Toward The Light Introduces the TTL Directory!

Exciting News!

We've just completely rebuilt our 'Mothership' website, TowardTheLight.org and it has got a whole new look and feel to it. It is sure to inspire everyone who visits the site and I surely enjoyed working on it—literally for hours on end!

Furthermore, we have also implemented the all new Toward The Light Directory. This is where you will find contact and other information for people who have had the following:

• Near-Death Experience (NDE)
• Near-Death-Like Experience (NDLE)
• Out-of-Body Experience (OBE)
• Spiritually Transformative Experience (STE)
• After-Death Communication (ADC)
• Deathbed Vision (DVB)
• ...or any related experience not mentioned above.

Serious researchers, caregivers, counsellors, certain media centred on the above and others interested in the above are also welcome to be included in this directory.

The purpose of this directory is to provide a means for experiencers, researchers, writers, enlightened media, caregivers, loved ones and more to easily access and connect with one another without having to be a member of a specific group or organisation.

With such widespread interest in the NDE and other related phenomena in recent years, the time is ripe to have such a directory available to the masses on a grand scale, so that people can link hands and hearts and work together to help one to feel less alone or isolated, to find information and resources for educational purposes, an abundance of support and resources not restricted to rigid academia or institutions ... and so much more.

Please bear in mind that it will be small at first ... but will grow quickly in size. You can help expedite its growth by spreading the word about this directory, so that it will grow to be the largest and most comprehensive directory anywhere in the world!

For more information and to sign up, please visit TTL Directory.

Enjoy, and welcome to the Neighbourhood! :)

A Question of Recognition

(Q) This is a long shot, but does anybody know of someone who suffered from Alzheimer's disease and had a near-death experience? The reason I so dearly want to know is because my mother died of Alzheimer's and, towards the end of her life, she would look at her wedding photo and ask, "Who is that man?" (My father died in 1969, and they were devoted to one another, so it was heartbreaking to realize that she no longer remembered him.) If only I knew that a person with Alzheimer's could have a near-death experience, then I would know that my father came to meet my mother when she crossed over, and that she recognized him again.

(A) It is only the physical form that is stricken with this 'fog'—especially with diseases such as Alzheimer's disease, dementia, amnesia, coma, etc. Therefore, people and places on this plane may appear less real or meaningful and recognition fades over time. However, once one moves on to a higher frequency beyond the physical plane, clarity and consciousness return in full force.

Remember that Alzheimer's disease only affects the physical form, not ones real consciousness or self. The brain is not the source of our consciousness/awareness. And it is not the 'broadcaster', but merely the 'receiver' that facilitates the assimilation of data on the third dimension only! Even if the radio becomes damaged and the signal isn’t being received, the broadcast station is still in operation! (See The Cosmic Website)

Even as I was in a coma for over five weeks 30 years ago and lost my vital signs on my birthday (2 February) where I responded to nothing on this plane, I was still very conscious and thriving on other dimensions and I remember the details of that tremendous journey during my NDE to this day!

As one who's died a number of times, and being that I'm a medium, I can honestly state that, as one leaves this plane and meets friends and loved ones on the Other Side, the 'fog' of mortal mind is lifted and recognition takes place immediately. In fact, as one gets closer to death, one actually gains more clarity in recognising loved ones on the Other Side as they appear to the dying person ... since one is already moving into another dimension and a higher frequency!

(You may find my article, The Dying Process ~ From an Experiencers Perspective, very helpful, because it provides a lot of details about what goes on during the process of dying and crossing over to the Other Side. You may view it here.

Remember, the brain is not the source of our consciousness; it merely filters, decodes and processes information—just as a computer CPU does—and it is operated by your true self, which consists of infinite consciousness. Alas, when the brain ('computer') becomes damaged and no longer works, the computer 'operator' moves on to a different computer, that's all, but ones consciousness is never ever lost.

ADCs ~ Friends at the Factory

I've been a natural medium all of my life, so it's never been 'odd' or uncommon for me to see discarnate entities at any given moment. Often, I could see one individual, or many, and it would occur quite spontaneously.

