to take place—not for the fulfilment of my own wishes or desires for that person; i.e., that s/he will live longer or be cured, etc. Perhaps it is indeed time for someone to transition ... and it is selfish of us to demand that one remain on this plane longer, because of our own needs and expectations, or that we'll miss him or her otherwise. Again, it's very important to pray for what is right and appropriate and for the best good to occur with the individual in question. We must never impose our will on anyone, ever!

There is always a reason why one is ill ... or disabled ... or on the verge of transitioning and it's not our right to interfere with that process. Again, we can pray for the best good—by all means—but we must also honour the bigger picture at work in ones life, which may require that one experience these things or ultimately transition. All of these things bear gifts that we may not be able to perceive on the surface, but that are really serving the greater good—not only for the individual experiencing it, but for others as well.

Once people start to change their attitudes about death and realise that it's an illusion and no longer regard it with dread, then all of these desperate pleas and demands—that are centred in fear and feelings of loss—will dissipate and love will provide for more enlightened decisions and approaches to allowing one to experience what ones soul requires for ones sojourn on this plane and in the Afterlife.

We must also not make the mistake of insisting that 'one is too young to die'—e.g., if one is a child for instance—because the soul may have decided to have a very brief sojourn on this plane in the first place. This happened to me a lot—since I've been ill and have had 'death experiences' since childhood. People insisted that I was 'too young to die', but how would they even know? From the ego perspective, we cannot know 'when' is the 'right' time to transition. That's why we need to remain open and receptive to divine wisdom—again that reaches us through our soul, not the ego mind. It is also appropriate to give thanks for the ones who have had a brief sojourn on this plane ... and for the light they shared whilst they were here.

Some souls may have very brief parts on the 'stage of life', whilst others have very long ones ... but love knows no time and every presentation and sojourn is in perfect synch with the divine plan. When we rise above ego judgements and reside in love, then the perfection becomes obvious.

The Next President

2008-03-21T23:39:00.007-04:00

Ah, yes, it's that time again in America, isn't it?—where they prepare to put a new president into the White House. Since I don't watch television, nor do I read mainstream newspapers, I don't follow this stuff. It's just as well, because I know that it's all a load of malarkey anyway. I'll get the information I need via my own intuition and other reliable sources, thank you just the same.

Alas, even though I'm going to share my own predictions about who will be the next president—despite the fact that I'm not American and can't 'vote' in this country—much of it is based on sheer common sense and is quite a 'no-brainer' when you think about it. I was accurate the last time as well—even though I was totally ignorant of the campaign details.

OK, are you ready? Let's face it: America has always been a 'boys club' of the John Wayne variety—as has been so rightly pointed out—and they've only had men in their Oval Office. First, when seeing two of the presidential candidates pictured in the DI newsletter, I noticed something straight away: Mr. Obama and Ms. Clinton are both 'minorities'—he being black and she being female. Now that's 'hip', isn't it? America is finally catching on and moving out of the dark ages and progressing into having someone other than a white male in the White House. (Ahh, I get it! White men match White House—same colours, you see? Gotta keep it ‘pure’, you know! Well now, that makes perfect sense, doesn't it?) The fact that having ‘minority’ candidates, in itself, should be enough to pull at the heartstrings of the American masses—letting them know, by all means, that America is a really progressive and forward-thinking country that 'cares' about its citizens. Ah, how touching is that, aye?

America's finally going to catch up with Britain. After all, we had a female prime minister, Margaret Thatcher, and … well … the Queen is a female too, for that matter. A-hem! They're neither one the friendliest women you'd ever want to meet, but that's beside the point. It's a nice façade, just the same—having women in seeming positions of power.

Now America is finally jumping on the bandwagon to move out of the dust and rough and tumble Wild West mentality and honour minorities by bringing them into positions of power. God forbid they should risk ever being sued for NOT hiring a minority—even in their highest office! See where this is headed?

Even though Obama is black, he's still a male ... so, nope, that won't work either. They've got to put a FEMALE in the White House! They've got to be totally hip ... and cool ... and liberated ... and, besides, women are more caring and nurturing, (e.g., the Queen and Margaret Thatcher … oh, and let us not forget the Queen Mother!), so putting HRC in the White House will be the perfect ticket! To be even more progressive, Hillary is a lesbian (don't let her 'marriage' to Billy-boy fool you), so she's a double minority! That's absolutely perfect, because you can be sure that she'll stand for all those ‘worthy’ causes that everyone's been hankering about.

Since the masses are so disillusioned at this point, America's got to convince them that they 'care' and this will be a sure-fire way to 'bring them back to the fold' and make them believe in America again. But, let's be fair. After all, they did have a retarded man in the White House, did they not? So they also honour and employ people with disabilities! Oh, how noble, indeed!

Furthermore, we've got to remind the world that America stands for the 'Family' and keeping the family well in tact. After all, there have been too many broken families and we can't have that, oh no! Thus, as you can see, they've had Father and Son in the White House, so now it's only fair to have Husband and Wife in there as well (oh, isn't that sweet)—just like the Royals! This will set a perfect example of just how important the family unit really is. You better believe it will!

Lastly, we cannot forget the power of women's intuition. Yes, that's extremely important, because, with HRC in the White House, she'll be able to use her innate intuition and detect if another 'terrorist attack' is in the works. With her nurturing and intuitive foresight, she can quickly act on it and notify NORAD, the CIA, FBI, and so on, well in advance, so as to protect everyone from any attacks and stop them before they occur and save America! Ahh, but of course!

So you see, America is not such a bad place after all. It's just a young juvenile country that's finally maturing and becoming more refined. They're really coming round and they're going to make it quite clear just how much they support minorities, the disabled and the family!

This is what they want you to believe, all right, and it's very clear that they'll use these tactics to justify putting a female into office (and she’s the right colour, so there’ll be no colour clashes in the White House). After all, 2008 is the ‘year of change to the female energy’ and, as my friend, JP, has so rightly pointed out: “The term 'president' also means 'Osiris'—literally 'Osiris' on Earth. In these times it's important for the leader to be female…” Hence, is it not obvious what’s going on here? But not to worry, HRC's right in league with Maggie and Liz and you'll probably find these ladies sitting together at tea—plotting their next Bridge game.

Andy Petro On Toward The Light

2008-03-10T16:33:00.003-04:00

On Sunday, 9 March, I had the honour of interviewing Andy Petro on Toward The Light. What really struck me about this timely interview is that it occurred at the same time that I was reading the book, Dying to Live: Near-Death Experiences, by Susan Blackmore. In it, Blackmore's citing the typical myopic view so prevalent in the mindset of those who insist that the five-sense version of 'reality' is all that exists ... and insinuating that what an NDEr goes through during a near-death episode is the result of drug-induced hallucinations or the symptoms of a 'dying brain' (hypoxia or anoxia) ... and so on.

Well, I've got plenty of excellent data whereby we can 'debunk the debunkers'! Please read chapters 13 & 14 in The Big Book of Near-Death Experiences by PMH Atwater. Also read, About the Continuity of Our Consciousness and Medical Evidence for NDEs ~ A Reply to Shermer by Pim van Lommel, located on my site here. Also read Science & Spirituality ~ A Challenge for the 21st Century, A lecture by Dr. Peter Fenwick here.

Now let's move to a special point I want to make that my dear guest so eloquently provided for us during this tremendous dialogue. I cannot tell you how many times I've been in dialogue with individuals who have been able to point out the vast difference between hallucinations and what occurs during a near-death state—such as the above-mentioned physicians/researchers, who've been my guests on Toward The Light.

Andy had his NDE 53 years ago as a result of drowning in a lake. What's interesting, here, is the fact that his memory of his NDE is as clear today as it was on the day that it occurred. He even mentioned this on the air—that whenever he speaks of his NDE, it's as vivid and clear as if it just happened moments ago. Not only that, but all of the emotions that he experienced way back then also resurface as fresh as a flower that's newly in bloom.

As he spoke of the powerful event leading up to, and the details of his NDE, I, too, found myself in tears and not only hearing his words, but knowing exactly what he was conveying in every minute detail! In fact, it was uncanny how similar some aspects of his NDE were to mine. For example, we both opted not to hover over or round our bodies, but, instead, travelled far and away from our physical bodies into the centre of Creation, as it were, and into the Light—being wholly enveloped in unconditional love—that which is too ineffable and lofty for the limitations of language to convey.

He described also being in a circular space where he saw multiple panes of 'cinema screens' that revealed the events of his life review all simultaneously. And when he looked at or thought about a certain screen or scene, he was suddenly in that experience. There was no 'chronology' as everything happened in the 'Eternal Now'—his using the very same words that I've used over the years in describing my own NDEs!

Another powerful point he made is the fact that never once did he feel 'judged' or 'blamed' for anything in any way whatsoever. He only experienced total love and acceptance at all times. He also saw that there was no need to see things as 'good' or 'bad', 'right' or 'wrong', but from the vantage point of what works versus what doesn't work—exactly as I've pointed out in my writings and talks as well! See how universal this is?

I felt like I was listening to a very old dear friend, and myself, bearing the same message simultaneously. In fact, he made this statement to me in an eMail: "Thank you very much for the most enjoyable hour that I have spent in years. It was almost as if we had experienced our respective NDEs together! Thank you again for the opportunity to relive that trip into the Light with a true friend."

Indeed, the love coming through this man, as he spoke, was unmistakable. He was so clear and full of compassion and a zeal for the wisdom and love we truly come to know through such profound experiences.

He, too, had been told that he had to come back to the earth plane, but he didn't want to. He, like myself, was not given the choice of whether or not to return and it broke his heart to be sent back to the physical plane. He was Home and he did NOT want to leave! Again, I heard my own words being echoed and I was in tears. Was I going to be caught crying on the air? I almost didn't care; that's how moving and real the entire dialogue was.

And that's a compelling point in itself: nothing is pretentious, here! It's something that stirs and resonates from the innermost core of your being when you've been through such a transcendent event. When you've had an NDE or similar experience, how can you not be so deeply moved when a fellow experiencer is describing his or her episode!? That's why this programme and these dialogues week after week are so profoundly meaningful and deeply impact people all over the world. The point, or bottom line, is to share the truth of unconditional love and the fact that we do live forever and that death is an illusion. This is, indeed, the prevailing message of the NDEr.

The love and peace that Andy garnered from his NDE are a deep contrast to his upbringing—being raised in a staunch Catholic environment where he went to church services (Mass) several times a week, went through the whole 'confession' and all of those imposed agendas of the church—even attending seminary and leaving just before taking his vows. He fell victim to ridicule after his NDE—whereas he was accused of being a 'pawn of the devil' and also considered 'crazy'. Consequently he tried to forget about his experience with the Light ... but he could not. Finally, after twenty years, he found doors open up to him whereby he discovered that he wasn't 'crazy' in the least and that he had, indeed, been with the Light—thanks to stumbling upon Dr. Raymond Moody's book, Life After Life.*

Again, I experienced nearly the same lapse of time before I was able to have my 'coming out' as regards being an NDEr and openly sharing it with others. The parallels between us are quite striking, indeed!

The point I want to make, here, is the fact that memories of hallucinations or that of a dying brain fade rather quickly and cannot remain so clear, unchanged and intact over such a lengthy passage of time! Nor can the memories of hallucinations conjure up such powerful soul-stirring emotions as these NDE scenarios do! Again, as I was listening to Andy divulge the details of his NDE, my own memories and emotions were so deeply stirred and it took everything I had not to burst out crying on the air! His words brought me back to my own NDEs—especially the one back in the mid-1970s and the uncanny similarity of so many of the details.

I dare say that drug-induced hallucinations and the symptoms of a dying brain can never impact one with such clarity, wisdom and love—not to mention the peace and freedom from all traces of fear! Furthermore, they also do not generate the powerful after-effects that the NDE does. PMH Atwater points out that after-effects produce behavioural traits that increase over time, not decrease, and remain fully intact. One is literally 'rewired' as a result of a near-death episode and one is altered forever—physically, psychologically, emotionally and spiritually. People gain IQs that are literally off the charts and greatly enhanced psychic ability, and also talents in writing, music and the arts that were never in tact beforehand ... and so on.

As a result of his NDE over 53 years ago, Andy feels a profound sense of peace and knowing—no longer questioning his sanity or the fact that he is one with Source—the Light—and always loved no matter what.

Here is a special poem that he wrote, but he stresses that he's 'not a writer'—that he's a visual person and these words came to him in the wee hours, as if channelled through him. It is a powerful and moving piece of work that could not have been written better by a master. Here it is:

We Are All One … A Peace Poem
By Andy Petro

When I was a child I had visions of a land
That was aglow in white light, wherever you stand.
We laughed, we played … we were safe all day long
We delighted in each other … singing life’s sweet song.
We were all one … no killing, fear, or hate.
We were all one … what a wondrous, glorious state!

When I was a child I had visions of a place
That was filled with people of every color, belief, and race.
We celebrated our differences … what made us unique
Each person was important, and everyone got to speak.
We were all one … we stood together, hand in hand
We were all one … true peace was alive in our land.

When I was a child I shared my visions … my world
They yelled “thoughts from the devil” … and insults unfurled.
“Others are the wrong color, wrong religion, wrong sex!
God made us special … it’s written in His holy text.
We are God’s chosen … we’re saved by the bell,
We are God’s chosen … all the others are going to Hell!”

Now I remember … I know it’s life’s great start,
Visions of my childhood are real, and alive in my heart.
As a rainbow’s brilliant colors come from white light above
We can replace all terror, hatred and fear with our love.
We are all one … the idea is beautiful and true,
We are all one … its simple, obvious and easy to do.

Now we have visions of our planet in the sky
Now there are visions that no longer harbor lies.
We can see that war isn’t an answer, that Peace is a choice
We can see that life is wonderful when we speak with one voice.
We are all one … no one way is the best,
We are all one … its life’s ultimate test.

There's a profound similarity between the message of this poem and the awareness or memory I first remember having when entering this plane—that I came from such a realm as he describes here and that this earth-plane was not my home, was not real. I didn't belong here and I wanted to go Home!

Andy and I both felt the darkness of World War Two encroach upon us—he in America and I in the north of England as the bombs were falling all round us—and yet we both innately knew of a better world, a better reality ... and our NDEs brought back the memory of what is true and what is possible.

And that's why we were sent back—to remind everyone about the truth of what IS possible.

* The film, Life After Life is available through TTL in video or DVD format. FMI, click here.

Toward The Light Introduces the TTL Directory!

2008-02-24T00:02:00.004-05:00

Exciting News!

We've just completely rebuilt our 'Mothership' website, TowardTheLight.org and it has got a whole new look and feel to it. It is sure to inspire everyone who visits the site and I surely enjoyed working on it—literally for hours on end!

Furthermore, we have also implemented the all new Toward The Light Directory. This is where you will find contact and other information for people who have had the following:

Near-Death Experience (NDE)

Near-Death-Like Experience (NDLE)

Out-of-Body Experience (OBE)

Spiritually Transformative Experience (STE)

After-Death Communication (ADC)

Deathbed Vision (DVB)

...or any related experience not mentioned above.

Serious researchers, caregivers, counsellors, certain media centred on the above and others interested in the above are also welcome to be included in this directory.

The purpose of this directory is to provide a means for experiencers, researchers, writers, enlightened media, caregivers, loved ones and more to easily access and connect with one another without having to be a member of a specific group or organisation.

With such widespread interest in the NDE and other related phenomena in recent years, the time is ripe to have such a directory available to the masses on a grand scale, so that people can link hands and hearts and work together to help one to feel less alone or isolated, to find information and resources for educational purposes, an abundance of support and resources not restricted to rigid academia or institutions ... and so much more.

Please bear in mind that it will be small at first ... but will grow quickly in size. You can help expedite its growth by spreading the word about this directory, so that it will grow to be the largest and most comprehensive directory anywhere in the world!

For more information and to sign up, please visit TTL Directory.

Enjoy, and welcome to the Neighbourhood! :)

A Question of Recognition

2008-01-22T15:33:00.000-05:00

(Q) This is a long shot, but does anybody know of someone who suffered from Alzheimer's disease and had a near-death experience? The reason I so dearly want to know is because my mother died of Alzheimer's and, towards the end of her life, she would look at her wedding photo and ask, "Who is that man?" (My father died in 1969, and they were devoted to one another, so it was heartbreaking to realize that she no longer remembered him.) If only I knew that a person with Alzheimer's could have a near-death experience, then I would know that my father came to meet my mother when she crossed over, and that she recognized him again.

(A) It is only the physical form that is stricken with this 'fog'—especially with diseases such as Alzheimer's disease, dementia, amnesia, coma, etc. Therefore, people and places on this plane may appear less real or meaningful and recognition fades over time. However, once one moves on to a higher frequency beyond the physical plane, clarity and consciousness return in full force.

Remember that Alzheimer's disease only affects the physical form, not ones real consciousness or self. The brain is not the source of our consciousness/awareness. And it is not the 'broadcaster', but merely the 'receiver' that facilitates the assimilation of data on the third dimension only! Even if the radio becomes damaged and the signal isn’t being received, the broadcast station is still in operation! (See The Cosmic Website)

Even as I was in a coma for over five weeks 30 years ago and lost my vital signs on my birthday (2 February) where I responded to nothing on this plane, I was still very conscious and thriving on other dimensions and I remember the details of that tremendous journey during my NDE to this day!

As one who's died a number of times, and being that I'm a medium, I can honestly state that, as one leaves this plane and meets friends and loved ones on the Other Side, the 'fog' of mortal mind is lifted and recognition takes place immediately. In fact, as one gets closer to death, one actually gains more clarity in recognising loved ones on the Other Side as they appear to the dying person ... since one is already moving into another dimension and a higher frequency!

(You may find my article, The Dying Process ~ From an Experiencers Perspective, very helpful, because it provides a lot of details about what goes on during the process of dying and crossing over to the Other Side. You may view it here.

Remember, the brain is not the source of our consciousness; it merely filters, decodes and processes information—just as a computer CPU does—and it is operated by your true self, which consists of infinite consciousness. Alas, when the brain ('computer') becomes damaged and no longer works, the computer 'operator' moves on to a different computer, that's all, but ones consciousness is never ever lost.

ADCs ~ Friends at the Factory

2008-01-11T19:43:00.000-05:00

I've been a natural medium all of my life, so it's never been 'odd' or uncommon for me to see discarnate entities at any given moment. Often, I could see one individual, or many, and it would occur quite spontaneously.

A very good example of this was whilst I was in the quaint old town of Franklin, Tennessee. I had a loft at the Factory at Franklin—a lovely artisans mall that used to be the Dortch Stove Works and Magic Chef Factory in bygone years. To say that this place was teaming with discarnate entities would be an understatement! My loft was located in Building 8 and I'd walk through the breezeway to enter into Building 12 and take the long trek up through into Building 11 where the main entrance was located. As I entered into Building 12, I could see a whole group of former factory workers just standing round nattering back and forth (as they must have done when they were alive and working there) and they would actually greet me.

Then I saw a short white man in his factory-clothes, but what was odd about him is the fact that he was a hunchback! However, he was so clear—with every little detail—and very present, so I was sure that this was a valid sighting. Thus, I went to the front desk and asked Alex about this character—asking him specifically about whether there had been a hunchbacked factory worker. "Come here, Juliet!" Alex called out as he motioned me to follow him. He took me to the column of letterboxes that were located just behind the front desk where a bunch of old black and white factory photos crowned them from above. "Look there," he exclaimed as he pointed to a large photo. (I must interject here that I am very visually impaired, so I cannot see something that's far away and especially black and white photos that lack colour and contrast.) I got my monocular and looked up at the photo. Lo and behold, there was the hunchbacked factory worker, but viewed from the back. I gasped! "That's him!" I exclaimed with delight, and he looked exactly as I had seen him—even his clothing—although I'd seen him from the front. So if you go to the Factory at Franklin and head back round the right of the front desk and look up at the photos above the letter boxes, you'll see the hunchbacked man in clear view—provided you're not visually impaired!

Another interesting thing occurred one evening as I was sitting in my loft in Building 8 and speaking with a good friend back in England. What's interesting is that we were talking about her mother, who'd recently crossed over, and I just happened to turn and look up to the right. As I did so, I beheld a tall and stocky black man just standing there facing me. He had a very gentle demeanour and also seemed rather melancholy.

Suddenly, I was having two conversations at once—one with my friend, Paula, in the UK and one with the tall stranger in my midst. Acknowledging the man's sadness, I said, "You died here on the job, didn't you?" and he replied, "yes, Ma'am" with his strong southern drawl and a gentle nod. I felt such a sweetness about this man and I could tell that he'd been a very hard and dedicated worker and one who loved his family deeply. Bear in mind that a lot of these workers' whole lives revolved round working in the factory and that's all they knew. So I was left with the distinct impression that this man felt disappointed in himself for having died 'before his time' and leaving his family and the factory behind.

I also kept getting the name 'Stewart', but I don't know how it was spelled: Stewart or Stuart, or if it was his first name or surname. I saw him a few times and then I was even able to tap in to his family. He had an older daughter and a younger son—both in their teens when he crossed—and his wife whom he dearly loved. I was moved to tears, but I was also extremely curious about this man—since he was already impacting me so deeply.