A very good example of this was whilst I was in the quaint old town of Franklin, Tennessee. I had a loft at the Factory at Franklin—a lovely artisans mall that used to be the Dortch Stove Works and Magic Chef Factory in bygone years. To say that this place was teaming with discarnate entities would be an understatement! My loft was located in Building 8 and I'd walk through the breezeway to enter into Building 12 and take the long trek up through into Building 11 where the main entrance was located. As I entered into Building 12, I could see a whole group of former factory workers just standing round nattering back and forth (as they must have done when they were alive and working there) and they would actually greet me.

Then I saw a short white man in his factory-clothes, but what was odd about him is the fact that he was a hunchback! However, he was so clear—with every little detail—and very present, so I was sure that this was a valid sighting. Thus, I went to the front desk and asked Alex about this character—asking him specifically about whether there had been a hunchbacked factory worker. "Come here, Juliet!" Alex called out as he motioned me to follow him. He took me to the column of letterboxes that were located just behind the front desk where a bunch of old black and white factory photos crowned them from above. "Look there," he exclaimed as he pointed to a large photo. (I must interject here that I am very visually impaired, so I cannot see something that's far away and especially black and white photos that lack colour and contrast.) I got my monocular and looked up at the photo. Lo and behold, there was the hunchbacked factory worker, but viewed from the back. I gasped! "That's him!" I exclaimed with delight, and he looked exactly as I had seen him—even his clothing—although I'd seen him from the front. So if you go to the Factory at Franklin and head back round the right of the front desk and look up at the photos above the letter boxes, you'll see the hunchbacked man in clear view—provided you're not visually impaired!

Another interesting thing occurred one evening as I was sitting in my loft in Building 8 and speaking with a good friend back in England. What's interesting is that we were talking about her mother, who'd recently crossed over, and I just happened to turn and look up to the right. As I did so, I beheld a tall and stocky black man just standing there facing me. He had a very gentle demeanour and also seemed rather melancholy.

Suddenly, I was having two conversations at once—one with my friend, Paula, in the UK and one with the tall stranger in my midst. Acknowledging the man's sadness, I said, "You died here on the job, didn't you?" and he replied, "yes, Ma'am" with his strong southern drawl and a gentle nod. I felt such a sweetness about this man and I could tell that he'd been a very hard and dedicated worker and one who loved his family deeply. Bear in mind that a lot of these workers' whole lives revolved round working in the factory and that's all they knew. So I was left with the distinct impression that this man felt disappointed in himself for having died 'before his time' and leaving his family and the factory behind.

I also kept getting the name 'Stewart', but I don't know how it was spelled: Stewart or Stuart, or if it was his first name or surname. I saw him a few times and then I was even able to tap in to his family. He had an older daughter and a younger son—both in their teens when he crossed—and his wife whom he dearly loved. I was moved to tears, but I was also extremely curious about this man—since he was already impacting me so deeply.

This time, I went up to the office that was situated upstairs—since Alex wasn't at work yet—and I was just too curious about this. I spoke with Becky and asked her about 'Stewart'. "Do you know if there was a large, gentle black man who died on the job here?" I asked pointedly. Becky told me straight away that indeed a black man had died on the job by falling into a vat of molten steel! I shuddered when she told me this.

"Where did that take place?" I continued.

"You know when you're just coming into Building 12 from Building 8 ... where that door is to the right where you see the spiral staircase through the window?"

"Yes, in fact I see entities all round there all the time."

"There inside that door was where the vats were and where he died."

Again, I shuddered! Then I asked her if there was a way to verify his name, but she had no clue. Still, this was the validation that I needed for this, because his presence was so strong and so fitting ... for what had happened to him.

I will add that these discarnate people really do appreciate it when someone can 'see' them and acknowledge them. They aren't really 'stuck' there; they just had had such a pronounced and strong connection to that factory, that they'd simply 'toggle' between dimensions and spend time there ... as if spending time at their favourite pub, and so on. Also, I was known as the 'local medium' throughout the Factory, so it wasn't unusual for me to approach someone and ask questions about someone/thing I'd seen and, likewise, people would ask me for input.

Back in my loft, I was once again on the phone with a friend, MaAnna, who lived in Nashville and, all of a sudden, one by one, people were coming into view and I started describing these individuals that I was seeing—five in all. As it turns out, I was describing five of her relatives—most of whom she'd never met, because they passed away before she was born or when she was too young to remember. However, one of the individuals that I described was her niece, whom she did know well. But what was interesting about this is that I saw her when she was five; yet she'd died when in her late teens. Well, what happened is that the child had had an NDE (near-death experience) at age five and she couldn't wait to describe 'Heaven' to her parents. That's also when she was at her happiest in life. This was huge for my friend, as she'd been wanting input about these relatives for ages and she told me that I described them perfectly—according to photographs that she’d seen of them. She had even asked her mum about them and everything that I described was absolutely correct. Here’s what she said: “Many of my mother's family members had crossed over either before I was born or while I was still an infant. As Juliet and I were chatting about my family, she declared that her room was suddenly filling up with folks who were connected to me. I took note as she described each one and was able to recognize a few of them from pictures that I had seen or stories I had been told. I shared the rest of the information with my mother, who was able to verify the rest. It's an amazing thing to have Juliet describe so many details of a person who has crossed considering that she cannot usually see that much detail on the physical plane. Her sight is quite clear with respect to the other side.”

(Note: When experiencing a visitation or ADC, we will often see people when they were in their 'prime' in life, or at their happiest, and not as how they were when we last saw them on this plane, and so forth. This is very common.)

When it finally came time that I had to leave the Factory at Franklin, I was truly and deeply saddened. Not only did I have friends that were visible on this plane, I also had friends who'd lived and worked there before I'd ever even arrived in America. I actually cried as I bade farewell to the gathered group of workers by the entrance to Building 12 from the breezeway. Even now, my eyes fill with tears in thinking about this.

I wish to make two points here: First, the fact that I'm visually impaired may contribute to me being such a natural medium, because I've always been able to see into other dimensions or realms. Since my view of this plane is so restricted, as it were, I naturally tune into other frequencies and see into these realms, because I'm not so distracted by or focused on what is on the physical plane. Second, I'm also a multiple NDEr (near-death experiencer), which means that I'm already familiar with the Other Side and it is most common for NDErs to have pronounced psychic and mediumistic abilities as part of the after-effects of the NDE.

When we reside on this plane, we're operating on a certain dimension or frequency. However, when we cross over, we move into a different and higher frequency—much like moving up on the radio band. So, as a medium—and anyone who experiences ADCs—we're simply seeing individuals who are very real, and very much alive, but merely operating at a different frequency that we are able to tune in to. It's very simple and straightforward.

In fact, my take on all this is that, if more people were willing to acknowledge ADCs—and the fact that we can all experience it—I feel that there'd be far less grief in the world and that people can share in meaningful dialogue with those they love and care about who have crossed over. There's nothing 'woo-woo' about this; it's simply mind-to-mind communication (telepathy) that's already been scientifically proven to be valid. It would also help us feel less 'cut off' from those we love, because we actually can freely communicate with them.

After all, we do live forever ... and we need to acknowledge the fact that people simply change frequencies and planes of existence, but they never die. And it is up to us to keep the lines of communications open by allowing ourselves to tune into these different frequencies and share in communion with those we love.

ADC Accounts Wanted for New Book: Visits From Heaven

Author, Josie Varga, is writing a book entitled Visits from Heaven in which she describes after-death communication from various contributors which have been validated in some way (such as the one above). These are experiences people have had that provide information they couldn't know to be true at the time of the visit, but later found to be true. She had an experience of her own that she described in an eMail. (To read this account, go to www.josievarga.com and click on 'Visits from Heaven'. Josie was also featured on Toward The Light on 6 January 2008.

The Cosmic Website

I design, build and do a lot of work on websites—not only my own, but other people's sites as well. Since I've been a creative person all of my life—doing art, writing and music—I find it very natural and a joy to create websites and watch them unfold into something both beautiful and functional. Once the site is published and goes on line, one beholds a page with beautiful graphics, images, text and even audio for listening to music or radio broadcasts. There's magnificent colour and depth in the pages and it's quite stunning indeed.