This time, I went up to the office that was situated upstairs—since Alex wasn't at work yet—and I was just too curious about this. I spoke with Becky and asked her about 'Stewart'. "Do you know if there was a large, gentle black man who died on the job here?" I asked pointedly. Becky told me straight away that indeed a black man had died on the job by falling into a vat of molten steel! I shuddered when she told me this.

"Where did that take place?" I continued.

"You know when you're just coming into Building 12 from Building 8 ... where that door is to the right where you see the spiral staircase through the window?"

"Yes, in fact I see entities all round there all the time."

"There inside that door was where the vats were and where he died."

Again, I shuddered! Then I asked her if there was a way to verify his name, but she had no clue. Still, this was the validation that I needed for this, because his presence was so strong and so fitting ... for what had happened to him.

I will add that these discarnate people really do appreciate it when someone can 'see' them and acknowledge them. They aren't really 'stuck' there; they just had had such a pronounced and strong connection to that factory, that they'd simply 'toggle' between dimensions and spend time there ... as if spending time at their favourite pub, and so on. Also, I was known as the 'local medium' throughout the Factory, so it wasn't unusual for me to approach someone and ask questions about someone/thing I'd seen and, likewise, people would ask me for input.

Back in my loft, I was once again on the phone with a friend, MaAnna, who lived in Nashville and, all of a sudden, one by one, people were coming into view and I started describing these individuals that I was seeing—five in all. As it turns out, I was describing five of her relatives—most of whom she'd never met, because they passed away before she was born or when she was too young to remember. However, one of the individuals that I described was her niece, whom she did know well. But what was interesting about this is that I saw her when she was five; yet she'd died when in her late teens. Well, what happened is that the child had had an NDE (near-death experience) at age five and she couldn't wait to describe 'Heaven' to her parents. That's also when she was at her happiest in life. This was huge for my friend, as she'd been wanting input about these relatives for ages and she told me that I described them perfectly—according to photographs that she’d seen of them. She had even asked her mum about them and everything that I described was absolutely correct. Here’s what she said: “Many of my mother's family members had crossed over either before I was born or while I was still an infant. As Juliet and I were chatting about my family, she declared that her room was suddenly filling up with folks who were connected to me. I took note as she described each one and was able to recognize a few of them from pictures that I had seen or stories I had been told. I shared the rest of the information with my mother, who was able to verify the rest. It's an amazing thing to have Juliet describe so many details of a person who has crossed considering that she cannot usually see that much detail on the physical plane. Her sight is quite clear with respect to the other side.”

(Note: When experiencing a visitation or ADC, we will often see people when they were in their 'prime' in life, or at their happiest, and not as how they were when we last saw them on this plane, and so forth. This is very common.)

When it finally came time that I had to leave the Factory at Franklin, I was truly and deeply saddened. Not only did I have friends that were visible on this plane, I also had friends who'd lived and worked there before I'd ever even arrived in America. I actually cried as I bade farewell to the gathered group of workers by the entrance to Building 12 from the breezeway. Even now, my eyes fill with tears in thinking about this.

I wish to make two points here: First, the fact that I'm visually impaired may contribute to me being such a natural medium, because I've always been able to see into other dimensions or realms. Since my view of this plane is so restricted, as it were, I naturally tune into other frequencies and see into these realms, because I'm not so distracted by or focused on what is on the physical plane. Second, I'm also a multiple NDEr (near-death experiencer), which means that I'm already familiar with the Other Side and it is most common for NDErs to have pronounced psychic and mediumistic abilities as part of the after-effects of the NDE.

When we reside on this plane, we're operating on a certain dimension or frequency. However, when we cross over, we move into a different and higher frequency—much like moving up on the radio band. So, as a medium—and anyone who experiences ADCs—we're simply seeing individuals who are very real, and very much alive, but merely operating at a different frequency that we are able to tune in to. It's very simple and straightforward.

In fact, my take on all this is that, if more people were willing to acknowledge ADCs—and the fact that we can all experience it—I feel that there'd be far less grief in the world and that people can share in meaningful dialogue with those they love and care about who have crossed over. There's nothing 'woo-woo' about this; it's simply mind-to-mind communication (telepathy) that's already been scientifically proven to be valid. It would also help us feel less 'cut off' from those we love, because we actually can freely communicate with them.

After all, we do live forever ... and we need to acknowledge the fact that people simply change frequencies and planes of existence, but they never die. And it is up to us to keep the lines of communications open by allowing ourselves to tune into these different frequencies and share in communion with those we love.

ADC Accounts Wanted for New Book: Visits From Heaven

Author, Josie Varga, is writing a book entitled Visits from Heaven in which she describes after-death communication from various contributors which have been validated in some way (such as the one above). These are experiences people have had that provide information they couldn't know to be true at the time of the visit, but later found to be true. She had an experience of her own that she described in an eMail. (To read this account, go to www.josievarga.com and click on 'Visits from Heaven'. Josie was also featured on Toward The Light on 6 January 2008.

The Cosmic Website

2007-12-29T14:01:00.000-05:00

I design, build and do a lot of work on websites—not only my own, but other people's sites as well. Since I've been a creative person all of my life—doing art, writing and music—I find it very natural and a joy to create websites and watch them unfold into something both beautiful and functional. Once the site is published and goes on line, one beholds a page with beautiful graphics, images, text and even audio for listening to music or radio broadcasts. There's magnificent colour and depth in the pages and it's quite stunning indeed.

But what is it that makes such beautiful and functional websites possible? You can't just pop an image, audio or text on there, because it won't show up or function at all. What one needs to do is apply HTML code (hyper text markup language). When I'm doing the work in the HTML editor, and in the 'preview' mode, I can see what the page will look like—very lovely indeed—but when I click on 'source' or 'HTML', what comes up is nothing but a bunch of gibberish—strictly text, numbers and symbols that make no sense at all (except to the browsers that decode the HTML that generates the website). There are no colours, images, sounds or anything else; it's merely a bunch of code, written in plain text on a white page. To look at the 'source' page (or code) is quite dizzying and these pages full of code can be very long and complex as well. Yet, without this 'gibberish' these beautiful pages, along with their functionality, could not be possible. I marvel at that every time I'm working on a site. It's interesting to think of what's behind the appearance of a web site and what makes it operate. The beautiful and functional site only works or has meaning for the visitor when the HTML is decoded in such a way that enables one to see the site and navigate through it.

What also repeatedly comes to mind, when I'm working on websites, is that what we perceive as our world is very much the same as a website and the same principles apply. We think we're seeing buildings, trees, oceans, other people, vehicles, clouds, stars, planets, and so on. However, if we were to look at the 'code' that makes up the world around us that we perceive as 'real', we'd see nothing but ... waves and particles that, when filtered and decoded, become the surroundings we see and experience as the physical plane. In fact, as difficult as it may be for one to believe or conceive, what we perceive as 'real' on this plane is actually nothing more than a hologram!

How do I know this? Well, first of all, I had a direct experience of this during my NDEs! In fact, during my transcendent NDE in the mid 1970s, after I was told that I had to return to this plane—which absolutely devastated me—I saw a glimpse of this plane as it was being shown to me from the Other Side. I was told that this plane is an illusion and that I wasn't to identify with it, but only to do the work I was being sent back to do and that I’d merely be passing through. What's interesting is that, as I focused on the physical plane, nothing looked solid at all! It was more like looking at vapour with lines, waves and particles going through it. It did have colour, but it was so drab compared to what I was seeing on the Other Side. Everything seemed somewhat transparent and illusory, indeed.

Once I did re-enter the physical plane, it still didn't appear solid to me and it took a good while for me to adjust and reintegrate back into this plane. It was so drab and dark and void of colour and life in the context of what I'd just experienced on the Other Side. It was so dense and dismal! It was only after I'd been 'back' on this plane for a while, did it start to appear 'solid' again. Still, I now knew, without a doubt, that this plane isn't really solid and that I was being 'tricked' into thinking or perceiving that it was solid or real.

When I was asked to give talks about my NDEs, in recent years, and what I'd gleaned as a result of these experiences, I'd always open the talks by declaring that this physical plane is nothing but a hologram—an illusion—and I'd endeavour to explain how this is so. It wasn't such an easy task—given that I'm not a physicist or scientist replete with technical jargon. How can we put something so ineffable into words in the first place? It's rather impossible, really, but I try to convey things in such a way that will make sense to people and lend credibility to my claims. After all, I was given an assignment from the Other Side that I now had to fulfil!

Then something wonderful happened. I read David Icke's book, Infinite Love is the Only Truth; Everything Else is Illusion. Bingo! Just the title alone said it all and that did it for me. I knew that we were on the same page ... and so I read the book from cover and cover and guess what? He gives full description of the very message I've been awkwardly trying to convey for years! It's spelled out right there on the pages—complete with photographs, illustrations and graphs. He also discusses this in his new book, The David Icke Guide to the Global Conspiracy and How to End it, in the first few chapters.

Everything that we 'see' and perceive as 'real' is nothing but code that has been triggered and activated for enabling us to experience this dimension—just like a website. Everything is energy (waves and particles) and the form that energy takes on is determined by its frequency. Everything vibrates at a different frequency, so when energy is arranged in a specific combination of frequencies, that's what generates the 'stuff' that we experience as 'real'. It's really that simple.

When David Icke first came on my radio show on 20 May 2007, we discussed his book, Infinite Love... and it was such a powerful and uplifting dialogue between us—not to mention the fact that we validated each other’s claims here—my backing up his statements with my experiences and his validating my experiences through his many years of intense and dedicated research. We discussed this further when he came back on my show on 21 October. Alas, he'll be back on Toward The Light on 2 March 2008 and we'll be talking about consciousness!

In fact, DI has written a lot about NDEs in his material in recent years—including an article entitled, 'Fearing for a lifetime ... Something that doesn't Exist' (which can be found on towardTheLight.org under 'Near-Death Studies'); and it must be comforting for him to have people like me come along and say, "Yes, you're right about this, because I've been there! I've experienced this first hand and know exactly what you're talking about."

I've always been aware of the fact that we're multidimensional beings and have thus lived accordingly—my toggling between this and other dimensions throughout my life, but especially as a child. It's always been that way and always so natural for me. I could remember how ‘nonsolid' this plane often appeared to me and how other planes appeared more real and vibrant to me. Yet I was horribly ridiculed and regarded as 'crazy' or 'out of touch with reality' or 'living in a fantasy or dream-world' and so on, because of this. Of course, these individuals who regarded this plane as all that is 'real' were the ones who truly lived in a dream-world, not me! They also think that what's written on an ID card and their body-suit constitutes 'who' they are! Nonsense! Nothing could be further from the truth. We are not our bodies. We are not our brains. We are not what's written on some ID card! Are you kidding? It is merely an assumed identity—a role that we're cast in to as an actor in a play—that we take on whilst we traverse this dimension and nothing more. It is NOT Who we are at all!

This brings me to another point—one that I've mentioned several times—and that's the fact that our consciousness does not originate in the brain. That's been proven time and time again with NDErs. How is it that we can see, hear and experience things when the physical body and brain are ‘dead’? Think about that. It's surely not the brain or physical eyes or ears that are seeing and hearing what's going on when they're completely incapacitated and out of commission. Where are the thoughts originating from and what is giving one the capacity to see and hear if the brain is flat-lined?

The fact is that the brain is not the source of our consciousness; it merely filters and decodes our consciousness in order to be accessed in the 3D world we experience at this time. Likewise, radio and TV signals cannot be accessed without the radio or television set (or receiver) to decode the signals and provide us with the sounds and images we hear and see. The broadcast is coming from elsewhere—not from within the radio or TV unit. Our brains function in the same way that a radio or television does, but the broadcast is coming from our infinite consciousness—consciousness that does not cease to be upon physical death.

Millions of NDEs have been documented at this point and there have obviously been countless accounts of people being conscious and experiencing sight and sound and even other sensory sensations whilst their physical bodies were clinically dead. Furthermore, a number of individuals have come forward, now, to prove the validity of consciousness beyond the confines of the physical brain—not the least of which have been the likes of Peter Fenwick, MD, Pim van Lommel, MD, Claude V. Swanson, Ph.D, David Icke, PMH Atwater, Ed.D, Ph.D (Hon) and others too numerous to mention here.

I've conversed with the above-mentioned individuals and what's so exciting about all this is that we've all ended up using the same analogies completely independent of one another; i.e. we didn't chat back and forth beforehand, and then adopt one another's phrases or analogies. It's as if we've all, indeed, simultaneously tapped into the universal consciousness and come up with the same exact illustrations for these conclusions. Furthermore, there is a lot of love and gratitude that's shared between all of us. It is so heart-warming to connect with these kindred spirits and share this special and uplifting truth with the world.

I also really appreciate what David Icke has done—likening our physical bodies to computers and the brain as the CPU (or central processing unit). But who operates these computers? Ahh, good question, aye? And that's the point: the computer may have a 'brain' and 'memory', etc., but it still requires someone to operate it and provide input. Bingo! It is our consciousness (or infinite awareness) that animates and operates the body computer, not the brain! Consciousness exists outside and independent of the brain, as illustrated earlier, and so it also stands to reason that, when the computer breaks down and no longer works, the operator still functions; i.e. when your body (or computer) dies, your selfhood and consciousness are still very much in tact. When you no longer need to traverse on this plane, you simply give up your 'computer' and move on, that's it! You still exist! Fancy that!

Thus, special souls, like the ones mentioned above, and NDErs like myself have joined hands and hearts to share this very basic truth with everyone that we are, indeed, immortal and live and have consciousness forever.

Websites are beautiful, elaborate and functional, but what you see and access is merely a bunch of code that provides the 'appearance' of images, sound, audio, text and colour that's functional and useful when we visit them. This plane is nothing but a cosmic website made up of code that is filtered and decoded to provide the appearance of a seemingly solid and physical world for our use and enjoyment.

Likewise, our bodies are like computers that enable us to access and store things as needed, to use different programs and applications and to perform certain tasks, etc., but these computers are not who we are; they're merely tools that enable us to function on this plane. It's really as simple as that.

Another interesting thing to note is that memory is not stored in the brain, because the brain is not equipped to store all that memory. So where is the memory stored? It's a magical little thing called DNA. The 95% (and some say 97%) of DNA that's considered so-called 'junk DNA' is what connects us with other dimensions and holds our memories in tact. I'm pleased to say that David Icke and Pim van Lommel have written about this in great detail and all of us have talked about this at length. However, since these lads are much more adept at explaining these details than I am, I will happily refer you to them. Please go to my website and read the material from Dr. Pim van Lommel, Dr. Peter Fenwick and David Icke (as well as the above-mentioned books) and you will be blown away at the profundity of how all this fits so neatly together.

To all of the individuals who've accused me—and others like me—of being 'crazy' or 'out of touch with reality', I sincerely thank you for pushing me to search, research and experience that which has proven you as very mistaken and I hope that you are inspired in knowing that my 'dream world' is real and that you can now break away from your rigid interpretation of 'reality' that is actually the real dream world!

I will close with a poem that I wrote many, many years ago in the 1960s:

Where am I
Sitting here
Looking at the sky?
Am I sitting in a dream
Looking at reality?
Or am I sitting in reality
Looking at a dream?
I can feel this meadow about me
But what is this that I see?
Could it be that a dream is reality
And reality a dream?

Why Are We Here?

2007-11-29T20:49:00.000-05:00

Here is another question from an earnest soul—one that is universal in nature.

Q: What I would like to ask for is any insights you may have on exactly why we come into this dimension. Do we come for a purpose? Is it helping us grow in any way? I tend to get bogged down with stuff a lot, and all the thinking I do. I struggle to live in this world, to find some grounding...

A: First, let me say that what you're going through is so much 'in the air' right now and I, too, have not wanted to be on this plane (but that's nothing new!) and I believe that oft times this feeling comes with those who are sensitive and aware and the struggles that can be compounded when traversing this plane. It's also typical for us NDErs to wonder if 'Scotty will beam us up' and take us Home soon—even on a daily basis. With the climate of our planet being what it is at this time, is it any wonder that a lot of people are feeling this way? Be kind to yourself—whatever you do—and realise that you are actually blessed to be so aware and sensitive. Furthermore, you are not alone in what you're feeling or going through. I honestly believe that it's at epidemic proportions at this point in time! To me, that's a good thing, because people need to be uncomfortable in order to be propelled into making changes.

Like you, I am always beset with deep thoughts, ponderings and musings. I certainly do understand that one! I've always been a deep and complex thinker.

Ahh, yes, there's always that great and universal question: why are we here? There are a myriad of answers and what I share is only a small part of it. I've often seen that, in order to find out what something is, we must first find out what it isn't—thus taking us through a process of elimination, trial and error, discovery, and so on.

Basically, instead of referring to things as 'good' or 'bad', 'right' or 'wrong', I look at it from the perspective of 'what works versus what doesn't work'. On this plane I see us as being in a huge laboratory—endeavouring to find out what does work—and thus, what is true. Then, by going through all these experiences and realising what doesn't work, we come to know what does. Along these lines, there's the analogy that, in order for the Light to know it is the Light, it must first experience its opposite: darkness. That's how I see this plane. By experiencing the total opposite of what/who we really are, we come (in time) to realise that we are divine and are at one with All that Is/LightSource.

I was blessed/cursed with being so acutely aware ever since popping out of the womb. I remember my first thoughts as being: This isn't real ... this isn't me ... I don't belong here ... I want to go Home! Alas, I was so overcome with grief that I was in this form and on this plane, that I was a very sad child and very much a loner. I also had had the distinct memory of coming from a place filled with love and harmony! But this place was nothing like what I knew—not at all.

Sadly, but for important reasons for the process of discovery, this world is so filled with darkness and we're brainwashed, straightaway, into thinking that we're worthless 'sinners', helpless, limited, at the mercy of a vengeful god ... and so on—all of which are lies. But it is only through experience that we can actually come to know the difference between what is real and true versus what is unreal and false.

I've always had the audacity to think for myself—ever since I was very small—and I've certainly not been 'popular' for it, nor have I ever 'fit in', because I've refused to be one of the 'sheeple' who allow others (mainstream media, parents, teachers, governments, society, etc.) to think for them ... rather than allowing themselves to come to their own conclusions. But as David Icke and I were discussing and noting, people are starting to feel really uncomfortable with the state of affairs and they're also starting to talk about all this. Something's not right; something doesn't work right; something doesn't feel right; something needs to change... And that's a good sign. People are waking up and it's people like you who are coming forward and asking questions that will break the spell of the darkness once and for all. Your own innate divinity is 'making noise' and forcing its way to the surface and enabling you to wake up and question all the answers. Good for you!

So, in a very simple short statement, I'd say that we're here to discover our own divinity and the fact that we are made up of the same stuff that Source is. Think of the sun and it's sun-rays. You see individual rays of light emanating from the sun, but they're always connected to the sun—never separate. Well, it's really the same with us ... and as Nanci L. Danison so brilliantly referred to this in her book, Backwards: Returning to Our Source for Answers, she refers to us as 'Sourcebeams', (I love it!), applying the same principle as with the sun. Interestingly, she was very inspired by my NDE account, that she's 'borrowed' some of my references as well as applying her own. She was a guest on my radio show.

So now, as we traverse a world full of darkness, it's actually forcing us to ultimately remember who we are and what is real. During my NDEs, I was told that what is on this plane is a total illusion ... and I could actually see this whole plane as a hologram! So it was very powerful when David Icke's book, Infinite Love is the Only Truth; Everything Else is Illusion came out. I also found it odd that no one had interviewed him about this book ... so I jumped to invite him on my radio programme specifically to discuss this book. What's interesting is that I was able to validate what he's written as a result of my experiences! That was a wonderful two-hour long interview that took place on 20 May 2007 that is also archived and then there's the recent one that took place on 21 October 2007. DI will be back on my show on 2 March 2008 and we'll be talking about ... consciousness!

As we discussed the details of his book, Infinite Love... I was able to say "I've been there and experienced this first hand...!" I know that he was so grateful for that as well. Here, he's done all of this tremendous research and work and I was able to validate his findings as a result of my own experiences whilst he validated my experiences through what he's written and researched! To me, this is a wonderful example of how the Light is bringing special souls together to abolish the darkness once and for all.

Having said that, however, it's always the most painful and difficult as we're nearing the 'end of the battle' as it were. The darkest hour is just before the dawn ... and so on. So it's not going to be a picnic for a while, but it's always good to remind ourselves that 'this too shall pass'; i.e., everything is coming to a head and will change and right itself. The sun will rise again and there will be a new day.

Some people refer to being on this plane as a ride; some refer to it as being in a play in the theatre. They're both good analogies, really. But when we remember that we're just playing roles; we're just actors in a process of discovery and this isn't who we really are, then things start to make a lot more sense and take on a whole new meaning. People are always asking about Hitler, for example, because he was regarded as so deeply evil. Well, so are the Bush family, the Windsors, Dick Cheney and so forth ... but what's interesting is that they're losing power (believe it or not) and they, too, are a part of divine consciousness and are just playing out a role that they were sent here to fulfil. But their essence isn't any more 'evil' than an actor playing a villain. It's all a show; it's all a ride. It's very believable when we're in it ... but it's something that evaporates once we leave this plane and can see the bigger picture.