But what is it that makes such beautiful and functional websites possible? You can't just pop an image, audio or text on there, because it won't show up or function at all. What one needs to do is apply HTML code (hyper text markup language). When I'm doing the work in the HTML editor, and in the 'preview' mode, I can see what the page will look like—very lovely indeed—but when I click on 'source' or 'HTML', what comes up is nothing but a bunch of gibberish—strictly text, numbers and symbols that make no sense at all (except to the browsers that decode the HTML that generates the website). There are no colours, images, sounds or anything else; it's merely a bunch of code, written in plain text on a white page. To look at the 'source' page (or code) is quite dizzying and these pages full of code can be very long and complex as well. Yet, without this 'gibberish' these beautiful pages, along with their functionality, could not be possible. I marvel at that every time I'm working on a site. It's interesting to think of what's behind the appearance of a web site and what makes it operate. The beautiful and functional site only works or has meaning for the visitor when the HTML is decoded in such a way that enables one to see the site and navigate through it.

What also repeatedly comes to mind, when I'm working on websites, is that what we perceive as our world is very much the same as a website and the same principles apply. We think we're seeing buildings, trees, oceans, other people, vehicles, clouds, stars, planets, and so on. However, if we were to look at the 'code' that makes up the world around us that we perceive as 'real', we'd see nothing but ... waves and particles that, when filtered and decoded, become the surroundings we see and experience as the physical plane. In fact, as difficult as it may be for one to believe or conceive, what we perceive as 'real' on this plane is actually nothing more than a hologram!

How do I know this? Well, first of all, I had a direct experience of this during my NDEs! In fact, during my transcendent NDE in the mid 1970s, after I was told that I had to return to this plane—which absolutely devastated me—I saw a glimpse of this plane as it was being shown to me from the Other Side. I was told that this plane is an illusion and that I wasn't to identify with it, but only to do the work I was being sent back to do and that I’d merely be passing through. What's interesting is that, as I focused on the physical plane, nothing looked solid at all! It was more like looking at vapour with lines, waves and particles going through it. It did have colour, but it was so drab compared to what I was seeing on the Other Side. Everything seemed somewhat transparent and illusory, indeed.

Once I did re-enter the physical plane, it still didn't appear solid to me and it took a good while for me to adjust and reintegrate back into this plane. It was so drab and dark and void of colour and life in the context of what I'd just experienced on the Other Side. It was so dense and dismal! It was only after I'd been 'back' on this plane for a while, did it start to appear 'solid' again. Still, I now knew, without a doubt, that this plane isn't really solid and that I was being 'tricked' into thinking or perceiving that it was solid or real.

When I was asked to give talks about my NDEs, in recent years, and what I'd gleaned as a result of these experiences, I'd always open the talks by declaring that this physical plane is nothing but a hologram—an illusion—and I'd endeavour to explain how this is so. It wasn't such an easy task—given that I'm not a physicist or scientist replete with technical jargon. How can we put something so ineffable into words in the first place? It's rather impossible, really, but I try to convey things in such a way that will make sense to people and lend credibility to my claims. After all, I was given an assignment from the Other Side that I now had to fulfil!

Then something wonderful happened. I read David Icke's book, Infinite Love is the Only Truth; Everything Else is Illusion. Bingo! Just the title alone said it all and that did it for me. I knew that we were on the same page ... and so I read the book from cover and cover and guess what? He gives full description of the very message I've been awkwardly trying to convey for years! It's spelled out right there on the pages—complete with photographs, illustrations and graphs. He also discusses this in his new book, The David Icke Guide to the Global Conspiracy and How to End it, in the first few chapters.

Everything that we 'see' and perceive as 'real' is nothing but code that has been triggered and activated for enabling us to experience this dimension—just like a website. Everything is energy (waves and particles) and the form that energy takes on is determined by its frequency. Everything vibrates at a different frequency, so when energy is arranged in a specific combination of frequencies, that's what generates the 'stuff' that we experience as 'real'. It's really that simple.