Love is indeed the ultimate truth. It's not a cliché or some kind of New Age hype. Some of us have been fortunate enough to experience unconditional love first hand and it is something that can never be described in words. You've got to experience it in order to 'grok' it, if you get my drift. But it is real and in time, we will all come to this same great knowing, because we are that love in essence.

I hope this helps, dear Soul. It is hard work to extract ourselves from all the lies that are so deep and thick, but that is exactly what is taking place now. The light is being switched on and the cockroaches (dark ones) are scurrying round about in a frantic display to save themselves. But the light must ... and it will prevail.

Change & Transition

2007-10-31T01:03:00.000-04:00

I'm sitting in my new abode here in Vermont and reading a book by Dr. Pam Kircher, Love is the Link, that's centred on her NDE as well as her practice as a hospice physician. She's made a number of references as to the importance of going into the silence and withdrawing from the distractions of the world and the daily routine and responsibilities we're burdened with. How interesting that I've been yanked from my normal working world as a result of this move and the fact, for example, that I've got no internet connection!

The majority of my work revolves around my being on line and in constant communication with others. Then there's the writing and website work I must do and keep up-to-date, since I do a weekly radio show and am constantly applying updates as things occur. Now, with the fact that I cannot be on line for a good while, the silence is quite striking. Everyone is going to have to wait to hear from me or for me to do my usual routine of the telecommuting. I'm 'out of commission' for now and it is a time to go within and listen to the message from the divine and allow myself to flow into this new chapter of my life.

Even the mobile reception is nearly nil so this, too, forces me into the silence. What's interesting is that I really love the silence ... but feel such a profound obligation to be 'at the ready' for all those who need me. Indeed, it never occurs to me to take a day off or to go on holiday; I only think about my work in being of service to others and always available to them!

Why is this? Is it because I make good $£ doing so? Heck, NO! I make hardly any $£ at all, because most of my work is strictly a labour of love and does not involve generating $£. I am very poor when it comes to $£, but that is no reflection of my true worth or value. But here I am—feeling such an urgent need to be at the beck and call of anyone who may need me ... that I don't think about taking time off for Juliet and to simply ... Be.

But now I am, as it's been imposed on me. Take a holiday, Juliet! It's time you did so! Everyone will simply have to wait. Besides, good things come to those who wait! It's true ... and with Mercury still in retrograde (Rx), it's a time to 'go back' and take inventory of our lives and the inner workings of our psyche and do much-needed evaluation and gain the clarity needed to start a new chapter on good footing.

I have always been a very reflective and introspective individual and not one to be in the middle of social settings—much preferring my own company and to be in nature. When I was contemplating my next move, I asked that if I cannot live on or by the ocean, then I want to be situated in the mountains and on a lake. Well, guess what! I'm now in a small town on the Canadian border that's surrounded by Lake Memphremagog and the beautiful green mountains that Vermont is noted for! I walk to the corner of my road and look down and there's the lake—a stunning lake, the majority of which is in Quebec. I walk along this beautiful body of water and never fail to be in utter awe—between taking the breathtaking view of the lake, the mountains that surround it, and the 'skyscape' above.

I've had enough of the big city. I've found that I've become less tolerant of cities in recent years and, in fact, have never been a fan of cities—other than to visit them. Sadly, American cities are notoriously so filthy and riddled with crime ... and talk about not having any opportunity to go into any silence! How can one do so when there's constant noise--sirens, car horns and 'drive-by-radios', yelling, traffic and so on?

So many thoughts and metaphors have gone through my head of late. I've been aware of the trauma of moving house—which is really no different than dying in so many ways. Think about it: when you're preparing to move house, haven't you gone through such uncertainty as a result of being suspended in the process of the move—no longer living at 'Point A' yet not living at 'Point B' either—that, for an instant, you may question if you might actually be preparing to cross over? That has certainly been the case with me—numerous times when moving house—and especially when things just don't seem to want to work out. I've found that a number of people go through this—at least more mature people that I've spoken with and with whom I've compared notes.

It is interesting to ponder my work that's centred on death, dying, NDEs and the Afterlife and the similarities it has to the process of moving house. There's always that profound feeling of uncertainty that comes with moving house and with transitioning to the Other Side. In reality, they are no different—other than that the physical body is discarded in death, not just unneeded possessions. However, and this is a very important point, every ending is followed by a new beginning! When we cross over, we do not become static, motionless, inanimate beings who are non-existent! It is always the cycle of life-death-life where death is just the ending of one chapter that is immediately followed by a new one! Nothing dies; it just changes form and frequency, that's all. Death is merely a passageway into a new realm. That's why a lot of us won't even use the word 'death', as we prefer to use the more accurate term, 'transition', because that's exactly what it is.

Another analogy that I've oft times used is that of the caterpillar that spends a portion of its life only knowing how to tread the ground, then it must spin a cocoon and withdraw into the deep dark silence ... until it one day emerges a glorious winged creature! It must pull away from all that it has known up until the point prior to spinning the cocoon; then it must enter it and go into the silence alone and in a state of total trust. But let's think about that for a moment. These simple seemingly 'lowly' creatures are so in harmony with their own natural rhythms and flow and what they must do as they unfold in their little lives ... that I'd venture to conclude that it never occurs to them to be worried or frightened; they instinctively know what to do and are absolutely fine with it! Granted, the caterpillar doesn't have a clue what 'butterfly' is, but there's something in its innate nature that allows it to flow into the process that will ultimately manifest as this magnificent winged creature. It doesn't fight and resist the 'death of caterpillar' so that it can be re-birthed as 'butterfly'. It just knows when the time has come for this transition and withdraws to spin the cocoon. And even being birthed as a butterfly is traumatic and fraught with great effort and pain. However, it's through this severe challenge that the wings are given the strength they need in order to fly. Everything in the evolutionary process has got its purpose and meaning.

Yet, as human beings, with the power to reason, we are plagued with fear and worry all the time—living in so little trust in the divine flow and feeling like we've constantly got to be in control. Yet we spin ourselves off into the wrong direction so much of the time, because we're such manipulators by nature and we often fail to see or perceive the bigger picture. We've got to make things happen rather than allowing things to unfold in their natural process. And this is what gets us into trouble...

During my transcendent NDE in the mid 70s, I experienced no fear or worry. I was so full of trust and being constantly enveloped in unconditional love, there was, indeed, no room for fear. I knew in no uncertain terms that everything was evolving exactly as it should and that everything would be just fine. Another thing I learned—which I've mentioned a number of times—is that fear is an acquired state, not a natural one. That is due, sadly, to the fact that the human species has been controlled and manipulated from cradle to grave for thousands of years ... and fear was introduced to us through such manipulation. If this planet were truly centred in love, there'd be no place for fear—none!

Let's face it: so many of the thoughts we have aren't even our own! They're manufactured and programmed into us by outside sources. Then we parrot what's been programmed into us without even realising it. We're taught that we're powerless, sinful, worthless, insignificant, helpless, uncomely, and so on. Just look at these words. Do you see one word that reflect love? I think not. They're all about fear and keeping us locked in fear. In such a mental state, of course we're not going to have an ounce of trust anywhere in our psyche, because we're too centred in fear and 'oh-my-god-what-am-I-going-to-do' syndrome. But it's not about 'doing'; it's about 'being' and 'flow' that can only be accomplished when we're centred in love.

Again, during my NDEs, I only knew love and honestly never had a care! The peace that I felt as a result cannot be compared to anything experienced on this plane—not even sitting by the lake and listening to the breeze blowing through the trees and the lapping water and the call of a distant bird with the sunbeams streaming through the clouds.

It is not our fault that we've been manipulated by a host of sinister agents who control this planet, but it is within our power to take responsibility as to how we choose to deal with this—to call their bluff and turn away from the lies that we've been forced-fed and to resolutely turn to love and having that rule our lives rather than fear being at the helm. We do not have to believe what we've been told; we do not have to believe in the lies and myths that are only there to mislead and confuse and disempower us in the first place.

It's very interesting to me that these sinister forces seem completely sold on keeping us from entering the cocoon and going through with the natural process of evolving into magnificent beings! We're so very close to entering that state, yet we stop short of it, because we're so afraid of change and the unknown. We hold back and opt not to take that quantum leap of faith and delve into uncharted or unknown territory. In our frail minds, we've got to hold fast to what is familiar and we refuse to change or grow!

I've got a friend who's so attached to everything past, he'll even hold on to things that are broken! He just can't let go, because he perceives himself as losing power or his sense of self if he does. Yet he's the loveliest person and a joy to know. He's lived in the same house for a quarter century and I, on the other hand, move every few months! At least, that's been the case for past few years. Alas, I just did move number twelve since 2003!

I'm not advocating moving house every few months ... but I've had to accept that there's a divine reason for all of this change and it's certainly had a way of keeping me in the present and ready for new endeavours and not being allowed to be 'stuck' or 'attached' in my life. People, places and things have always so easily been removed from me all my life—whether they were dear and meaningful to me or not. It didn't matter. I've always had to change and grow. I didn't come here to 'loiter'; I came here to get something done—something that's in service to others--so that is bound to carry me to unknown places and situations.

Now, I have been moved into somewhat of a cocoon ... and who knows how many layers there may be to it! Yet, one thing was made clear to me during my NDEs: the LightSource is the ultimate power who's always going to see me through—regardless of what may appear on the surface. If we experience set-backs and delays (which I certainly have been dealing with now), we've got to realise that there's a very good reason for it. There is a divine order at work here, but it's not going to function according to the agenda set by our own egos.

We are multi-dimensional beings who actually reside on different dimensions simultaneously and we need to be in sync with our soul and what it dictates. Our soul is aware of Source and the flow of the 'multiverses' that it resides in, so there's a lot more to take into account than just the physical persona residing on planet Earth. Haven't you had something inside nagging at you to wait a moment or go in a different direction than what you'd originally wanted to do—only to find out that the delay or change of direction saved your life? That was your soul speaking to you and offering you higher wisdom, because of its constant and aware link to Source! This is nothing to baulk at here.

That's another thing that the powers-that-be don't want us to know: that we're always connected to Source and have got the capacity to engage in dialogue with the Light and possess great awareness. Have you noticed how anything that hints at intuition or being 'psychic' is regarded as 'evil' or 'of the devil'? It's because this is yet another ploy to keep us dumbed down and locked in ignorance. If being aware were not demonised and we were encouraged to use our minds to their full potential—and not just 10% of it—we'd be enormously powerful beings with the capacity to break the spell of fear and servitude once and for all.

Fear is the by-product of a host of lies that have been shoved down our cosmic throats since time immemorial and it's now time to cough up that poison and claim back our divinity, which is our rightful heritage. We are divine in essence. We are 'Sourcebeams' that are always radiating from and connected not only to Source, but to one another and all life. This is another thing that is so apparent to many of us who experience near-death states. When we can detach from the ego-mind and the physical body—which isn't 'who' we are anyway—we see a much broader picture of what is real and we remember who we are and what we're made of. Oh, it's such a joy! Consequently, many of us come back to this plane indifferent towards materialism and, instead, opting to do work that's centred in service to others. We recognise the divine in all life and feel a gleaming responsibility to love and support all life, because it's part of us. We are all One.

Dr. Peter Fenwick on Toward The Light

2007-10-10T02:22:00.000-04:00

On 30 September I had the honour of interviewing Dr. Peter Fenwick on Toward The Light. Alas, if I were to have a 'hero' in the medical field, Dr. Fenwick would definitely qualify as one, as he's done a tremendous amount of work over the years to validate the NDE as authentic and real—it not being some sort of hallucination or the product of a 'dying brain'.

I first met Dr. Fenwick at the annual IANDS (International Association for Near-Death Studies) conference in Chicago in 2004. He gave a most compelling lecture on the nature of NDEs as he detailed the extensive research that he's done over the years.

I remember sitting next to PMH Atwater during his lecture and she and I were both so animated and excited with everything that came out of his mouth. It was quite something to behold two white-haired ladies bobbing up and down like two excited children. Given that we're both NDErs—ones who truly believe in the legitimacy and validity of the NDE—we were truly excited that Dr. Fenwick gave very clear, concise details about how and why the NDE is real, when it occurs and how it is distinctly different from a hallucination. He also pointed out that the lucid clarity that occurs with an NDE is something that is maintained by the experiencer and does not become a faint memory over time; nor does it become distorted as a hallucination does.

Dr. Fenwick provided a 'powerpoint' presentation that featured detailed graphs, dialogues from patients—including a child who'd had a near-death experience—and other images and illustrations.

During our interview, he recapped a lot of this data and shared it with the listening audience.

Dr. Fenwick got into the NDE research as a result of a patient who'd come to him regarding a cardiac catheter that had gone wrong. He became unconscious and he left his body; then he watched the resuscitation process and was very frightened by the whole thing. He was told by the physicians that they'd have to do it again, but he wasn't about to endure another traumatic ordeal, so he simply left the hospital. This patient only told Dr. Fenwick and his wife, Elizabeth, about the NDE that he had had. This took place in 1986.

This triggered Dr. Fenwick's research with Margo Grey who did extensive research into the NDE.

Peter participated in a film centred on NDEs on a QED documentary on BBC Television in 1987. He and his wife wrote a book called The Truth and the Light. As a result of all this he received over a 1000 eMails and letters thanking him for his work in this documentary.

He said that there are several reasons why the NDE is valid as occurring during a flat-line. He's done a number of studies. For example, he found a person, Penny Satori (sp?), who just finished her Ph.D and she conducted a study where she invited cardiac patients to describe their OBEs and then rate them. Through these studies, they were able to determine that those who claimed to be OBE during a resuscitation, actually did accurately describe the resuscitation process.

A third of the people that Penny worked with, had NDEs that included an OBE. Peter points out that people are only interested in their bodies when they're floating above them. They don't look round the room—only focusing on their bodies. That's why targets are placed near where the patient is situated, so that they will be seen whilst the patient is out-of-body.

Dr. Fenwick has been working on these studies a lot over the past five years. He's working with Dr. Sam Parnia where they've planted targets in the rooms, for example, where one has had a cardiac arrest and they've set this up in 18-20 hospitals throughout the UK. These targets are placed in strategic locations where one can easily spot and identify them whilst out-of-body during a near-death episode, then report what they saw afterwards.

I asked him about his being open with hospital staff about NDEs and their research projects. He explained that the ethics committee is extremely important and they get permission from them to conduct these studies and have been granted them. There are resuscitation officers who are brought in whenever anyone has a cardiac arrest and they preside over each patient and work in the resuscitation process and also report to the physicians.

He's also working on researching the DBP (deathbed phenomena) with different hospitals and it's so moving, really. He's realised that in our western culture, we're so unaware of the state of mind of the dying person. This is when I brought up the article that I'd written entitled, The Dying Process ~ From an Experiencers Perspective and how this all ties in to what is actually occurring during the dying process. I describe in clear detail what is actually happening to one as one is dying and this also includes how ones consciousness shifts and expands as one prepares to transition and what occurs after one transitions.

Peter observed that, a week before a person dies, one is greeted by deceased loved ones who are there specifically to help the person through the dying process. What the loved ones say—along with the response of the dying person—is very accurate. The dying person will then say something like, "Tomorrow, I'll be going on a journey with so-and-so," and that is exactly what has happened. Peter did a TV show in England about this and, once again, he received a thousand eMails from people who've given examples of DBVs and there's also the phenomena of deathbed coincidences.

At the moment of death, the dying person communicates telepathically with another family member and indicates that he or she is dying, but is okay. A person sees the dying person and is reassured that s/he is okay. The mind of dying individuals is able to connect with ones they love at the moment of death and it is reassuring to the living.

Often the body of the dying person is surrounded by light at the moment of death. There are great things that happen. Dr. Fenwick was pointing out that people's clocks often stop when one crosses over—not just digital ones, but mechanical ones as well. Bells will go off and animals will also react. It's indeed a deep and complex phenomena.

Dr Fenwick is working with a nurse, Sue, and another lovely nurse, Hillary, who are working in palliative care in hospitals and nursing homes as well. He explained that the staff in nursing homes are very unwilling to talk about this subject—a real reluctance to talk about it—as if it's 'taboo'. Many of the staff feel that they've not been trained property about the dying process, so they avoid it. We talked about this issue and the fact that there need to be more training in the area of death and dying and to face it squarely and not regard it as something 'taboo' or to fear.

It's not right to think that the dying are 'hallucinating', etc. Dr. Fenwick is a strong advocate of the validity of the DBP and asks for reports from staff regarding what they observe with the dying and does outreach after one year's time to find out what's occurred with the dying.

Dr. Fenwick is putting together a model of by which people can go into hospitals and different facilities and talk about these phenomena as well as to create a pamphlet. I offered him the use of my article in support of this endeavour. He also wants to create a CD that features stories/accounts of experiencers.

He points out that story after story after story are all so consistent and knowing that they've got to be valid in every way.

He explains that, when a deceased person comes to visit the dying person, it's always for a very specific reason—not for fun or entertainment. The dialogue is meaningful and to the point—usually with the deceased relative letting the dying person know that s/he's come to accompany him or her Home.

I was mentioning the fact that when people are on the verge of death, their ego is dissipated and they're not going to fabricate anything. They're very honest, open and authentic. Peter talks about the importance of 'dying well'. It's very important, for example, to resolve issues with loved ones before one transitions. If there are issues within relationships, for example, these need to be resolved before one transitions.

Another thing that happens is that dying people indicate that this is not the end and they're aware of the fact that they're just making a transition into a new or different realm. Sometimes it also happens that, when a dying person is visited by a deceased loved one who's come to assist one in transitioning, he or she may not be ready, so the deceased person will say, "All right, I'll be back for you tomorrow" and the dying person knows when he or she will transition. Death is very structured process.

Many eMails that Dr. Fenwick received addressed what happens at the moment of death. In the Tibetan culture, one talks about the mental state of the dying and the sequence of things that they see and experience. A dying person will first see a sort of mirage, then smoke, then appearances of sparks or fireflies; then the dying person stops breathing, then comes the orange light, then white light, then the living blackness, loss of consciousness and then moving into a higher state of consciousness and switching to a higher vibrational frequency.

Next we got onto the topic of the content of NDE accounts by recent NDErs as opposed to those who had NDEs before knowledge of NDEs even existed or was well circulated. Dr. Fenwick did a survey centred on NDEs and took 500 out of the 2000 NDE contacts he had and asked them: "What did you know about the NDE at the time of your experience?" and 98% of them had never come across it and didn't know anything about it at all. He also informed me that there really was no difference between the accounts of those who'd had NDEs with no prior knowledge of them and those who did have prior knowledge.

He states that over 70% of people who've had NDEs were transformed by their experiences and positively so.

Next, he explained that 'hallucination' is a psychiatric term where someone experiences a sensory experience that is nothing to do with what is going on outside someone. This is very different from what occurs during near-death states.

In cases when the heart has stopped, the cardiac arrest is an excellent model for validating the NDE. The clinical definition of death is when there's no pulse, no respiration and fixed dilated pupils. Yet it is during such states that, after resuscitation, people report being fully aware of the resuscitation process—among other things. The NDE is not a confusional experience; they're very clear.

Dr. Fenwick points out the fact that the NDE actually occurs whilst one is clinically dead—not before or afterwards. When people faint, they lose consciousness very quickly and when people come out of the unconscious state, they're very confused; so none of these states would coincide with the NDE.

He's now working on a book compiling people's experiences as well as the target research. I'm certain that it will be another powerful statement validating the NDE as real and rich with meaning.

I'm truly blessed to have had Dr. Fenwick on Toward The Light. He was so gentle and full of compassion and deep knowing with every word he spoke. I am so pleased and grateful to see what is considered credible evidence in favour of the NDE reaching countless individuals worldwide. Peter is such a tremendous source of inspiration to me ... with all of the work that he's done in this field. What he has done is huge and he's creating a legacy that will change the way we view death and dying that will impact humanity for years to come.

Nanci L. Danison on Toward The Light

2007-09-25T21:55:00.000-04:00

On 23 September, I had the honour of interviewing Nanci L. Danison on Toward The Light. Nancy is an NDEr and the author of Backwards: Returning to Our Source for Answers. Don't let the word, 'backwards' throw you, as there's such a bright and logical reason for the use of this word. Nanci states in her Introduction: "To my surprise, many of the societal and religious beliefs I held before this experience, turned out to be the exact opposite of the truths I gleaned from the Source. They are backwards. Moreover, our journey through life from this point on will be metaphorically backwards—back to the Source that created us, back to the fully awakened state of awareness we left when we decided to temporarily enter into human life. For these reasons, I begin this account with the words, 'we have it backwards'."

This is right in line with the slogan of our organisation, Toward The Light, for example, that is followed by '...leading back to the Source'! It implies that we go 'back' Home—back to a place that's familiar and real, back to our authentic selves and back to the Light. Nanci—just as I mention in my NDE account—states that every living thing returns to Source no matter what, and without exception. We're talking about everyone—all living things!

As I was reading these pages, I found it so refreshing that Nanci's beyond-death experience was not coloured by societal, cultural or religious influences and that is was, in fact, very similar to my own transcendent NDE in the mid 1970s. As I read details of what she gleaned through her experience, it was so parallel to what I experienced, I realised that I didn't need to write a book, as it's already been written! However, I do plan to write a child's book on this magical topic—complete with my own illustrations.

Nanci does a splendid job at describing Source (or what I'll often also refer to as LightSource) and the misconceptions brought about by the 'genderfying' of it by erroneous human thinking. She states, "We have created a concept of God that mirrors the human species in many ways. Whereas the Bible talks about God making man in his own image, humans have similarly 'made' a concept of God in human image." This is exactly what I've been stating all along—both in my talks and writings! The notion of a vindictive 'he-god' that condemns its own creation stems from such erroneous thinking! Nanci also states, "Source is universal by nature. ...I came to understand that Source is not a discrete, separate-from-us God-person as religions characterise 'him'. Human religion has this concept totally backwards. I received 'knowing' that God is actually more of an enormous entity than a singular, individual, discrete person. Source is more akin to what we'd call an intelligent, self-aware, emotional energy source, or an alive energy source. God is not a person in the way that humans think of themselves as individuals persons. ...God/Source is simultaneously both a single, unified field of energy, and a collective being composed of all of creation, including us."

Years ago I read a novel entitled, Radio Free Albemuth by Philip K. Dick. Therein he described a composite entity, VALIS (vast active living intelligence systems), that's not unlike our experience and description of Source. It is, indeed, unconditionally loving intelligence that is profoundly creative and curious! And that's why we, as the individual 'Sourcebeams' —as Nanci terms it—were created: to allow Source to experience individual expressions of Itself, and to create, experiment and experience through these expressions. Even as the sunbeams are individual rays of the sunlight, they are still completely and always connected to the sun and never 'severed' or apart from it. So too, the 'Sourcebeams' can never be separated or apart from Source!

This is excellent! And I was jumping up and down in my seat—like an excited child—as I was reading these words. We're off to the right start, I kept thinking, and more and more people need to see and hear these loving words of wisdom in order to help one overcome one's fear of death and of the Source Itself!

Nanci goes on to describe how the Source never judges or condemns its own creation; only the human ego does! But, alas, I won't keep quoting from the book and spoiling it for you. Instead, I want to highly encourage that you purchase this fine book as it's released on 1^st October 2007! It is a fascinating and comforting read all the way through and something that is so relevant in every way.

Speaking with Nanci on the show was delightful. She described her NDE, in 1994, and the fact that the wisdom and knowing she gleaned from her experience actually was more completely 'downloaded' at a later date in 2001. She described herself as being pulled down, then out of the centre of her body with a 'whoosh' during a medical procedure. At first, after she left her body, she felt like she entered into a dark void—a blackness all round her. She then saw a pinpoint of light and realised that she was to enter into it. As she had the thought, she suddenly found herself in the light and enveloped in the all-encompassing unconditional love that left her with a complete feeling of peace with no fear whatsoever.

She described the transition to the Other Side as being very orderly. She felt no emotional connection to her physical body when she looked upon it from the vantage point of her NDE where she was very detached. She did miss the sensation of touch, however ... or feeling her skin ... or eating chocolate. We got a good laugh out of this! Yet I stated that I, on the other hand, had no experience of the physical, nor did I miss it or long for it. In fact, I was totally oblivious ... so everyone's NDE is unique unto one's self.

Nanci was given the information—by the 'Council', as they are called—that her physical body could go on without her, if she chose not to return to physical life, and she explained that the human animal is a separate entity from the soul self. (Refer to her book.) She mentioned being with the 'Council'—evolved souls who told her that she could either stay or return to her body, but that her body would still be animated! She did indicate that there are some human beings who exist without souls in tact—something worth looking in to and researching, for sure. When encountering certain individuals, it may leave one to wonder...

Nanci then described her special gift as having wonderful memory. She also indicated that she chose to come back, because she wanted to tell people about the wonderful truths she gleaned from her NDE. The more she thought about her NDE, the more memory would come back to her.

She was also stating that the reason so many NDErs are coming back to share their stories now is because we're entering into a new epoch. We're coming towards the end of the second epoch and entering into the third. People are going to be given the option to leave or stay on this plane and that we're needed for helping to raise everyone's awareness and to overcome fear.

She started writing the book in 1995—one year after her NDE—and got fully in to the writing of it in 2001 as the memory of the details of her experience fully came to her. She had 700 pages written when she was finished with her book and the chapters came independently of one another—seemingly unrelated—and she feels that this came from her higher self, her soul. We are all beings of light, she explains, and a part of that being manifests as a soul that conjoins a human body. Our self is always in the light—even though part of it exists in conjunction with a physical body that appears to be separate.

Understanding Source was the most dramatic, humbling and wonderful part of Nanci's NDE. To say the very least, this was a deeply touching show.

PMH Atwater on Toward The Light

2007-09-12T01:43:00.000-04:00

On 9 September, I had the honour of interviewing PMH Atwater on Toward The Light. PMH is no stranger to TTL as she was my special guest when TTL débuted on 6 March 2006 and she's been on my show at least a half-dozen times. The shows are always so lively and chock full of fascinating information — no two shows being alike. We've talked about near-death states (of course), her extensive research in the realm of NDEs, her work and research centred on children — the 'new' children, as she calls them, as well as child NDErs — great changes that are taking place on our planet and within all of us, future events in our world, and, most recently, talking about her Runes of the Goddess — something for which she possessed an instant 'knowing' from the first time she saw them.

When I met PMH a number of years ago, we hit it off immediately. There was a recognition with each other, and a deep knowing, and I fully believe that we've known each other before — in another life, in another dimension, or whatever — and we knew that we each had a special calling (as is often the case with one who's had an NDE). We were immediately at ease with each other and I felt a profound sense of trust straight away with her. In fact, we acknowledged each other as 'soul sisters'.

There is something very sisterly about us too — one from America and one from the UK — our both being easily in awe at the littlest things, and having playful spirits that have us ever so animated and with a ready laugh. We've both even got white shoulder-length hair (although my hair is actually growing down my back now, which it hadn't done since the early 70s when I was ill with cancer!), and we've got the most curious and inquisitive minds. Despite our ages, we don't appear to be slowing down much! We continue to plough forward with our endeavours to study, research, learn, write and share with others what we've learned. It's as if we're still in university — always thirsting for knowledge and having the will to pass it on to others in the hopes that they'll also be empowered and uplifted.

As a fellow NDEr, and one who's written a dozen books and lectured all over the world, PMH has been a tremendous role model for me as well. I had not fully 'come out' yet when I met PMH, so I wasn't actively circulating and broadcasting the fact that I'm an NDEr — let alone being all over the media with it. Yet, it was she who 'gave me permission', as it were, to have the courage to finally come out and proclaim that I'm not only an NDEr, but have got a wealth of information to share.

I remember hearing PMH speak in NYC a number of years ago at a special congress for the IIPC (International Institute of Projectiology and Conscientiology), which is centred on the study of OBEs/astral projection and consciousness. In fact, what was so interesting about this is that, the moment my daughter and I walked into the lobby of the Academy of Medicine in Manhattan, PMH emerged from the auditorium simultaneously and she'd had a feeling that we were approaching. She grabbed my hand and led us into the auditorium to the front row shortly before she was to give her speech. We gave her good moral support and I knew that she was comforted by our presence there and our knowing. :)

She shared very powerful information about her own NDEs and how they've impacted her as well as talking about her NDE research that she was catapulted into the year following her three NDEs in 1977. She shared deeply personal and emotional material that caused her to be chocked up and in tears at one point ... and, believe me, I certainly know and understand this. Going through an NDE and thinking or talking about it and its impact will definitely bring one to tears. Indeed, how would it not do?— given that these events profoundly change our lives forever! Yet, she was criticised for her tears during her speech by the IIPC! To me, her tears were the most moving part of her talk, as they helped us to feel the deep authenticity of her experiences and what she's gleaned as a result. I defy anyone to criticise her (or anybody) for being so real, as her talk was profoundly rich in content and full of meaning — so compassionately and beautifully delivered!

She was so warm in her presentation ... and I hung on every word, I was so fascinated and enthralled by what she was sharing. The lady's loaded with information — her being a walking encyclopaedia at the very least! Yet there was never any haughtiness or pretentiousness at all. Alas, I was taking all this in. I was only just starting to give talks on this topic myself — having never been a public speaker in my life — and I was terrified at the very thought of speaking in public. I could sing my heart out on stage since I was a wee child, but speak? Oh, no, never! But now I was learning from a pro ... and if a pro could cry, well so could I, because, indeed, I did cry during my very first speech and others even sense! That's how much this topic will really stir those of us who've been through an NDE or related experience. I'm full of tears right now — just thinking about this!

We're not supposed to be dry academics, here. The NDE affects people in such deep and profound ways that I honestly cannot imagine someone who's an NDEr being a deadpan whilst speaking about his or her NDE or related experience. This is an emotionally charged subject and the tears are a precious gift in my view ... and I was already learning from PMH that what comes naturally is what wins in this work. It's not like other talks and presentations and it's not supposed to be. It's supposed to be spontaneously given and spoken from the heart — period!

For some reason — and I'm not entirely sure why — PMH seemed to see a lot of potential in me, because she was encouraging me on this path from the get-go. She encouraged me to write, to have the courage to ask for what I want, to share my experiences with others in the form of talks, meetings, etc. In fact, I started holding NDE discussion/support group meetings in Nashville where I lived at the time — of all places! Not only that, but I was asked to be interviewed on radio in Nashville and later ended up on television! Blimey, I wanted to faint whilst in front of that camera! But the fact that all this evolved and was given life in ... Nashville is so auspicious in and of itself! Who would have thought that the 'buckle of the bible belt' would have catapulted me into my 'coming out' with being an NDEr and ending up all over the media in Music City? And I must add, too, that I was treated with the greatest respect in all of my media experiences there — even if some of the material wasn't complete or totally accurate.

I had even left Nashville, then ended up returning there to live again. It was PMH who told me that I was sent back there for the purpose of doing this work centred in NDEs. And now I've been doing my own radio show for one and a half years! Wow! Yet I've got to thank PMH for her tremendous love, encouragement and support for my being where I am now. With her tremendous example, she helped me to have the nerve and conviction to follow through with serving the world with this special work. She's given me much praise as well and that means a lot — again, because I regard her as very professional and one who absolutely knows what she's doing. She's an amazingly prolific writer and speaker — one who's not afraid to playfully, yet seriously spew out all kinds of loaded information that will keep you pondering things for hours, even days, thereafter.

I have noticed that NDErs seem to be blessed with a greater courage than what would be considered normal. There's something about the experience that demands that we be totally and completely real and authentic ... and just 'saying it like it is' with no holding back.

It's so interesting to realise, in retrospect, that I used to be so very timid and shy. I never would have done this stuff in a million years! Be on television? You've got to be kidding, of course! Mind you, I wasn't on some big-time TV programme or anything like that; I was just on the news twice, but that's still huge when you think about it. I always sang on stage (as I stated above) with not a thought or care in the world, but to get up and speak ... or host a radio show ... live ... in public was simply unheard of and never even a consideration!

In fact, I was sitting in my office one day and wondering what the heck I was doing in Nashville. The following morning, I got a call from Channel 4 News wanting me to be on a special news broadcast on Life After Death, but it got postponed on account of some election, so I forgot about it. Then, another day, I asked the same question and blimey if I didn't get a second call from Channel 4 News! I stopped asking that question! I was on the news in November 2005 with two other NDErs.

Then in January, I was asked to be interviewed on a radio programme hosted by Claude V. Swanson, Ph.D — a physicist who authored the book, Synchronized Universe. After the show was over, the owner of the radio network was so impressed with my topic and delivery, he asked me to host my own radio show! I was gob-smacked. Me?! But, alas, a number of people had been trying to encourage me to do my own radio show for ages, so this should not have been a surprise to me. Thus I accepted the offer and had to go to work making arrangements for booking guests and getting into the busy mode of producing a radio show.

When thinking of whom my first guest should be, it only made sense to have the one person who's been such a tremendous source of support and encouragement — not to mention, an incredible role-model to me: PMH Atwater. I contacted her and she was all too delighted to be my first guest. I knew too, that, the fact that she'd been on countless radio shows, she'd give me honest feedback about my work as a host.

When that fateful day arrived, Monday, 6 March 2006, I admit that I was nervous as could be. I took my 'Rescue Remedy' and did some deep breathing and waited for the moment that I'd be on the air live — doing my own radio show — and welcoming someone who's got a special place in my heart. Alas, my voice 'squeaked' a little as I was introducing PMH, because I was beset with emotion — not unlike when we've given talks about our NDEs and feeling such deep emotion. Yet, it was like sitting over tea with a friend and nattering away about something very meaningful that we both understood so well ... and something that's very close to our hearts.

Being the perfectionist that I am, I tend to tear myself to shreds and have always been so critical of myself. Yet this is what PMH had to say about this first show: "I must say you were most professional. You did a better job than most radio talk show hosts I have been interviewed by, and you have a good voice... I feel very good about the show. I hope you do, too. Big hugs to you, oh, great one!" Wow! I couldn't believe my eyes when I read this; I was moved to tears — not to mention how deeply grateful I was ... and still am. I've got to say that, with over 26 years of research on NDEs, writing books and articles and speaking on radio, television and literally all over the map, this lady would know a good host, I've no doubt.

I honestly don't think that I'd ever have had my 'coming out' and getting into this work if it weren't for the constant encouragement — even insistence — from PMH. It's taken everything I have to muster the nerve to do this work and to be circulating in the media the way I am now ... but the calling is larger than the fear — much larger — and Scotty won't beam me up until I've successfully completed this sacred work that I was called back to do.

Thank you, PMH, for being such a special friend and soul sister and for all your love, encouragement, support and wisdom. And happy birthday to you on 19.9! The world is a much better and more enlightened place because of your being here and blessing us all with your beautiful light!

Photo: NDErs, PMH Atwater & Peter Tufts (standing) & Rev. Juliet Nightingale (sitting) at the 2004 IANDS Conference in Chicago.

Vicki Sigris on Toward The Light

2007-09-06T21:37:00.000-04:00

On 2 September, I had the honour of interviewing Vicki Sigrist 'Two Feathers' on Toward The Light. What struck me straight away about Vicki is the fact that she's a lifelong visionary — one who's had visions and prophetic dreams since childhood that also included her being able to see and communicate with the angelic realm. It was like listening to my own life story in some ways as I heard her speak to me, both on the telephone and during the show.

Sadly, however, as happens with a lot of aware children, her father discouraged her — apparently to the point where she, herself, came to regard all psychics as 'suspect' and even fearing incurring harm from them! But let's back up a little. Although Vicki still continued to have dreams and visions, she did not speak about them and went about her life trying to be obedient to the formula imposed by society — that is, until she had an NDE in her early 30s as a result of stroke that changed her life forever.

Her NDE not only validated her experiences as a visionary, it heightened her gift as a visionary and even imbued her with the power to heal others. Or perhaps it offered her the ability to tap into something that was already well in tact. Not long after her NDE, she was called to travel to places such as Hawai'i (on the island of Kaua'i, where I used to live), China and Tibet, Peru and sacred Hope/Navaho sites where she was recognised by other wise women and healers for her unique abilities. She was granted audience with a powerful medicine woman in Hawaii that one would normally have had to wait a long time for and she was taken right in straight away!

Thus, Vicki finally fully embraced her gifts as a visionary and healer and started 'Two Feathers Healing' and developed the 'Seven Steps to Transformational Healing' — the details of which she shared during the show.

After all of her travelling to the aforementioned sacred places, Vicki was given a gift certificate to see a gifted and respected psychic, which she decided to take advantage of. Strangely, she kept entertaining the notion that the psychic would harm her and poison her water! Once she entered the psychic's office, the psychic, straightaway, told her that she'd not offer her any water! The psychic proved to be very accurate and loving and she really did affirm Vicki's own gifts and what she was to do with them on her life's journey. This brought a great smile to my face — to say the least!

Since I am a professional psychic myself, I was very disturbed as to where Vicki got this odd notion that psychics were dangerous and would inflict harm on their clients! I mentioned the fact that Vicki, herself, is a visionary and that being psychic simply means to be acutely aware and being able to see things more clearly than one who's so deeply involved in or in the middle of something. It is often easier to gain clarity from outside sources that offer an objective insight where our own inner vision may be lacking. When posing this questions to Vicki on where her phobia came from, she merely indicated that it was as a result of her father's discouraging her from her own visions and dreams as a child ... but no further details were provided. Did her father teach her that psychics were somehow 'evil' or 'harmful'? That remains to be seen...

This one topic did concern me — as it's been brought up before, numerous times, and there have been lots of issues concerning psychics — but especially with regards to religion. Perhaps using a simple metaphor to describe exactly what a psychic is and does will help shed light on something that should be so simple and basic ... and remove the horrible negativity and barbaric thought processes coming from the dark ages.

I am legally blind — as some people are already aware — and I oft times need to ask someone to help me 'see' something. If I'm standing at a street corner, I can't read the street sign across the road, so I must ask someone to read it for me and tell me what it says. That's simple enough, aye? Furthermore, when a person is looking at a radar screen s/he is able to get an overview of a large region and the activity therein — thus providing guidance for vessels or aircraft for proper navigation that will enable them to avoid disaster. This is really no different than what a psychic does: simply offering an overview and insight that will help someone navigate better in one's journey in life. I've also used the analogy of a 'cosmic weather report' as, when we know what the 'weather' conditions are going to be, we can be better prepared for whatever endeavour we must venture into. A psychic can 'read the street sign', provide overviews and probable conditions to be aware of ... so that we can make more informed and intelligent decisions in our lives. That's it!

It is very natural and normal to be multi-sensory and there is, indeed, nothing wrong with using these faculties that are an innate part of our being. As children, most of us still recall past life experiences, we can see and experience other dimensions (before we're brainwashed out of it) and share communion with inter-dimensional beings (invisible friends), have prophetic dreams and so forth. Why don't people realise that these sacred tools are a part of our divine heritage and it gives us great power in our lives — such that can often save our lives when we pay attention to and honour the insights — however they may come to us?

It is, indeed, a malevolent force that's demonised heightened states of awareness (clairvoyance, telepathy, prophetic dreams/visions, premonitions, etc.) for the sole purpose of keeping the human race dumbed down and locked in ignorance in order to be disempowered and thinking we're 'helpless' unless we reach outside of ourselves. This is a huge mistake and that's why I get agitated when anyone baulks at psychics or anything that defies the limitations of the physical plane. We must break this spell of ignorance so that human beings can claim back their divine heritage as powerful and magnificent beings!

Hence, I'm seeing a pattern, here, where a lot of individuals who are very aware, but who close off their awareness, undergo a life-changing event such as a near-death experience to put them back on track! They serve as a great wake-up call to not only embrace our true awareness, but also to remember Who we are as divine beings!

I'm no exception to this ... as I was also questioning my sanity in some ways — which can happen repeatedly when you seem to always be going 'against the tide' and people are constantly making negative debunking remarks. Like Vicki, I'd been a lifelong visionary and mystic and one who's had countless mystical experiences that defy the confines of the physical plane or the five-sense interpretation of 'reality'. Therefore, I had to undergo a huge NDE in the mid 70s that set me straight and validated my deep knowing and experiences throughout my life. I had had other NDEs, but it's amazing how quickly one can be thrown back into the fear and 'thinking small' when there's such a barrage of negative input being flung at you from all angles!

Oh, and if that's not enough, I waited 25 years before even 'coming out' with the fact that I'm an NDEr! That's how intimidating such widespread disregard for anything beyond the five-sensory realm can be. Well, just like the gay population have had their 'coming out' and 'pride', we NDErs are likewise having our 'coming out' and 'pride' ... and there's no turning back now — not after being on radio, television, in various publications all over the world and so on — not to mention having my own radio show centred on NDEs!

Thus, Vicki having her NDE brought her back to herSelf and her precious gifts where she's now helping so many people. She's so gentle, loving, approachable and easy to converse with. There's nothing 'woo-woo' about her or her work. She's very straightforward and nurturing, very intelligent and creative and her seven steps to transformational healing make a lot of sense. She's a very practical woman who's a mother and wife with a happy family life. She's someone you immediately feel very comfortable with and at ease.

I am so pleased to add another individual to my roster of friends and fellow practitioners and, yes, a fellow NDEr.

Matthew Delooze on Toward The Light

2007-09-04T00:34:00.000-04:00

On 26 August, I had the honour of interviewing Matthew Delooze on Toward The Light. This is the third time I've had him on my show, because what he's been through and what he's had to share will keep you on the edge of your seat! Matthew is an abductee from Lancashire (as I am) who was originally abducted at the age of six whilst he was playing in a field near his home in Burnley. A bird caught his attention and he kept gazing up at it and suddenly, he was transported up into a circular ship where he was met by a most lovely lady — a very benevolent being who told him that he'd agreed, before incarnating, to help save the world. He protested, stating, "I'm only six years old!" And she said, "You will be wiser when you're older." She warned him that he'd experience multiple encounters that would not be pleasant, but that he was protected and would get through all this and be all right ... and that they were happening for a very important reason.