When David Icke first came on my radio show on 20 May 2007, we discussed his book, Infinite Love... and it was such a powerful and uplifting dialogue between us—not to mention the fact that we validated each other’s claims here—my backing up his statements with my experiences and his validating my experiences through his many years of intense and dedicated research. We discussed this further when he came back on my show on 21 October. Alas, he'll be back on Toward The Light on 2 March 2008 and we'll be talking about consciousness!

In fact, DI has written a lot about NDEs in his material in recent years—including an article entitled, 'Fearing for a lifetime ... Something that doesn't Exist' (which can be found on towardTheLight.org under 'Near-Death Studies'); and it must be comforting for him to have people like me come along and say, "Yes, you're right about this, because I've been there! I've experienced this first hand and know exactly what you're talking about."

I've always been aware of the fact that we're multidimensional beings and have thus lived accordingly—my toggling between this and other dimensions throughout my life, but especially as a child. It's always been that way and always so natural for me. I could remember how ‘nonsolid' this plane often appeared to me and how other planes appeared more real and vibrant to me. Yet I was horribly ridiculed and regarded as 'crazy' or 'out of touch with reality' or 'living in a fantasy or dream-world' and so on, because of this. Of course, these individuals who regarded this plane as all that is 'real' were the ones who truly lived in a dream-world, not me! They also think that what's written on an ID card and their body-suit constitutes 'who' they are! Nonsense! Nothing could be further from the truth. We are not our bodies. We are not our brains. We are not what's written on some ID card! Are you kidding? It is merely an assumed identity—a role that we're cast in to as an actor in a play—that we take on whilst we traverse this dimension and nothing more. It is NOT Who we are at all!

This brings me to another point—one that I've mentioned several times—and that's the fact that our consciousness does not originate in the brain. That's been proven time and time again with NDErs. How is it that we can see, hear and experience things when the physical body and brain are ‘dead’? Think about that. It's surely not the brain or physical eyes or ears that are seeing and hearing what's going on when they're completely incapacitated and out of commission. Where are the thoughts originating from and what is giving one the capacity to see and hear if the brain is flat-lined?

The fact is that the brain is not the source of our consciousness; it merely filters and decodes our consciousness in order to be accessed in the 3D world we experience at this time. Likewise, radio and TV signals cannot be accessed without the radio or television set (or receiver) to decode the signals and provide us with the sounds and images we hear and see. The broadcast is coming from elsewhere—not from within the radio or TV unit. Our brains function in the same way that a radio or television does, but the broadcast is coming from our infinite consciousness—consciousness that does not cease to be upon physical death.

Millions of NDEs have been documented at this point and there have obviously been countless accounts of people being conscious and experiencing sight and sound and even other sensory sensations whilst their physical bodies were clinically dead. Furthermore, a number of individuals have come forward, now, to prove the validity of consciousness beyond the confines of the physical brain—not the least of which have been the likes of Peter Fenwick, MD, Pim van Lommel, MD, Claude V. Swanson, Ph.D, David Icke, PMH Atwater, Ed.D, Ph.D (Hon) and others too numerous to mention here.

I've conversed with the above-mentioned individuals and what's so exciting about all this is that we've all ended up using the same analogies completely independent of one another; i.e. we didn't chat back and forth beforehand, and then adopt one another's phrases or analogies. It's as if we've all, indeed, simultaneously tapped into the universal consciousness and come up with the same exact illustrations for these conclusions. Furthermore, there is a lot of love and gratitude that's shared between all of us. It is so heart-warming to connect with these kindred spirits and share this special and uplifting truth with the world.

I also really appreciate what David Icke has done—likening our physical bodies to computers and the brain as the CPU (or central processing unit). But who operates these computers? Ahh, good question, aye? And that's the point: the computer may have a 'brain' and 'memory', etc., but it still requires someone to operate it and provide input. Bingo! It is our consciousness (or infinite awareness) that animates and operates the body computer, not the brain! Consciousness exists outside and independent of the brain, as illustrated earlier, and so it also stands to reason that, when the computer breaks down and no longer works, the operator still functions; i.e. when your body (or computer) dies, your selfhood and consciousness are still very much in tact. When you no longer need to traverse on this plane, you simply give up your 'computer' and move on, that's it! You still exist! Fancy that!