Thus, Matthew's first unpleasant experience involved two reptilian entities coming into his bedroom and carrying him away into another ship and this occurred on an average of once a week for a duration of four to five years! Consequently, he wrote a book detailing these accounts entitled, You Will Be Wiser When You're Older, but that was only after he had the strongest urge to 'come out' and share all of this in the year 1999. He had kept it all hidden and even experienced his own bout of amnesia about his childhood abductions until an incident at work suddenly brought everything back to him and catapulted him onto the path that he is now on — travelling, researching, writing and sharing the truths of what he's discovered as a result.

Independently of such noted researchers as David Icke and Stewart Swerdlow, etc., Matthew has had his own direct experiences with the interdimentional alien beings that are reptilian and who reside in the lower fourth dimension. Commonly known as the Serpent Cult, these beings — through inter-breeding — have created a bloodline of beings that are part human and part reptilian. These constitute the elite ruling families (including the royal family the Windsors) who, in conjunction with the reptilians on the lower fourth dimension, control and rule this planet and have done so for thousands of years.

Matthew has uncovered the myriad of ways these alien beings control us and our world — how they manipulate us, feed off of us and usurp our energy and power — thus keeping us locked in servitude and being virtual slaves. He states, "They harness our spiritual power and somehow feed off of it and use it against us. They do this by creating our physical reality through collective mind control. To control our reality, they need to control our thoughts. If they control our thoughts, then they also control our actions. This is true, they not only control your physical life here on this planet you call planet Earth, they also control your thoughts, therefore your soul when you leave the physical body."

In May of 2005, Matthew journeyed to Egypt to research ancient symbolism and the meanings behind them ... but it doesn't end there. He's uncovered serpent cult symbolism everywhere under our noses — such that the majority of people are totally unaware! When I read his blog about monuments that were erected in my birthplace, Blackpool, I was gob-smacked to see what was there. (Someday, I'll share some strange experiences I went through as a child there.) You see snakes everywhere — from monuments to the foot path along the promenade! You will find the results of what he found in Egypt and more in his compelling book, The Stars Are Falling.

Since his trip to Egypt, Matthew's journeyed and found symbolism throughout the UK and elsewhere. The symbolism he uncovers is staggering! It's amazing what a sharp eye he's got! Everywhere you turn, you will see serpent and sun symbolism and Matthew does an exquisite job at unveiling and detailing all of this in the aforementioned book.

In his most recent book, Is It Me For A Moment?, he reveals the myriad of ways the serpent cult has manipulated, controlled and enslaved us for thousands of years. He covers such things as the history of religion and how it is all related to sun worship, and this includes the celebration of Christmas, New Years and Easter — just to name a few. He also addresses the way the serpent cult uses festivals and concerts to steal our collective emotional and spiritual energy that they feed off of ... plus the placement of serpent cult symbolism in strategic locations throughout the world that also harnesses our energy. The stage at Glastonbury, for example, is in the shape of a pyramid, Ferris wheels are in the shape of the sun with a pyramid base. And you'll find obelisks and domes (very powerful symbolism) everywhere — not to mention serpent, all-seeing eye, Masonic and other symbols. All of these are used to control and manipulate energy. Yet people are walking round in a state of total oblivion!

But it is individuals like Matthew Delooze who's helping to wake up the masses -- those who've been 'sleep walking' virtually all of their lives. As he so blatantly states throughout his books, "Wake up!"

I've also got to acknowledge his research centred on the entertainment industry — especially the music business and the festivals that draw the masses out to offer up their spiritual energy — but films are also a huge part of mind control. Then there's television, advertising, (with all the subliminals), packaging ... you name it! It is everywhere and it is relentless!

Traversing this path has been very difficult for Matthew and it's been very painful for him. He's suffered greatly as a result of all that he's endured, but it's definitely not been in vain. I, for one, so deeply respect my neighbour from Burnley. In our culture, we may be referred to as merely 'working class' or 'commoners', but nothing could be further from the truth. Matthew is a special and loving soul who, indeed, has come to help save this planet and dispel the darkness once and for all. It takes all types and not just the high profile and well-spoken individuals who've helped shed light on this history behind our planet and what's going on here. Our worth is not determined by what county we're from or how big our bank account is; that's all centred in the lies imposed by the serpent cult that have got nothing to do with truth or who we really are in the first place.

Souls like Matthew are helping to break the spell of the serpent cult once and for all ... and I am only all too grateful to Matthew for the splendid work he's done. I love the lad! He's got great humour, fortitude, and determination to bring the light and truth to humanity and help liberate us from the stranglehold of these sinister entities that, thank goodness, are, indeed, losing ground.

I will add that, this year, I've seen a lot of people coming forth and engaging in dialogue about all this ... and I find it such a relief to be able to openly discuss things with many individuals now — more and more so all the time — and that is a good sign that people are, indeed, waking up!

Matthew's a wonderful 'alarm clock'. Thank you for the wake-up call, Mate! You've done a tremendous job at unveiling the truth and helping to break the hypnotic spell of the serpent cult once and for all.

Cyndi Smith on Toward The Light

2007-08-25T17:27:00.000-04:00

On 19 August, I had the honour of interviewing Cyndi Smith on Toward The Light. Cyndi was one of those special 'California Girls', as she was very pretty and lovely on the outside as well as the inside. She admittedly had the vanity to go with it and lived a rather 'shallow' life — to use her words — until the age of 18 when everything changed for her. At that time she was involved in a serious car accident; breaking her neck in three places, her lower back in two, her pelvis and femur. She was told the dreaded words that she may 'never walk again', but she was determined to disprove that prognosis from the get-go.

However, whilst she was initially in hospital, she had no idea of the severity of her condition or even what had happened to her; she recalled no details of her accident at all. It was the first time she actually started 'waking up' and realising the extent of her injuries. During the first fortnight in hospital, everything seemed so surreal and it wasn't until a friend visited her and gasped, and then started crying ... that she realised how damaged and broken her body was. She was in traction and in a striker frame.

Finally, a friend visiting her in hospital, informed her that her friend, Linda, had been killed in the accident. Just prior to the accident, Cyndi and Linda had swapped places in the vehicle, which caused Cyndi to feel pangs of guilt for Linda's death, but it was obviously Linda's time to go... The sacred contract that Linda's soul had for being on this plane was only meant to be brief this time. We discussed the importance of not feeling guilty for the death of a friend or loved one and to realise that it was simply meant to be.

Then I suddenly could feel the happy presence of Linda's spirit and I mentioned it to Cyndi on the show. I also started describing Linda — with her long flowing dark hair — holding her hands on Cyndi's shoulders and guiding her and also seeing Linda being very grateful to Cyndi. She indicated that a psychic in London also told her the same thing — as did other psychics she had spoken with. This has provided a great sense of relief and joy for Cyndi.

Realising the reality of her friend's being killed ... and her own state, Cyndi said, "God, I need you now!" and she suddenly felt some hands underneath her that started lifting her up. In the depths of her solar plexus, she felt a warm light growing and it kept expanding until it penetrated her entire being. She suddenly felt all light, love, peace and perfection. She saw spirit beings surrounding her. Four, in particular, were very connected to her. She suddenly had all of this knowledge — a deep knowing — and everything being so beautiful, peaceful and loving. She was in a true state of bliss and experienced, first hand, the unconditional love ... that can never truly be described. One must experience it directly to have any semblance of understanding as to what it really is.

Next, she saw a huge light being that she perceived as 'Jesus' and there was a powerful telepathic dialogue between them. She asked "What am I to make of this?" — referring to her injury — and he said "Whatever you want to make of it." Then the dialogue continued when he further asked:

"What do you want?"

"To walk without a cane"

"So be it" he responded.

Cyndi had no religious influences as she was growing up. Consequently, having an NDE at a rather early age in life, coupled with the lack of religious influences, meant that her NDE was basically void of religious content; although she did default to interpreting the being of light as 'Jesus', since, after all, there are still strong Christian archetypes in western society that can and do influence one's interpretation and perception of one's experiences, etc.

Cyndi did have a very loving, healthy and supportive family life with her parents and brother. Thus, she was able to talk about her NDE to her mum and dad, but spoke to very few others about it — for fear of being thought of as 'crazy'. An experience in the light, as a result of an NDE, was her saving grace and literally changed her entire view on life.

She also acknowledged her life as being very fated and this incident led to a powerful opening up of a profound new chapter in her life.

She learned from her NDE that God is within ALL of us. When asking what's the best thing to do, she feels that it's important to go within — whether through prayer, meditation, etc. — and commune with Source. She also learned that she had to love herself first and that it was not contingent on someone else's love or appreciation of her, but, rather, finding the God within and generating a true and deep sense of self love. This is very important for everyone to understand and realise.

Cyndi is the proud mother of twin sons — ironically who were born on the same day as her accident, 2 July! One of her sons, Garrett, is also an NDEr — having witnessed a medical procedure whilst floating above his body at age three. Somehow, Cyndi mentioned the procedure to Garrett and he said, "Is that when they stuck the needle in my back?" Surprised, because Cyndi hadn't said a work about this, she asked, "Did you feel it, Honey?" "No, I saw it!", he said, then he described this in detail to his mum and she encouraged him on.

Another interesting development was that she encountered people who kept telling her that she could be healed if she wanted to — which she knew was true — but it's her calling to actually be disabled of body and do this special work to educate people and set a good example. She found out that she's got a special mission to help others. Her being disabled was the gift that enabled her to know herself, love herself and serve others in a very significant way.

This moved her to want to develop a television programme that would educate people about what it means to be disabled. Her idea is to help people learn about specific disabilities, how people work with their and adapt with their disabilities and finding special places for them to travel that provide proper accessibility in different parts of the world — not to mention the realisation of a dream! This can also serve to help remove the stigma associated with people with disabilities. Thus she created a 23-minute-long pilot for a TV show entitled, Freedom to Travel Show. What an exciting and wonderful idea this is ... and Cyndi's got the warm and outgoing personality to carry this off. Each episode will cost roughly $30-60K to produce and she is looking for sponsors to help make this wonderful dream a reality. And she also wants to find disabled people to feature on the show.

Being disabled myself, I could really empathise with everything Cyndi was saying during the show. I've been legally blind my entire life ... but I also experienced paralysis for 1.5 years — also from a spinal injury as a result of a serious fall — being totally bedridden and unable to walk. At one point I even forgot what it felt like to walk and that was quite scary; so I walk with gratitude with every step I take now, you can be sure!

Cyndi is such a warm and bubbly spirit. You can't help but feel such joy and inspiration in her presence or after hearing her speak. She is teaching us that we needn't be thwarted by our disabilities and, also, that disabled people are just as intelligent, creative, full of vision, wisdom, curiosity, and love as anyone else. We're not 'weird' or 'freaks'; our bodies simply function differently, that's all ... and it causes us to greatly appreciate things on a deep level — not being so inclined to take things for granted.

Having these discussions with Cyndi — both on the air and during telephone conversations — has left me deeply inspired ... and I've offered to avail myself to help her with her projects, because it is an endeavour whose time has come. It's time to remove the stigma associated with both NDEs and disabilities. Having an NDE and/or being disabled are gifts that can truly enrich our lives and cause us to grow closer to our divine essence and not be so caught up in the things of the world — dealing with compounding distractions that tend to pull us away from our true and authentic selves as divine expressions of the LightSource.

Anyone who is interested in participating in this magnificent project — whether as a sponsor and/or a subject for the TV show, please contact Cyndi or Toward The Light.

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A Question About 'Hell'

2007-08-23T17:58:00.000-04:00

I receive eMails from countless individuals who are earnestly seeking understanding and truth regarding NDEs, the Afterlife, 'Heaven', judgement, 'hell', suicide, God, religion and so on. These are so worth noting — especially in light of the fact that they're so universal in scope. Therefore, I've opted to share some of these questions along with my responses to them. Here's one of them:

Q: Hi, I've recently quit my religion and began a spiritual search, didn't mean to, it just happened one day. I'm 29, I have a question for you... I believe everything I've read about NDEs... It's like the questions in my life and the missing links are being presented to me, and I am ready for it. I am accepting these things as knowledge. It's like I've always known these things; they were just not brought to the surface until now, so last night I watched a Christian reverend's video about his 23 minutes of HELL, his trip with the 10 feet tall beasts ripping his flesh and it growing back again, the agonizing thirst, the screaming and moaning of the people he heard who he knew were NEVER going to get out of hell, the stone walls and he being trapped 4000 miles beneath the earth's crust.... This afternoon, I read your approach, that everyone will eventually make it to the LIGHT and become one with God (you know which passage I am referring to? I have been studying the www.near-death.com website). Of course I want to believe what you are saying, but where then did this other man's real HELL experience come from? Please help me understand. I thought I was on the right path, then last night when I saw that video, I slept horribly, my fire alarm sounded at 4 in the morning and I was sure my house had some bad things dwelling here for the night.... Not feeling right, Sarah

A: Hello Sarah,

I certainly do understand your feeling confused and uncomfortable with the differing experiences from various NDErs. I will say that, according to my experiences, research and understanding, many people see/experience what they expect to see and experience and/or what is familiar to them; e.g. if one is expecting to see 'Jesus', then it's likely that one will do so during a near-death episode.

This is true especially with adult experiencers, because of their cultural and religious influences, biases, etc. Child experiencers, on the other hand, have not got this conditioning to affect their thinking during, or their interpretation of, their near-death episodes; they're much more 'organic' if you will. They're not so 'coloured' by culture, religion, society, family/teachers, etc., so I view a child's NDE as being more straightforward and authentic.

Furthermore, 'hell' is mainly just a state of mind as a result of compounded fear. However, there are some areas in the lower astral world that can definitely be 'hellish', but, again, this is a temporary state — one that is due to become 'obsolete' as soon as we all transcend the fear that currently keeps us captive in slavery and servitude. Malevolent entities (such as the reptilians, who do live on the lower fourth dimension of the astral world), can and do torment and harm people, and are the 'demons' that people sometimes see and experience. However, once the fear (that they thrive on) is dissolved once and for all, they will no longer have any power over us. There is no 'Satan' or 'he-devil' — only the above-mentioned collective negative entities that have been controlling this planet and reeking havoc for thousands of years. They are also the ones who developed religion!

Another NDEr (who's now deceased) viewed 'hell' as the fear of the unknown. Think about that for a moment and you can figure out that it's universally one of the most frightening states for the human ego to endure!

Now let's look at 'God' (LightSource, All that IS, GodSource, the One — whatever you choose to call it). If God is Love, then what God of Love would truly 'condemn' it's own creation? Think about this for a moment. We are each a part of Source — manifesting as individual rays of light and creative expressions of Source. Would God condemn itself? I hardly think so! Only the human ego judges and condemns (as was pointed out in the section of my NDE account where I address the life review), but Love never condemns. It only heals and perpetrates growth and renewal — never the opposite. Love is a creative force — not a destructive one!

Now, let's get back to the issues of religion. Religion is all about fear and total mind-control — a mind prison, to be sure. That's not about spirituality, however, or endeavouring to experience communion with Source and your divine self — to be aware and on a spiritual path. Mainly, what I want to say about this is that anything that would induce or encourage fear is a lie!!! If anyone or thing encourages fear, please dismiss it straight away! It's simply not real.

Here is a link to a two-hour-long video/film that will shed great light about the fear-based manipulations of religion and the shadow governments that perpetuate this mass fear at ZeitgeistMovie. Ideally, it will help bring you much peace of mind...

I sincerely hope that I've answered your questions in a way that will truly help you feel more peace of mind. Also, there are tons of resources available on TowardTheLight.org ... so feel free to probe therein and you'll likely uncover some treasures that will help ease your mind.

Gale Albury on Toward The Light

2007-08-16T20:54:00.000-04:00

On 12 August, I had the honour of interviewing Gale Albury on Toward The Light. Gale is an NDEr and one who's had strong connections with the spirit and angelic realms ever since being very small.

Some of the first experiences she recalls, for example, are having a gruesome dream about being on an upside down cross in a cave. Then she has another dream that takes place in a cave where she's with a little boy who's very ill and she wants to help him. A figure came into the cave whom she perceived as 'Jesus'. A dark figure also appeared who was demonic, but 'Jesus' encouraged Gale not to be afraid and they both proceed to take care of the child. Gale was a little child in these dreams as well.

She also kept having experiences of a beautiful red-haired young woman appearing at different times. One such incident occurs when, as a wee tot, she was trying to get out of her crib and the lady kept saying, "No, no, no, you can't do that. Call your mum!"

She saw this angel for three years and thought that everyone saw her. When she realised that no one else could see this lovely young lady, it became clear that this entity was an angel — whom she later perceived as a feminine version of the archangel Gabriel. She never talked about it to her mum, however.

Another incident occurred when, one evening the angel appeared when Gale was home alone without realising that her mum had gone out. She became horribly frightened, but then saw the appearance of a male angel with reddish-brown hair and looking in four directions simultaneously. At that very moment, her mum was returning home and drove into the driveway and all was well at last.

Gale had an NDE at age four when she had surgery for tonsil removal. She rose above her body and then into the clouds where she encountered two angels. She then saw a beautiful green pasture with a village to one side that resembled an English village. She wanted to go in to the village, but the angels stopped her and told her that she had to return.

Gale was an only child with a divorced mother and she had to 'raise herself' in a big way and she spent a lot of time alone, walking through the woods with her dog and talking to God. She assumed that everyone did this ... then discovered that she was different from the 'norm'. She felt that her solitude enabled her to freely listen to and commune with God and the angels who were speaking to her. She played with elves and fairies and other nature spirits — all of which was very natural and real for her.

I found myself nodding and smiling as I listened to her describing all this, because it was like listening to my own childhood story — my living in solitude, being very ill (in my case) most of the time and also constantly in heavy communion with God, angels, nature spirits and others in the spirit world — some who were very loving and positive and some who were dark and mean-spirited.

Another good example of why people need to listen to the voice within is when Gale was in her early 20s, she lived in Georgia and was preparing to head to the petrol station and the store — the petrol station being up and hill and the store being down. However a voice told her not to go — for which she argued and reasoned that it was just a small little errand. So she went ahead and drove out anyway. She want up the road for the petrol and as she started heading back down the hill, her brakes gave out. She finally realised that she was going down the road full speed ahead without brakes ... but divine intervention guided her and saved her from harm. This is a good lesson to never ignore our intuition or divine guidance!

When the above-mentioned red-haired angel later appeared as a man with reddish-brown hair, Gale was in her 20s. When she moved up to Maine from Georgia, she started to have these experiences on a regular basis. She claims that God stated that she'd be doing work with Gabriel. She questioned this and felt awkward with the notion of being in contact with an actual 'archangel', but then finally gave in to the calling. She had powerful STEs (spiritually transformative experiences) that left her feeling blissful and at peace ... so she knew that she was being propelled in the right direction.

Gale started channelling this angel and working on her book as a young adult. Meanwhile, one of her twin daughters was having a serious surgical procedure done on her back. She was worried about her daughter, then she saw an orderly suddenly appear in the hospital corridor and recognised him as Gabriel, but no one else saw him. When she said, "Look! There he is!", he disappeared.

Later, whilst in bed at night, Gale saw a glowing blue cart wheel with twelve spokes and her husband saw the blue light, but no specific image. Gale then saw golden glowing lines that transform into the face of the angel. She was face to face with this angel and perceived it as Gabriel.

Gale points out that we're taught that if we believe in these things, that we're considered as 'crazy' ... so people close down and refuse to allow themselves to experience anything that seems 'intangible'. It is a shame, because what we perceive as 'real' on the physical plane is actually just a hologram and that life exists on many, many dimensions and different frequencies simultaneously — most of which is invisible to the human eye.

Further, she discusses the messages from her book, Messages from the Archangel Gabriel. There are two ways to respond to things: to respond out of love or to react out of fear. We need to monitor our actions. Are we acting out of love or out of fear? Whatever the response, this is going to have either a positive or negative impact.

The true teacher or 'guru' for each human being is your heart ... your inner being ... your higher self. People keep looking outwards for the truth, but the truth exists within the heart centre — the higher self that's always in touch with divine Source. We need to go into our inward journey to listen to our higher selves. We need to eliminate the fear that keeps us from listening to our higher selves and trusting in the messages ... and we must have courage in doing so — not being concerned with what others may think or say.

We discussed the 'Fool' in the Tarot — who's willing to let go and take chances — knowing full well that everything is in divine order. Unlike the Fool, people become frightened and upset when they can't manipulate things, and their free will is taken away — which is all about losing control. People don't want to believe in ETs, for example, because of the fact that it implies losing or not being in control. There's something more powerful than we are ... and the human ego cannot handle this. We're afraid of different cultures, people and anything that potentially translates to our not being in control. Yet the truth is that we're not in control ever and we've got to trust and be 'in the flow' — knowing that there's still a larger protective force that is guiding and helping us along the way.

There is God; there is creator; there is creation, Gale points out. That is our connection to GodSource. It takes both negative and positive polarities to create matter. She learns from the angel that 'good' and 'bad' are all human thoughts, but nothing is really good or bad; it's just a polarity and different energies. These opposing forces actually balance each other and create matter. If we didn't have fear, we couldn't understand love; if we didn't have darkness, we couldn't understand light.

We talk about what works vs. what doesn't work. We can only know love and light by first understanding and experiencing their opposites. That's the reason why we experience life on the physical plane.

We discuss the different extraterrestrial entities — some of which are parasitic (reptilians) and how they control the world governments, religion, money and banking, the military, etc.

Anything that comes from fear does NOT come from divine consciousness, but from the reptilians, etc. Religion teaches fear, so it's important to realise the source of religion. (See the 'Zeitgeist Movie'). If anyone, thought or thing induces fear, it is not coming from truth and is to be avoided altogether!

Now we're talking about the reptilians and how they use fear to keep people 'in line' and the fact that they've got a hive consciousness and use fear on themselves and the human species to keep them under control. That's why religion is such an important tool for them, as it's the number one producer of fear! Think about it. It is a known fact that the reptilians actually feast on our fear (!) and how important it is to keep our energy frequencies in love, as that will dispel the dark forces altogether. We need to stop feeding these malevolent entities and allowing them to keep us hypnotised and locked in fear and servitude as slaves.

Gale shares a beautiful biblical quote: "Greater is that being that is within you than that which is within the world" — referring to our divine essence (within) ... and that, again, it is essential that we turn within for divine guidance. Whether being aware of it or not, we are always in communion with Source and it is important to honour this fact. We can never truly be separate from Source or from one another...

Some people believe that it is blasphemous to believe that we are divine. The fact is that it is blasphemous to not believe it! By denying our own divine heritage, we're denying the LightSource itself and the creative force that put us here in the first place.

Gale states that it's very important to believe in your higher self — to reach out your hand and ask for help from the divine and to believe. You align yourself with that higher self and then listen to it and act on it. If you're getting chills of joy, you know that you're responding to high consciousness and to love.

TTL Media & Info Site Launched!

2007-08-16T20:43:00.000-04:00

Exciting news! We've launched the all new Toward The Light Media & Information website (also located in the 'TTL & Related Links' section at the right) that features the radio show, weekly guest profile, images and hot-links to guests' websites, the official TTL forum, links & resources and a whole lot more. Enjoy the site, feel free to sign the guestbook, become a member and let us know what you think!

Click image to go there now!

Peggy Kane on Toward The Light

2007-08-10T02:30:00.000-04:00

On 29 July and 5 August, I had the honour of interviewing Peggy Kane on Toward The Light. To say that these interviews were most informative and fascinating would be an understatement. It was both thought-provoking and enlightening and oh, so in earnest!

Peggy Kane and her work were brought to my attention as a result of an urgent eMail that was forwarded to me several weeks back when there was a serious concern expressed regarding the pending event, Fire The Grid. (See my blog on 'Fire The Grid' FMI.) The eMail contained information disclosed by Peggy Kane as a result of her work with something called 'electronic voice phenomena' (EVP) and 'reverse speaking' (RS) where a recorded statement is played backwards and a startling 'inner message of truth' is heard.

EVP occurs where a voice from the Other Side is captured on a recording—usually via a digital recorder—where one is able to hear clear statements being made.

I was very much aware of EVP and have experienced it directly myself; however, I had admittedly never heard of the RS. Peggy became aware of 'reverse speech' through David Oates (a pioneer of RS) and then proceeded to research it in depth for herself—using her own equipment and software to listen to reverse speaking. (Apparently, David Oates uses 'reverse speech' as a trademark, so Peggy uses the term 'reverse speaking'.)

Oates views 'reverse speaking' as coming from the unconscious; whereas 'forward' is the conscious mind speaking. Peggy, on the other hand, regards RS as tapping into the universal mind (or higher consciousness) and that it is a 'truth serum' that exposes lies or disinformation being told in forward speech.

On the show I asked her how she knows that RS reveals truth and that one 'cannot lie' in RS ... and she acknowledged the consistencies in all of the reversals she heard. This fact alone has held great weight in bringing her to this conclusion. She's listened to literally thousands of reversals over a period of five years and has come up with some pretty amazing data as a result.

Her understanding of this mainly occurred when Peggy was listening to politicians in reverse. Now that, in itself, had to be most interesting and revealing. Perhaps this one thing alone has given her the conviction that RS reveals truth—even unbeknownst to the one 'speaking through the side off his mouth'!

She also had experiences with EVPs being reversed and finding that entities who had been speaking to her were lying to and deceiving her—causing her to believe one thing ... when the opposite was true. Sadly, many of the messages she was receiving were misleading and untrue.

Peggy's work with RS also opened up another whole 'tin of worms'—the fact that this planet is manipulated and controlled by a reptilian race that resides on the lower fourth dimension. This isn't new. Having my own personal experience with these malevolent entities—not to mention the fact that I've done extensive research myself and have spoken with and had guests on my show such as David Icke, Matthew Delooze, Stewart Swerdlow, etc. who are very much regarded as 'experts' in this field—I knew for certain that this was no 'off-the-wall sci-fi' theory. As the saying goes, truth is stranger than fiction and, indeed, this is so.

Once again, taking EVP recordings that Peggy had done, (that of entities from the Other Side), and then reversing them, she found the presence of the reptilians whilst she was listening to these EVP recordings! Again, she concludes something as a result of personal experience. She describes hearing the reversals in real time. This was something she was not prepared for—especially when she wanted so much to believe in the 'love' and 'positive messages' coming from the Other Side. They were merely manipulations and tricks being played on a naive and well-meaning soul.

Peggy states: "If you are listening to EVP without reversing, the chances of being lied to and/or conned is almost 100%. If you are listening to reverse speaking without understanding the nature of life on the other side, the chances of being misled are also very great. The two go hand in hand.

If you think that reverse speaking is coming from the subconscious mind, I will challenge that assumption. It is my contention that it is coming from a part of the mind that is far beyond anything we can imagine." Well, in light of the fact that we use only 10% of our brain, it makes you stop and ponder the remaining 90%, doesn't it? Also, think about the 95% of so-called 'junk DNA' and what all this adds up to—literally!

She also made some claims that were most unsettling; e.g. that what mediums (like myself) experience or receive from the Other Side are likely deceptive messages coming from the reptilians posing as a loved one, friend, angel or spirit guide, etc. She'd also claimed that what NDErs experience is confined to still being caught or trapped within the 'net' (or what is also referred to as the 'matrix grid' that is controlled by the reptilian race) ... so I posed these questions to her on the show, because I was clearly disturbed by these claims. Mind you, I wasn't out to 'counter' her in any way. Quite the contrary, as I perceived a loving and earnest person in Peggy and I was striving to learn and understand more about this information she was sharing and to maintain an open mind. Although she has found, what she stated to be the case, from her own research and experiences, she would not make this as a blanket statement, because she honestly didn't know. It would appear that she does regard perhaps most of the messages coming from the Other Side as suspect...

I would share titbits of my NDEs with Peggy, for example, and ask for her input ... and she would regard them with respect and a genuine interest and openness. We'd continue comparing notes and striving for the right understanding and conclusion about all this—something so deep and complex where the answers don't come easy.

Our dialogue was very heartfelt and in earnest—both of us clearly wanting to know the truth—come what may. It flowed so easily and I felt very comfortable with Peggy. It was apparent that I was speaking with a kindred spirit and, with every little bit of information that was shared, I somehow felt a great sense of relief. I was comforted in knowing that our goals are the same: to find the truth and to return to Love—to the One.

Thus the first show was centred on the background of EVP/RS and Peggy's work in it and in the second interview we discussed The Secret. I was struck when I saw 'The Secret' as a topic on Peggy's blog, as she'd done reversals on the audio recording—not only of different people speaking, but of the music used as well. Straight away, I had to read this and listen, as I've had issues with this new gimmick ever since I saw the original film at a Noetic Sciences meeting a few years ago. It just didn't ring true to me, somehow, nor did I feel love coming from most of the speakers. It was too flashy and dramatic and too ... Hollywood.

It seems that the 'law of attraction' has become the latest new-age fad, the big 'buzz word' ... and people are parroting phrases from The Secret everywhere you turn. A negative by-product of this is that I've seen people passing judgements on others for 'not applying the LOA in their lives and that's why they're so miserable...' kind of projection that's very mean-spirited, unkind, and simply inaccurate—not to mention, very damaging. It's no different than the attitude or behaviour of fundamentalist religionists, but with a different bent or jargon, that's all. It's a new 'club' that has emerged that is casting a hypnotic spell over the masses and actually hurting many people.

So Peggy and I talked about these things, as well as the fact that the Secret is loaded with disinformation. She did reversals—not only on statements being made by the speakers in the film—but also of the opening music that was chock-full of subliminals! In our observation, the whole notion of the LOA cannot really work in our current world—not as long as it's controlled by a dark and sinister group that have got us locked in lives of servitude—literally as slaves! And the sad thing is, most of us aren't even aware of it! Thank goodness, that is starting to change now ... as more and more people are waking up, by and by.

The Secret is also too simplistic and its main emphasis seems to be on the acquisition of material goods and power, and the quest for more... "You can have and be anything you want to!"—is the anthem of The Secret, but it's just not that simple. Perhaps, once the dark ones have been driven out ... and the serpent spell finally broken once and for all ... and love has replaced fear ... then we can, indeed, have and be anything we want. But meantime, the real Secret is going to remain just that: a secret.

A Sweet Triumph

2007-08-05T23:51:00.000-04:00

From January 1999 through August of 2006, I lived in Nashville, Tennessee — 'Music City', USA. It was a series of profound events that led me there — a place I never would have imagined living in a million years! Yet, I was there and embraced by some truly wonderful and warm-hearted people who became dear and special friends — friends that I'm still in contact with on a regular basis.

Think about the kind of person I am (and many of you are very well familiar with me now ... and the way I think, etc.) and the fact that I was living and working in the centre of the 'Bible Belt' in America! Of course I had no 'day job' and, instead, was running my own business giving readings as a psychic and medium, doing energy healing work with Reiki ... plus doing the support work centred on near-death experiences and more! Gratefully, I was never a victim of any 'hate crimes', nor was I threatened in any way.

It was here that I ended up on radio and television because of the work that I do ... and it was all very positive. I was blown away by that fact. So many doors opened up for me in Nashville.

Furthermore, in the different places I lived, most of my landlords were gay or lesbian — as it turned out — and we all were as family to one another. It was magical and so uplifting. I seemed to attract people from the GLBT community to me — perhaps because I, too, am 'different' and it was within the realm of this particular group of people where I was the most naturally embraced just the way I am. They were very kind and caring souls and I always felt loved and looked after.

Is it any wonder, then, that I discovered and joined a city chorus that was centred on GLBT individuals and their friends and supporters? I joined Nashville In Harmony in August 2005 and reporting to rehearsal every Sunday from 4-6P was the absolute highlight of my week! To be with such a special group of souls with voices raised in song and hearts connected to one another was something I came to treasure very deeply.

Alas, on 9^th July 2006, we performed at the historic Ryman Auditorium — the most coveted stage in all of Nashville!

NIH at the Ryman Auditorium in Nashville, Tennessee USA

Being a member of NIH made me aware of a lot of things — not only in the GLBT community — but with regards the human condition in general. Being in the centre of the Bible Belt made it very clear to me just how deep the issues and struggles go — especially when it comes to religious intolerance of homosexuality. I had had an acquaintance (who actually was a catalyst for getting me to Nashville in the first place, since she ran a music company) who kept telling me that being gay was 'wrong' and 'a sin' when we were talking about someone we knew who was gay. I was gob-smacked. She meant it and she was taking herself very seriously! How can you be so mean and intolerant of someone strictly on the basis of one's sexual orientation? — I wanted to ask her. I also wanted her to provide me with where she got the notion that she was at liberty to judge someone in the first place!

How is it that, when you find people who are so kind, intelligent, talented, hard-working, having integrity and strong ethics, being devoted to their loved ones and friends and who wouldn't hesitate to help you if you were in some kind of a crisis, they could be regarded as 'wrong' or 'sinful' strictly on the basis of their sexual orientation? Something about this has never sat right with me.

I've written a bit in this blog about the horrors of religion. Just a few days ago, I received this video where our music director, Don Schlosser, was interviewed and he talked about his having been fired from a job he worked at for ten years at some Christian music publishing company in Nashville, strictly because he was gay! That's it! There was absolutely no other reason for his being dismissed from the job. Don is one of the most precious friends to me. He's an amazing musician and an amazing individual with a heart as big as the sun. I worked very closely with Don, because I was on the repertoire and media committees and never failed to feel such love and admiration for this man — not to mention awe. I wrote articles about him and NIH as well. (See articles here.)

In an article I wrote specifically about Don, I noted the fact that he was fired from his job and even barred from other related institutions — only because of his being gay and for absolutely NO other reason! It made me cry; it made me livid ... but you know what? It just made it all the more clear how insidious and mean-spirited and full of lies religion and religionists are, that's what!

Don's got the 'last laugh' and I'm pleased that this little video reveals a sweet triumph for Don. He's a happy and contented man — with lots of people everywhere who love him. In fact, he was honoured as the 'Gay Nashvillian of the Year' in 2006. He's a bright and shining example of how those of us who are truly individuals who've got the audacity and heart to think for ourselves and be true to our own authentic self ... can triumph over the greatest odds.

Religion is a lie, Friends! ALL religion is a lie ... and is only here to keep us locked in a stranglehold of fear — as I've stated numerous times before. No one has got the right to judge or condemn someone because of one's sexual orientation, one's race, one's being disabled or poor or for being a female or from another country or whatever nonsensical reason some religious moron may come up with. That's strictly ego-driven and has got nothing to do with Source. And when there's a special triumph such as in Don's case, it just gives me more faith that the Light is breaking through all this insane darkness and liberating us from the lies and deceit that have held us in servitude for all these thousands of years!

The joke's on you, oh dark ones, and we're going to dance in the Light and come to realise, indeed, that only love is real.

Packaging & Pricing

2007-08-02T19:07:00.000-04:00

When I first came to America, I was utterly blown away by all of the excessive and wasteful packaging everywhere I turned — such that I'd never seen back in England. And when I say 'excessive', I'm not at all exaggerating! For example, I've seen sealed plastic bottles of pills further packaged inside of sealed boxes! Why the extra box over and on top of a sealed bottle? It makes absolutely no sense to me at all.

I believe it was roughly ten years ago that there was a so-called bill for a proposed reduction or elimination of wasteful packaging in America — one that was ousted straight away. Why? I've got no idea. It would lead one to believe that wastefulness is considered a very important virtue in America, wouldn't it?

Well, as if that isn't bad enough, I've had the sheer displeasure of buying a box of pasta, grains or a similar product, for example, and open the box to find it barely over half full! Have you noticed this too? A lot of these boxes have windows in them and the content only reaches to the top of the window — which is located in the centre of the box — deceiving you into thinking you're getting a full box! Mind you, this has got nothing whatever to do with content 'settling' during transport. I assure you that it wouldn't settle to a mere half full container! I'm not daft enough to be fooled by that, as packages only 'settle' a little bit, not to a half-filled box or carton!

OK, so let's add insult to injury, shall we? Recently, I bought a bottle of pills that was not packaged in a box (that's an improvement); it was a nutritional supplement that was in a sealed plastic pill bottle. Good enough ... BUT ... when I opened the bottle, it was empty! Well, almost, as there were only a small amount of tablets at the very bottom of the bottle! It wasn't three-quarters full; it wasn't half full; it wasn't even one-quarter full! It was hardly full of any product at all! Why the HUGE bottle for only a titbit of tablets?!?!

This makes me absolutely livid! So I'm looking at all of the excessive and wasteful packaging — all for the sake of deceiving the public! Pray tell me: what is the point in all of this? What is it actually serving — to deceive people and create all of this waste? Is it not bad enough that the package labels are so misleading and deceptive in the first place?

Here's a good example of deceptive labelling: I see packages of biscuits (or cookies) that say 'shortbread' on them. I come from 'shortbread' country, so I know what shortbread is, right? Shortbread consists of flour, sugar, butter and water. When I look at the ingredients of any of these so-called 'shortbread' biscuits, not one of them contains butter — the one ingredient that would qualify these biscuits as shortbread! Why do they call these biscuits 'shortbread' when they are nothing of the sort? They don't even taste like shortbread! Lies, lies, lies, lies, lies are all I see!

It seems that most businesses who package products have jumped on the bandwagon of deceit — putting little bits of product in hugely oversized boxes, jars, tins, bottles, bags (oh, don't you just love those bags all full of nothing but air?), and so forth.

Let me say that I'm not in the least impressed. Quite the contrary, I'm so put off by all this! I cannot tolerate lies and deceit and anything that's so overtly and covertly misleading — all for the sake of $£. Funny how things having to do with $£ seem to, more often than not, come up dirty, corrupted and sleight of hand. What a shame, really, and it's so unnecessary! Yet people just blindly go along with all this without even noticing or having a second thought about it and they merely continue in their sleepwalking ... but I want to say WAKE UP!

Alas, people will try to defend all of this in the name of marketing and 'that's just the way you're supposed to do it' kind of mentality, but that just doesn't fly with me. It's still about deception! When you've got a truly good product or service, lying and hype are completely unnecessary. Integrity and honesty are what 'sells' in my book. I know from experience, because I run a business — one that's centred in love and service to others.

The only reason why all of these deceivers get away with this nonsense is because people let them. People need to start paying attention to what's going on all round them and noting the deception, waste, manipulation and dumbing down that's going on. The joke's on us, Friends, and I hate to think that we're that daft to fall for, and not be disturbed by, such lies. I would have thought that most of us were taught that lying is not a virtue; yet we not only fall for the lies circulating all round us every single day, we allow them and go along with them! By doing this, we affirm and perpetuate the lie! Think about it!

Yesterday, I saw an advert for a place to let that said, "Pay only half a month's rent!" It sounds like a bargain, right? Then, when you read the actual advert, they tell you that the place is available in the middle of the month, so of course you're only going to pay 'half a month's rent'! Duh! A moron could have figured that one out, for goodness sake! It's all a deception ploy just to lure you in and steal your $£ or power...

Another form of deception that really bothers me is pricing. For example, I'd hear someone say, "It was $14.99" and I immediately thought, 'you mean $15'! Well, isn't that what it really is: $15? What's all this mind manipulation and deception over a flipping penny — a PENNY!? And then, in many instances, they'll print the '14' really big and the '99' will be so miniscule as to be rendered almost invisible. Blimey, they really want to hide that extra dollar or quid from you, don't they — that is, until you reach the cashier and you're flipping well expected to pay that extra dollar or quid for sure! Smokescreens are everywhere!

Why are people so stuck on this deceptive game and why are they playing into it? It takes a lot more breath to say 'four-teen-ninety-nine' than to say 'fifteen', doesn't it. Let's count the syllables: four-teen-nine-ty-nine' is five syllables and 'fif-teen' is only two ... plus '15' is a lot more honest and straight forward, isn't it? It also takes a lot more space on a page to print $14.99 than $15 — taking up three extra spaces — all for a penny! Give me a break! :(

Why does this bother me so much? Because it is a manipulative game of deception, that's why — pure and simple. What's the big deal over one silly little penny — that doesn't even buy anything anymore? Now in the UK, it's the same story in many cases, since the currency has gone into the decimal system ... but not quite as bad as in America ... yet. And it's not just in the US and UK; it's all over the place! Practically every retail outfit does it! You see $x.99 ($x.98/$x.95) or $99 or $9,999.99 and it's just the most absurd and hideous thing to me. People are mindlessly just going along with all this ... but do they not even notice this tricky mind game? I do and you better believe I do, because I see the lies and deceit all over this! It's screaming at me every time I see that $x.99 or £x.99 crap.

Alas, someone will try to defend this nonsense by claiming that, "It looks better" or "It makes you think you're paying less" and so on. Exactly! Let's make you think something that's not so! Lies, Lies, LIES! To me, that's an insult to our intelligence. It's not real; it's not honest; and it's so unnecessary ... period!

It makes me sad to realise that people are so committed to undermining one another — some very deliberately and others without even being aware of what they're actually doing, because they just mindlessly 'go along' with this insidious game like a bunch of robots.

There are two points to all this: First, people need to wake up and start actually thinking for themselves or we're going to be in loads of trouble. Second, being deceptive — either wilfully or unknowingly (because one's not thinking for one's self, taking responsibility, or paying any attention) — is simply not right. In fact, it's downright abominable, in my way of thinking. As long as we are committed to being dishonest and deceiving one another and wilfully out to undermine one another, we're never going to heal all the misery and suffering that's going on throughout our world. We need to learn to live together in harmony and start regarding one another as members of one family or community, because — like it or not — we are one family who share one planet.

Furthermore, the force that's behind all of this crazy behaviour is ... fear! It fosters thoughts like: "If I don't deceive someone over a flipping penny ... or provide an overpriced and only half full package of product, etc., I may not get mine!" That's fear talking, not love. Well, I'd rather live 'without' than to be a blithering idiot and deceive my fellow human being. I just can't do that ... nor will I.

We need to think about using integrity in our lives and being loving and supportive of one another — not trying to 'get one over on someone' kind of mindset. We better take the time to think about what we're doing to one another and to our world. And, as Mark Knopfler so rightly states in his song, One World:

If we can't find a way to be
One world in harmony
Can't get no antidote for ... blues

Fear begets lack and Love begets abundance.

Think about it...

Matthew Dovel on Toward The Light

2007-07-27T21:55:00.000-04:00

On 15 and 22 July, I had the honour of interviewing Matthew Dovel on Toward The Light where we discussed his NDEs and the issues of suicide. Matthew had two NDEs — one from drowning at age 12 and one from suicide at age 21 (interesting how his ages were the same numbers in reverse) and, after his second NDE, he realised that he had to fulfil a special mission. This included writing an autobiographical book entitled, My Last Breath, and starting an organisation, International Suicide Prevention, Inc. (ISP).

To use his words, “I met Jesus Christ when I was 12 during my first near-death experience. He told me I still had work to do,” says Dovel. “I ignored his will for years and it was not until I tried to commit suicide that I finally understood that I could no longer ignore my destiny.”

After ingesting three bottles of pills and a fifth of gin in an effort to end his mortal life, he was transported into what he described as 'hell' where he was free-falling into a huge black pit and was suddenly split into seven versions of himself at the bottom of the pit — each representing a facet of his being and what needed to be addressed and dealt with.

As he continued describing this 'hell' I thought that the atmosphere very much resembled the planet Venus with its oppressive hot steamy environment including pillars of steam or smoke and perpetual lightning storms overhead. Everything he described was replete with symbolism and powerful messages. This, in turn, propelled him onto a path that led him to found the above organisation at the age of 25, where he ultimately became an expert in suicide prevention.

The statistics he provided were staggering — citing that, somewhere in the world, a person commits suicide every 15 seconds! The second statistic that had me gob-smacked is the fact that the most suicides are committed by the elderly, and then by adolescents. It gives you cause for reflection, doesn't it?

Whilst I do not resonate with Matthew's 'Christian' interpretation of his NDEs and the Afterlife, I firmly believe that he saw and experienced exactly what he needed to — that which was familiar to his present vantage point — so that it would make sense to him and also provide some kind of valuable understanding that would propel him forward onto the path that would change the course of his life forever. It was a powerful wake-up call ... and one that led him to give up his $1000-a-week drug habit.

He described himself as a typical 'normal' human being as he was growing up. Indeed, so many 'normal' or 'average' individuals tend to be 'sleep walking' much of the time — oblivious to and unaware of the bigger picture and out of touch with their true selves and their divine heritage — to say the very least! Alas, Matthew is no longer 'sleep walking'; nor does he have a desire to be self-destructive or end his life. Rather, he's committed to living a full and meaningful life in helping people throughout the world to avoid taking their own lives prematurely.

I've always given suicide the analogy of dropping out of school or class before it is completed. One cannot drop out of school without having to return and start back at the beginning of the class ... in order to learn the lesson one came here to learn. One must graduate before one can move on to the next level. There is no 'escaping' when we leave this plane. We're still alive — very much so — and still must deal with whatever we were challenged with on the physical plane.

I believe that it is people's ignorance of death — thinking that when one dies, that's it; it's all over ... and the erroneous thinking that there's nothing more to experience, feel, know, or suffer — that lends to ones committing suicide. Sadly, I know a number of people who believe that there is 'nothing' once one experiences death of the physical body — mainly stemming from false religious beliefs and atheism. This is a very serious mistake and nothing could be further from the truth!

Everything consists of consciousness ... and energy. Energy cannot be destroyed; it is only rearranged or changes form, but it cannot perish. Our consciousness and self-hood remain perfectly in tact — even after we've left our bodies behind! Sorry to have to bear the news to all of you would-be 'escape artists', but it's true. Again, there's no escaping! And once people start to become more aware of the truths surrounding death — that death is an illusion and doesn't really exist at all — then people will start to behave in a much more responsible manner and not endeavour to cut their lives short, i.e. 'dropping out of school'.

That is why I'm so committed to doing everything I can to help educate people about death and dying and the Afterlife ... so that, for one, the fear of dying can be eliminated and one can also come to realise that we just continue onwards after we leave this body. There will always be more 'life to live' — regardless of what dimension we happen to be residing on at any given time.

I have offered to be a volunteer counsellor for Matthew's organisation, so that more potential suicides can be avoided in future. I hope you will visit his websites to find out how you can help as well. This is a serious and grave matter and we cannot underestimate the help and resources required to eliminate this epidemic that's spun completely out of control!

Matthew is a warm and compassionate soul and all the wiser as a result of his profound experiences. Because of what he went through, he's doing tremendous work to help educate people and give much-needed support to a troubled world — encouraging one to hang in there and complete the 'school of life' through to graduation.

My Last Breath

Fire The Grid

2007-07-19T00:18:00.000-04:00

Fire The Grid was an event — held world-wide — that just took place on 17 July 2007 at 11:11 GMT. The catalyst that propelled this event came about as a result of Shelley Yates and her four-year-old son, Evan, having drowned in a marsh whilst she was driving them to visit a friend. They both died and were miraculously revived and what brought Evan back was a vigil that lasted 72 hours whereby individuals went to the child's bedside and poured their love and energy into his lifeless body. After the end of the 72 hour vigil, the little lad opened his eyes and recognised his mum. Shortly thereafter, Shelley was guided to create a global event whereby the planet could be healed in the same manner that her son was. She explained further thus,

"The plan, was given to me by the same light beings that guided me while I was drowning in the lake. They have been with me since that time and have been delivering to me information about our world and how we, with love and unification, can pour our loving intention of peace and healing into this earth. They want to set us on the path for a healthy planet, viable and working now, and for the generations that follow. They also want to direct us to the way to enlightenment and union with the Divine.

The light beings use the term 'fire the grid' when they speak of the energizing of humanity with divine power, on July 17, 2007. They say firing the grid will accomplish two things. First, it will pulse healing energy into the centre of the earth and regenerate the core, or the heart of the planet. Just as we poured our energy into my dying son, we will individually give the gift of our true intention, the gift of our individuality and the gift of our healing energy. As they explained, my son’s energy field was badly deteriorated, as is the Earth's. We must pour some of our living energy into the Earth, and the accumulation of our combined energy will regenerate the Earth. They told me humans are like little lightening rods, channelling God's energy to the planet. Because we have separated ourselves from our complete connection to The Source, by not having a fully functioning human grid, God's energy has not been able to easily flow into the Earth. If we choose to come together to rebuild our grid, then the natural flow of energy between us and God, God and the Earth, and from person to person, will be restored...."

How powerful and beautiful this is, aye? And it certainly seems innocent enough ... and reasonable to want to heal our wounded planet. Being an NDEr myself, I was struck by this story and felt compelled to help support the endeavour. I had Shelley as a guest on my radio show on 25 February 2007, as we discussed what had happened to her and her son and the details of the above-mentioned FTG project.

Shelley Yates and Fire the Grid had been brought to my attention when a colleague was trying to help raise funds for her to do a speaking tour in certain parts of America and Canada. Therefore, I wanted to learn more. After more research, FTG seemed like a worthy cause and I was all for lending whatever help and support I could — thus having her on my radio programme.

However, there were issues — at least for me — that caused me discomfort. Most of the time, potential guests are more than pleased to respond to eMails or messages I send them and provide their bio info for me prior to doing a show, so that we can publicise it. Shelley, on the other hand, didn't respond much of the time — and certainly not in a timely manner when she did. Mind you, I do realise that she was very busy ... but she responded to other people! She never sent me a photo of herself (I got it quite by 'accident' from someone else.) and she always appeared indifferent at best. She claimed to not be acquainted with any NDErs, so I thought her hearing from a fellow NDEr (myself) would have generated some enthusiasm — or, at least, interest — on her part ... which never happened.

Nonetheless, I opted not to take this personally and, as I always do, I gave Shelley a lot of publicity and provided her with her own profile page on my website. Not only that, I placed info about FTG on the index page and on the 'show info' page on BBSRadio.com for Toward The Light. Furthermore, I also contacted her group and offered to be a 'team leader' — as they were recruiting team leaders for different regions throughout the world for the project — but I received no response whatsoever, regardless of how many times I attempted to reach them.

Time passed ... and it was nearing the time for the actual event to take place, so, once again, I thought to have Shelley on my radio show on 15 July — two days before the FTG event — to help bring attention to it and remind people to participate. I sent her an eMail. No response ... so I rang her directly. When she (or whoever it was) answered the phone, I asked, "Is Shelley available, please?" and she rang off immediately without a word! Bear in mind that I do have a very distinctive thin little British voice that's very easy to recognise — much to my chagrin at times — so she either heard my little voice and rang off ... or heard nothing at all and rang off. But ... when I rang right back a second time, she wouldn't answer the phone, so I was left with the strong impression that she had, indeed, heard me, rang off, and refused to answer her phone the second time. I left a kind message and requested a return call. No call ever came ... nor did I ever receive an eMail reply.

I had really been focused on not taking any of this personally ... but after this latest incident of being rung off on, I was left feeling very uncomfortable — like it was very deliberate and that I was, indeed, being shunned. Why were other team leaders put into place and other radio shows booked a second time, but I was ignored completely? This sent up a red flag and I was left with the feeling that something was amiss. I had never been unkind to Shelley and was always very compassionate and supportive in every way ... so this treatment had me completely gob-smacked!

Regardless, I was all prepared to participate in the global meditation/vigil to pour love and healing energy into this wounded planet ... until I received a forwarded eMail that said, "Please do not fire the grid; it is our prison!" It came from someone I trusted, so I endeavoured to look into this and dig more deeply. The info came from Peggy Kane who's been involved in the study and research of EVP (electronic voice phenomena) and RS (reverse speaking). Peggy has been involved in UFO research, EVP/RS and the paranormal for years. She has hosted her own radio programme and has been a guest on numerous other shows.

Here is what she states about FTG:

"I have received a number of emails about the group project to fire the grid on July 17. I have never heard about the grid in my 5 years of reverse speaking research, but I have heard over and over about the net. This electro-magnetic field is our prison. It surrounds the Earth and is invisible to our 5 senses, but holds in astral bodies and is a trap for humanity when we leave our physical lives. It was constructed eons ago by an interdimensional reptilian race who have been abusing the Earth and humanity ever since.

The grid is the net, plain and simple.

Shelley Yates is a sincere person. But she is being seriously deceived. How do I know this? She says so in her reverse speaking. It doesn’t matter what any of us believe, we will tell the truth in reverse. She is trying to tell herself that her ET contacts are not what they appear to be." Read more...

My heart sank ... but, sadly, what she had to say made too much sense and I was overcome with grief. However, after reading and researching more and more of this material, my own experiences with SY started to make sense. Was it, in fact, the dark forces connected to her that were causing her to shun me all along — even unbeknownst to her? The reason I ask this is because I've noticed throughout my life that people who were centred in the dark would react violently towards me ... without any apparent reason. A good example of this is something that happened to me involving Scientologists ... that left me bedridden for a year and a half! Again, nothing I said or did should have provoked Shelley (and her team) to shun me in the way that they did. Perhaps, too, none of them were even aware of their behaviour towards me ... but I did find it most peculiar and, needless to say, this type of thing always sends up red flags.

I do want to clarify that I don't regard Shelley Yates as a 'bad' person or one who is wilfully 'evil' — not in the least — but when something occurs that generates an uneasy and negative feeling inside of me that just won't leave me alone, I've got to pay attention and heed it and realise that there's a reason behind it. And the 'reason' came into my in-box two days before the event!

There are things in the works with Fire the Grid — that's now evolved into 'Project Cause' — that just don't measure up. There's something 'off' about all this ... not to mention the huge capitalist endeavour now taking place.

As a result of my own experiences and research ... and, on top of that, having read David Icke's books and his being on my radio show, I'm very well aware of the reptilians, their secret agendas, and their control over this planet. I've dealt with them personally! And I am aware of the 'matrix grid' — that which does surround this planet and entraps us ... but I had honestly thought, at first, that the FTG was referring to a different grid ... but, clearly, it was not...

Being a lifelong Seer, I've always had a sort of 'X-ray' vision, as it were ... where I could 'see through' events, people or groups and their motives. Needless to say, this has made a number of people very uncomfortable; however, only people with negative or dark pursuits would react to me so violently — never those who were centred in love — because those centred in love knew that I'd pose no threat to them in any way. I am not so easily deceived by people ... but, sometimes, I, too, fail to see something for what it truly is ... because of my own naivety. Yet, having said that, because of my earnest commitment to Truth, something will invariably happen to bring the truth to my attention — just in the nick of time!

I removed the FTG material from my websites and did not participate in the meditation. I will say that I was well aware of the reptilians and felt them surrounding me and saying things ... but they couldn't reach me, thank goodness! I managed to protect myself and I was fine — if not totally exhausted throughout the day — so much so that I thought I'd fall asleep sitting up, which is something I never do!

I need to further point out that Matthew Delooze has written three books on this subject and has got an excellent blog (see his link under 'Kindred Spirits') detailing how the reptilians steal our spiritual energy and essence to further their own agendas, because they literally feed off of us. Matthew, David & Peggy all point out that we are the sole source of food and energy for the reptilians and if it weren't for us being here, they could not survive! They use huge events such as Christmas, New Years, Easter, large festivals and other events, etc., to steal our collective spiritual energy and feed off of it ... whilst they delude us into thinking that something entirely different is happening. Mind you, there's nothing whatever wrong with enjoying concerts and events, celebrations and so on, because people have got a right to enjoy themselves ... but it's important to realise that, when we participate in certain events that are loaded with serpent cult symbolism and there are huge masses of people congregated together in one place ... or globally focused on the same thing and the same time ... these sinister entities take advantage of this and devour our essence — leaving us high and dry and void of energy altogether. Do you notice how exhausted and depleted you feel after such an event? It's something worth thinking about...

We've probably all heard the statement, 'truth is stranger than fiction' and, alas, it's true. I've been very timid to 'speak my mind' on a lot of this ... but after these recent events ... and the fact that more and more people are aware of these forces at work in our world, I'm feeling the need to no longer hold anything back. In fact, Peggy Kane is going to be on my radio show on 29 July and we're going to discuss her work and research and learn more about what she's done to unveil these findings and the fact that it's got nothing to do with her own intuition or opinion, etc., but from something completely separate from her own thoughts and biases. It's as a result of her keenly hearing these messages through reverse speaking — something technological and scientific.

The fact is that things are never what they seem ... and unless we're willing to keep an open mind and heart ... and face things squarely as we're presented with truth, we're in deep trouble. Alas, I realise that a lot of this is no less traumatic than a little child being told and having to face the fact that 'Santa Clause' is merely a myth. We're all having to face that so much of what we've believed to be real is nothing more than a myth — including 'Jesus' — which is a symbol of the sun and the 12 disciples being the 12 constellations. It's all symbols that, once again, are generated by the reptilians (serpent cult) to dupe us into servitude and allowing them to steal our energy, life-force and even our bodies ... unless we wake up and 'face the music' and put a stop to this — which we CAN do!

Remember, infinite love IS the only truth ... and it will always reach us and prevail ... somehow. There are counter forces at work to help eliminate these evil forces that have held this planet in slavery for thousands of years. When we stop believing that we are worthless 'sinners' who must appease an angry 'he-god', or else we will go to 'hell' ... and claim back our own divinity — because we ARE divine — the dark ones can no longer have power over us. Remember, if it weren't for the human species, these beings could not exist ... but we've got to STOP giving them permission to rule over us by giving our power away — plain and simple!

The truth may hurt ... and it may really sting us at times ... but it is the Truth that will set us free.

Greg Soula on Toward The Light

2007-07-08T22:51:00.000-04:00

On 1 & 8 July, I had the honour of interviewing Greg Soula on Toward The Light — one who's had a near-death like experience (NDLE) whilst on the verge of suicide. Having been an atheist prior to his experience, he felt himself a victim ... not good enough ... feelings of isolation and despair, etc. — thus resulting in severe depression and the desire to terminate his life on this plane. During his NDLE, he was met by three angelic beings who enveloped him in unconditional love — something he had never experienced before. Then he beheld the 'Garden of Desire' (which, in his shorthand, translated to 'GOD') and he was given the opportunity to understand that we co-create with Source. 'Desire', as he explained it, is centred on the desire to create ... which is fed and nurtured by love. With fear, the opposite occurs — consequently shutting one down and disabling the creative process through the perceived notion that we're alone and separate from one another and from Source. This, in turn, leaves one with a sense of needing to escape and suicide often being the result. However, what Greg learned as a result of his experience is that we are all One — never separate and never alone. And love instils in us a powerful creative force that propels us to ... infinite possibility!

He, then, spoke about the prophetic messages that he received during his NDLE — e.g., seeing the events of '9.11' and that America would ultimately become bankrupt, etc. However, despite so much of this already coming to pass he stressed that this scenario was merely representing what could happen — that is, if people acted out of fear, rather than acting out of unconditional love ... and if they continue to believe that they are worthless, helpless victims and fostering the lies that have kept them in servitude for countless ages. And now the lies that are being perpetuated and keeping the human psyche locked in fear are that there's some 'terrorist' lurking in our midst. There's NO terrorist ... except fear (False Evidence Appearing Real).

Greg also was told, “If the world’s leaders choose to respond [to acts of 'terrorism'] in fear, a cycle of violence will be created which will become very hard to control. Fighting violence with more violence is like trying to put out a fire by throwing more fuel on it. To extinguish a fire effectively, you must starve it of oxygen — and to extinguish fear, you must smother it in unconditional love. There is no other way to fight fear – and terrorism is simply fear, expressed." (I personally believe that '9.11' and other similar events that have taken place are inside jobs and not as a result of so-called 'box-cutting hijackers'!)

(Greg is now writing a book on the subject of prophetic NDEs titled, Revelations: A New Look at the Apocalypse from the Perspective of the Prophetic Near-Death Experience. If you or someone you know has had a prophetic NDE or NDLE, please contact Greg to share your experience for inclusion in his book. Click image FMI.)

I, too, have had visions about '9.11' and other negative scenarios being played out ... way in advance of their happening. And I'm aware of the fact that these events are the result of an agenda put forth by a sinister group of elitists who rule this planet, (but that's another story). Yet I am somehow led to believe that, if we changed our minds and focused on love and truth, so much of this could be avoided ... and that's why we're given these visions, dreams, experiences, etc. in the first place in order to warn the masses of what could be and then turn our focus and intent on the desire to create out of love (rather than destroy out of fear). When we plant seeds in the 'Garden of Desire' with love, they will surely grow; but if we plant them with fear, their growth will be thwarted or prevented altogether. With an attitude of gratitude and love, we can actually avoid these negative events being played out and change the course of history altogether.

Remember Dr. Emoto's frozen water crystals and what shape they take on when exposed to loving words and thoughts as opposed to fearful or hateful ones? This is the same principle, really. Remember that thoughts are things. When one is in a state of love, one can create — something of magnificent beauty and power; whereas fear is destructive and nothing can grow or thrive in such an environment. Water crystals exposed to love and gratitude were beautifully and symmetrically formed with vibrant colours ... whilst the ones being exposed to negative and mean-spirited thoughts or words were dark and murky and had no cohesive formation whatsoever.

Greg was also pointing out that, as souls, we choose these challenges in our lives in order to become more self aware and that there are great blessings in these challenges that force us to grow and heal. Yet, when we perceive ourselves to be separate and helpless, we are plagued with the notion that 'nothing can be done' and that 'we're doomed', etc., when nothing could be further from the truth. We took on these lives for a specific reason. And it is our responsibility to honour and fulfil a 'sacred contract' whereby the soul comes to ultimately realise its own divinity and oneness with All. There's nothing 'small' or 'insignificant' about that, now, is there?

Despite all of the painful events that do take place in this world, there are also magical and seemingly miraculous events that are occurring — reminding us and showing us that we are truly divine — regardless of the roles being played out during a physical lifetime. It's just a role that one has been cast into, not ones true identity ... anymore than an actor really being some villain. It's just a role played out in the theatre, but it's not real. These roles teach us lessons that we need to learn during a given lifetime, but it is not WHO we are. Hitler, Bush and Blair are not evil; only their role or behaviour is dark and sinister ... but it's sure forcing us to wake up and take action, isn't it? Therefore, we need to feel gratitude for them. Sometimes, we just need to be pushed...!

Greg stated that unless we see and experience darkness, falsehood and negativity (what isn't real), then we can't possibly know and understand light, truth and love (what is real). In order to know that something is real or true, we must first experience its opposite. Likewise, we oft times must go through a process of trial and error, as it were — to experience a myriad of things that don't work ... until we finally come upon something that does work — that does align with the creative force that is love.

Visiting Greg at his home in Vermont last week, I beheld a man with bright beaming eyes and a demeanour to match. And the beautiful garden in his yard that he and his wife, Cory, have created and nurtured is a testament of the love and wisdom gleaned from the 'Garden of Desire'. And even a hummingbird greeted us to make sure we understood this deeper wisdom. Indeed, let us all foster the intent and desire to create ... always!

Religion or Prison?

2007-07-03T01:16:00.000-04:00

The previous blog was centred on the fact that religion was the culprit for virtually destroying a beautiful relationship between a most dedicated couple that had been in tact for over a year and a half. Then, when the lady's Mormon mother found out that she was in a relationship with one who was a different race and not a Mormon, she wasted no time in declaring her relentless disapproval — even taking the young lady to the Mormon bishop!

The bishop and mother have taken the light out of the lass's eyes ... and have dashed truth, love and joy to the ground — replacing these with only fear, guilt and grief.

As a result, the young lady keeps all of her doors locked and secured — as if her beloved is suddenly some monster or demon — and won't have anything to do with him now. This is all due to ... religion and the horrible lies that they perpetuate!

Many agree that religion is meant to be a mind prison that induces and perpetuates fear — forcing us into servitude to a greedy and corrupt power elite who dominate us and are keeping us locked in a five-sensory 'reality' where we perceive ourselves as separate from one another and living in duality ... when, in fact, we are divine and one with All that IS. That means that we are all One, not separate ... ever!

This isn't some sweet sugar-coated emptiness like cotton candy here. Just ask any NDEr and we will tell you that this is so ... according to our experiences! We move from 'belief' into knowing ... and perhaps that's why some of us have become less tolerant of these glaring lies being flung in all directions — masquerading as 'truth' or the 'word of God' or 'freedom' ... when these are blatant lies that are meant to thoroughly deceive us and keep us dumbed down, disempowered and locked in a stranglehold of fear.

How auspicious, then, that someone was kind enough to send me the following film on line at ZeitgeistMovie.com. Talk about something most compelling and thought-provoking, this is a must to take in.

To say that this film makes a tremendous amount of sense would be an understatement ... and it is so synchronistic, especially in light of what's been taking place of late. The closing sentence in the 'Statement' in this website is very beautifully put, thus: ' ...It is my hope that people will not take what is said in the film as the truth, but find out for themselves, for truth is not told, it is realized.'

The Truth is first laughed at ... then severely ridiculed ... then it becomes apparent.

Only Love Prevails!

Love vs. Fear

2007-06-27T23:22:00.001-04:00

A few days ago a friend rang me in a state of distress. This wasn't like him — one who's usually so laid back and easy-going. He's a brilliant and talented individual who's a child prodigy — having become a college professor at age 19, not a student! He's got a heart as big as the sun and generosity to match.

Life had been good to him. He's got rewarding and fulfilling work — being very much in demand — and also in what one would consider a perfect relationship. For a year and a half, he was with one partner — a lovely and talented lady with whom he shared everything. They never fought or had disagreements for all that time ... and he constantly declared his love for her. Every day they showed tremendous examples of their love and dedication for each other. They were committed to each other as if already married. Nothing was out of place ... and nothing could have been more perfect. They were planning on getting married in near future.

For time being they felt it was appropriate to keep their relationship more private — due to the fact that they worked at the same institution — and this also meant not divulging it to the lady's parents who live close by. It is strange that, just because two people work at the same place, being in a relationship should be regarded as a stigma, as it's had no impact on the quality of their work, except to improve it most likely.

Recently, as it turned out, it was finally divulged to the lady's mother that she was in a committed relationship with this wonderful man whom she loved very deeply. Her mother went cold ... and took no time to declare her total disapproval of the relationship. Why? Because the lad isn't a Mormon and he is black; that's it! There's absolutely no other reason ... at all!

Suddenly, my friend can't make contact with his beloved — someone with whom he'd spoken to every single day throughout their relationship — even when he travelled. And now (as of this writing) there's nothing, only silence...

He's broken hearted ... and angry ... and for good reason. To reject someone solely on the basis that he's a different race or religion is ludicrous and absurd! One couldn't find a more loyal, dedicated and loving partner anywhere — not to mention the fact that this couple were the best of friends who enjoyed their time together. Both of them are the nicest people — lovely young individuals who are so brilliant, talented, loyal and with integrity and strong ethics. They both work hard ... and do everything they can to help improve the quality of life for everyone around them. And they're both in demand! Is it any wonder why — when people give so much of themselves? It should be apparent.

He has asked me to talk to his beloved ... so I'm going to do so now, because everyone needs to see what I am about to share with her:

My Dear Beautiful 'B',

You can make a statement about your precious life that few can make — that you have been in the most harmonious, dedicated and loving relationship for a year and a half, where there's been no discord or harsh words, no unkindness or suspicious behaviour, no feelings of want or disappointment, no worry or strife, no lack, no struggle. Your lives have been filled with such joy and success — your blossoming with such abundance and opportunity and everything seeming to go your way ... and you had a tomorrow with such promise to look forward to ... that is, until you allowed FEAR to take over.

But where did this fear come from? Who instilled it in you and why? How would this serve you? Are you happy now? Or are you sitting in a corner being worried about what someone else is thinking ... or seeking the approval of someone else?

When you were IN love, you knew joy ... and that's what dictated your life. Now, however, you are IN fear ... and the love is gone. Love and fear are two completely different frequencies; you cannot have or experience both at the same time. In simple scientific terms (and you will understand this if you've got any understanding of music or the properties of sound), love vibrates at a very high frequency; whereas, fear vibrates at a very low frequency. So, when it is said that you cannot mix love and fear, this is the reason why. They are completely different energies altogether — vibrating at completely different frequencies!

You need to think about the motives behind your mother's objection to your being in this precious relationship. (I'm a mother of a grown daughter too, so I know what it is to be concerned about my daughter's welfare.) Has 'A' ever mistreated you or violated you? Has he ever been dishonest or deceitful? Has he ever threatened or bullied you or stolen from you? Has he ever lied or humiliated you? I hardly think so ... so why would the fact that he's a different colour or not the same religion as you, be an issue?

"You can't be in a relationship with a man who isn't white or Mormon" is FEAR talking, NOT love! And you know what? Fear is the liar and deceiver ... and, because your mum is in fear, not love, she is lying to you — without even knowing any better. She, too, was brainwashed in her life ... and has passed on the lies to you.

Alas, she is probably doing her best and thinks she is doing a good thing by condemning your relationship with 'A', but she is perpetrating the worst DIS-ease in all the world: FEAR! And, my dear, ALL religion is about fear and is implemented solely for the purpose of forcing us into servitude through fear. "If you don't do what I say, he/she/it/they will GET you!" That isn't truth ... and that isn't love. That is fear — the great LIAR — who is speaking.

But wait! Back up! That's not how LOVE, how Truth works!

For the numerous times I've been on the Other Side as a result of my near-death experiences, I never once beheld an angry 'he-god' that condemned me or anyone to some inferno in some underworld! I only experienced unconditional love and acceptance enveloping and surrounding me at all times! True story! You can read about my NDE here.

When I saw and experienced my life review, I was bathed in the warm light of infinite love ... and made to realise that we judge ourselves! The LightSource loves and accepts us completely and unconditionally — no matter what — because we are all a part of Source. We are all individual expressions of the One .. All that IS — never apart and never separate.

If you make a decision based on the need to meet someone's approval ... or else ... you're in a state of fear, not love. You're thinking 'what will happen IF...?' That's what is often referred to as the 'what if' syndrome. What if this ... or what if that ... What if if if if if!

Slow down... Come back to the present... You're not living or experiencing the power of Now. An NDEr once described 'hell' as the fear of the unknown. Sound familiar, aye? We all go through this — every one of us! It's part of the dilemma of the human condition ... so don't beat yourself up for it, but please do face it squarely. Once again, that secret word has revealed itself — the one that tends to be at the helm of our lives all too often: FEAR! And that is very dangerous! Fear is not qualified to be at the helm ... ever!

I'm going to be very honest with you here ... and, remember, I am a mum too! Your mum isn't being your friend or ally, nor is she acting out of love by behaving the way she is and saying the things she has said. Look at how you've suddenly become shut down as a result of the FEAR that your mum has instilled in you! Are you happy? Are you free? Are you clear-minded? Are you empowered? I think not. Instead, I'm seeing a precious child who's locked in fear and totally shut down, that's what.

My dear, LightSource, God, All that IS ... whatever you choose to call IT — is not the author of fear. And being that this is so, Infinite Love would never condemn you or object to your being in a loving relationship with another human being — period!

God does not punish; God does not condemn; God doesn't give a flip!

People think that hate is the opposite of love; it isn't. FEAR is the opposite of love and hatred is a by-product of fear. So is prejudice, intolerance, bigotry, greed ... you get my drift. A soul has no sex or colour, nor does it have a religion. Richard Salva, who was recently on my radio show shared this information:

"Yogananda taught that all souls are part of God. No fully enlightened spiritual soul of either gender is greater than any other. And he said that our souls have no gender, which is why we sometimes are born in female or male bodies, depending on the spiritual lessons we have to learn. He taught that anyone who bears prejudice against anyone for any reason would have to be reborn as what he despises, to learn that we are all the same inside."

This is what I experienced on the Other Side. I was not gender identified or ego-centred. All of that melted away. I was just my authentic self — a soul at one with Source — and enveloped in unconditional love at all times. Nothing can compare to such an experience ... such love. Is it any wonder, then, why so many of us — in fact, most of us who've been to the Other Side — don't want to come back to this plane? But we've been called to come back — to share the truth that life is eternal, that death is an illusion and that only Love is real...

When I have experienced states of fear on this plane — indeed sheer terror — I was reminded that: if it isn't coming from love, it isn't real. I'll repeat that. IF IT ISN'T COMING FROM LOVE, IT ISN'T REAL! And this is what has helped lift me out of the fear and return to Truth, to Love... There is no 'devil' and there is no 'hell'. The 'devil' is fear and 'hell' is a state of mind ... and that's all. So please be mindful of your thoughts!

Who is at the helm in your life now? Is it love or is it fear? Who are you going to allow to reign in your life?

Please remember to follow your heart — not the fear — because, it is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye. Allow yourself to return to the joy and the love that you so richly deserve. And if anyone or thing instils fear in you, run the other way, because it is a lie. It isn't real.

ONLY LOVE IS REAL ... and ... ONLY LOVE PREVAILS.

Richard Salva on Toward The Light

2007-06-25T22:55:00.000-04:00

On Sunday, 24 June, I had the honour of interviewing Richard Salva on Toward The Light—an ordained minister and expert on karma and reincarnation. He's spent over 30 years in research, meditation and gaining a wealth of personal experience.

Richard has written a splendid and thought-provoking book, Soul Journey ~ from Lincoln to Lindbergh, where he provides compelling evidence that Charles Lindbergh is the reincarnation of Abraham Lincoln ... and that reincarnation itself is evident.

Taking the statement made by Paramhansa Yogananda: "Abraham Lincoln, [in a past life], had been a yogi in the Himalayas who died with a desire to help bring about racial equality. His birth as Lincoln was for the purpose of fulfilling that desire. He has come back again in [the twentieth] century as Charles Lindbergh"—Salva was led by an inner calling to chronicle the details of the lives of these two well-known individuals. What he has written more than provides validation of Yogananda's statement as irrefutable.

Because both of these men were very well known, it was easy to acquire a wealth of data on each man's life—thus providing a straightforward and exquisitely detailed chronicle of the similarities between Lincoln and Lindbergh that are uncanny—even down to the most intricate details of their lives!

So what's the point in all of this? Besides providing proof and teaching us a lot about the practical truths of reincarnation and karma, it also brings us to the clear realisation that life is, indeed, eternal and that physical death only leads to another cycle of experience, growth and self-realisation.

During the radio interview, the conversation flowed so easily; our combined research and experiences truly complimented one another—once again providing validation one to the other.

Richard is a warm and compassionate soul who is available for consultations centred on reincarnation, karma and yoga. Click on his photo to visit his website for further information.

Note: Click on the book image to take you to the site where you can order the book directly.

David Icke on Toward The Light

2007-06-20T22:17:00.000-04:00

On Sunday, 20 May 2007, I had the special honour of interviewing David Icke on my weekly radio show, Toward The Light on BBSRadio.com. To say that the show was profoundly uplifting and enlightening would be an understatement. Our sharing together moved me to the deepest stratum of my being … and I could also feel the love and gratitude coming from all round the globe.

When I booked David on my show, Donald Newsom (president and owner of BBS Radio) rang me and said, “Do you realise that you’ve just performed a miracle—getting David Icke on your show? How did you do this?” I merely said, “It’s the Love.” And I also believe that it was the right time. David had been turning down all interviews, because he’d been working on another book—which was recently completed. But there must have been something significant about the fact that I wanted to focus specifically on his most recent book, Infinite Love is the Only Truth ~ Everything Else is Illusion coupled with the fact that I’m an experiencer. To my awareness, there had not been an interview or a talk given that was centred wholly on what is written in this deeply thought-provoking book.

Furthermore, as a multiple NDEr, I can honestly say that I’ve experienced, first hand, so much of what David discusses in this book. I’ve also done extensive research and have found that the book resonates with what I’ve both learned and experienced. I had such an overwhelming feeling that this topic needed to be acknowledged and discussed now … and I’ve got to say that it was so easy to receive a resounding ‘yes’ from David to do the show, because the message mattered; the time mattered; and the time was now. People were ready!

We already know so much about the ‘dark’ truths behind how this plane operates and the sinister forces behind it … but … there’s some tremendously good news as well—such that is certain to liberate and free us from the shackles that have currently got us locked in a world and life of fear. I felt that it was very important to focus on this ‘good news’ and that’s what the show was about.

I also saw this as a perfect opportunity for us to validate each other—where the experiencer validates the researcher’s findings and the researcher puts these experiences so clearly into a language that the masses can understand and integrate into their own lives.

But I need to be fair, here. David—although not being a near-death experiencer (NDEr)—is one who’s had multiple spiritually transformative experiences (STEs). When I asked him at the beginning of the programme what led him to the writing of Infinite Love…, he said, “How many hours have we got?” Indeed, in the early 90s, he went through a profound experience that ‘blew the top off of his head’ (to use his own words) and propelled him onto a path that he’s not been able to veer off of—one that has led him to shining a light in the darkest of places and revealing truths that most would never have the courage to consider or acknowledge, let alone speak it aloud!

David made a few statements in his recent newsletter that were also brought up during the show that are very worth noting. He states, “We all have layers of dense energy around us that are generated by what we inherit through the DNA 'hard drive' and what we accumulate through our own experience. These energies, the 'eggshell' as I call them, are expressions of fear in all its forms and rigid thought patterns that hold us in servitude to a tragically limited sense of reality. The DNA, indeed the whole cellular structure, is like a giant crystal receiver/transmitter and what it is tuned to becomes the 'world' that we think we live in.

“What we call 'the world' or the 'vastness' of space or the universe is really only a tiny range of frequencies within infinite possibility.”

The word, ‘infinite possibility’ has become a steady mantra whirling round my head since the show. During my NDEs, I could actually see and experience the truth of infinite possibility! When we realise that we are divine and one with All that IS, this is actually an easy concept to grasp. The challenge is to break free of the limited fear-based vantage point of the ego mind and move into the soul mind—that part of us that is always in communion with Source—that experiences the deep knowing that we are always connected to and co-create with Source.

Now, we’re all being flung into major changes in our lives—changes that are forcing us to wake up and evolve into our authentic selves. Everything that we’ve known or identified with is being shaken down, purged and altered—remoulding us into our true and divine expression, which is comprised of infinite possibility.

Are you experiencing this ‘cosmic tsunami’? I certainly am! And I’m hearing from people all over the world who are going through this. David is also in the midst of this change as he wrote, “I can feel the shift getting stronger and more tangible by the day. I am increasingly in this world, but not of it in terms of my point of observation. It is like looking through a window into this reality rather than being 'inside' it. It is very strange, but not at all alarming. It is very comforting, in fact, to know that what we think is 'everything' and 'important' is just an illusory nonsense generated to confuse us and hold us in servitude.”

This is exactly what I experienced during my NDEs and similar spiritually transformative experiences … and … much the same is occurring for me now as well. What David notes above is so similar to what I’ve written in my NDE account thus: “I was now being told that I was going to have to return to the alien (physical) world I’d left behind—that I was needed there for something very special and significant. I needed to go back to share what had just happened to me … and to let others know that life is, indeed, eternal and that death is an illusion. …I was also told, however, that the world I was returning to was an illusion and that I wasn’t to identify with it or be involved—to be in it but not of it—and that I was only passing through...”

When we rise into our true and authentic selves, it is easy to flow into the ‘observer’ mode and no longer be caught up in the ‘drama’ or ‘identity’ of the physical plane. We become the actor and the audience simultaneously and, furthermore, come to understand our role as co-director with Source!

We are one with Source, and death is an illusion. Knowing this, we can rewrite this script for the play we call ‘life’. Then, we can create something far more expansive and profound—a beautiful masterpiece that is centred in love and embodies the truth of our self as being infinite possibility.

David has written a wonderful NDE article entitled Fearing for a Lifetime … What Doesn’t Exist, which can be found on my website at http://www.towardthelight.org/davidickendearticle.html. Thank you, David, for these simple, yet powerful words … and for your example.

Note: By going to this page, you can read more about the show, see feedback and listen to the archived show for free. Enjoy! :)

Channelling Through Art

2007-06-18T12:26:00.000-04:00

On Sunday, 17 June, I had the honour of interviewing a dear friend on Toward The Light, Mary Angelico, who is one of the most inspired artists I've known. She was talking about the fact that she used her intuition and responded to the voices of spiritual beings to guide her in the creation of her paintings. She even listened to these messages in regards to her schooling in fine art — allowing them to guide and teach her in her respective mediums, rather than strictly resorting to some institution for training — even though she did receive 'formal' education as well.

As a result of this, she's taken to using her art to channel the love and messages from people on the Other Side ... as well as painting 'soul portraits' of those who are still living on this plane — capturing their essence and substance — not merely creating a beautiful and lifelike portrait of their physical expression.

Recently, when Mary's sister was visiting her at her home in Portland, Oregon, her sister had a dream about their late father. This, in turn, led to both sisters receiving messages from him. Mary was led to write a song for her mum — bearing messages from her father. She also wrote a poem and did a painting of her father — all of which were given to her mum. As her mum read and responded to the messages coming from her husband, she told Mary that the content of the messages was something that Mary could not have known about, but which was totally accurate!

The painting of Mary's father was alive ... and no matter which one of the women were looking at the painting, or from what angle, each one swore that 'he's looking straight at me!' He was, indeed, watching over all three of them — hence, the title of the painting: Watching Over You.

You can see samples of Mary's work by clicking on the links above. Enjoy!

Speaking from experience and observation, I know that those on the Other Side and in various dimensions generate powerful messages and changes — especially through the mediums of art, music and writing. They can work right through an artist's brush, a musician's and writer's fingers ... and a masterpiece is born. Being an artist, musician and writer, myself, I can attest to these things.

No matter which art form you use; no matter how simple or lofty the piece may be, it's still very profound and meaningful — something that can bridge the gap between the dimensions and even between one another — linking us all together and allowing sacred messages to come through and uplift and empower all of us.

Infinite Possibility

2007-06-14T23:04:00.000-04:00

It's the New Moon (14 June) and this is a very good time to write down what our goals and dreams are. Writing them down allows the intent to become strong and energised — enabling a greater promise of being realised.

So many individuals the world over are going through tremendous changes in their lives. It's good to take this reflective time to really focus on what you want to see manifest in your life. I like to encourage people to ask for what you really want — not what you think you can have. These are two very different things indeed!

We have been taught since we were very young to have such deeply restricted notions of what is actually possible for us — thus rendering us very much in a frame of mind that fosters a fear of lack. This is extremely dangerous ... for obvious reasons!

When I was speaking with David Icke on my radio programme on 20 May 2007, he kept referring to us and our lives as being and having infinite possibility! Think about that for a moment: Infinite Possibility. Blimey, that doesn't sound like anything limiting or restrictive, does it? This would indicate that we can even go beyond 'the sky is the limit'. In divine Truth, there are NO limits!

In this framework of infinite possibility, we can claim our divine heritage and co-create with the LightSource, because, indeed, we are a part of All that IS. We are not separate; we are not small or insignificant. We are divine — always connected and always a part of Source. This was made very clear during my transcendent NDE in the mid 70s. You can read about that NDE on my website, TowardTheLight.org. To read about this NDE click here.

Anyway, let's take advantage of the New Moon, (which occurs every four weeks and starts a new lunation), and write down our goals and dreams from the perspective of Infinite Possibility.

Wrap your beautiful mind round that one, will you, and enjoy!

N2Light!

2007-06-13T16:28:00.000-04:00

Are you 'N 2 Light' as we are? Then, you're in the right place and welcome to this blog!

First, I'd like to provide you with special links to the various sites you'll find us on. Our 'mothership' is above, TowardTheLight.org—a site centred on Near-Death Studies and Support (including a weekly radio programme). There are a myriad of services, information and resources available through this site. It's now nearly 100 pages and is continuing to grow!

TUNE IN!

Tune in to an inspiring radio show, Toward The Light, hosted by Rev. Juliet Nightingale, and broadcast live on Sunday from 5P - 6P ET (-5:00 GMT) on BBSRadio.com! She features special guests who are both experiencers and researchers in the realm of NDEs; and there are also call-in opportunities so people can ask questions. You won't want to miss it!

TowardTheLight.info is our media site that's dedicated to all of our media work—both print and broadcast.

Here are two on-line support and interest groups, Light On The Water (LOTW), centred on NDEs and related topics. They are free to join and anyone is welcome to join who's got a genuine interest in this topic—especially if you're an experiencer!

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Well, this is quite a Light-filled feast that you've been invited to ... so we hope you enjoy it and we'll add more as we go along.

And as we like to remind everyone at the close of each transmission of Toward The Light:

It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye!

Only Love Prevails!