Thus, special souls, like the ones mentioned above, and NDErs like myself have joined hands and hearts to share this very basic truth with everyone that we are, indeed, immortal and live and have consciousness forever.

Websites are beautiful, elaborate and functional, but what you see and access is merely a bunch of code that provides the 'appearance' of images, sound, audio, text and colour that's functional and useful when we visit them. This plane is nothing but a cosmic website made up of code that is filtered and decoded to provide the appearance of a seemingly solid and physical world for our use and enjoyment.

Likewise, our bodies are like computers that enable us to access and store things as needed, to use different programs and applications and to perform certain tasks, etc., but these computers are not who we are; they're merely tools that enable us to function on this plane. It's really as simple as that.

Another interesting thing to note is that memory is not stored in the brain, because the brain is not equipped to store all that memory. So where is the memory stored? It's a magical little thing called DNA. The 95% (and some say 97%) of DNA that's considered so-called 'junk DNA' is what connects us with other dimensions and holds our memories in tact. I'm pleased to say that David Icke and Pim van Lommel have written about this in great detail and all of us have talked about this at length. However, since these lads are much more adept at explaining these details than I am, I will happily refer you to them. Please go to my website and read the material from Dr. Pim van Lommel, Dr. Peter Fenwick and David Icke (as well as the above-mentioned books) and you will be blown away at the profundity of how all this fits so neatly together.

To all of the individuals who've accused me—and others like me—of being 'crazy' or 'out of touch with reality', I sincerely thank you for pushing me to search, research and experience that which has proven you as very mistaken and I hope that you are inspired in knowing that my 'dream world' is real and that you can now break away from your rigid interpretation of 'reality' that is actually the real dream world!

I will close with a poem that I wrote many, many years ago in the 1960s:

Where am I
Sitting here
Looking at the sky?
Am I sitting in a dream
Looking at reality?
Or am I sitting in reality
Looking at a dream?
I can feel this meadow about me
But what is this that I see?
Could it be that a dream is reality
And reality a dream?

Why Are We Here?

Here is another question from an earnest soul—one that is universal in nature.

Q: What I would like to ask for is any insights you may have on exactly why we come into this dimension. Do we come for a purpose? Is it helping us grow in any way? I tend to get bogged down with stuff a lot, and all the thinking I do. I struggle to live in this world, to find some grounding...

A: First, let me say that what you're going through is so much 'in the air' right now and I, too, have not wanted to be on this plane (but that's nothing new!) and I believe that oft times this feeling comes with those who are sensitive and aware and the struggles that can be compounded when traversing this plane. It's also typical for us NDErs to wonder if 'Scotty will beam us up' and take us Home soon—even on a daily basis. With the climate of our planet being what it is at this time, is it any wonder that a lot of people are feeling this way? Be kind to yourself—whatever you do—and realise that you are actually blessed to be so aware and sensitive. Furthermore, you are not alone in what you're feeling or going through. I honestly believe that it's at epidemic proportions at this point in time! To me, that's a good thing, because people need to be uncomfortable in order to be propelled into making changes.

Like you, I am always beset with deep thoughts, ponderings and musings. I certainly do understand that one! I've always been a deep and complex thinker.

Ahh, yes, there's always that great and universal question: why are we here? There are a myriad of answers and what I share is only a small part of it. I've often seen that, in order to find out what something is, we must first find out what it isn't—thus taking us through a process of elimination, trial and error, discovery, and so on.

Basically, instead of referring to things as 'good' or 'bad', 'right' or 'wrong', I look at it from the perspective of 'what works versus what doesn't work'. On this plane I see us as being in a huge laboratory—endeavouring to find out what does work—and thus, what is true. Then, by going through all these experiences and realising what doesn't work, we come to know what does. Along these lines, there's the analogy that, in order for the Light to know it is the Light, it must first experience its opposite: darkness. That's how I see this plane. By experiencing the total opposite of what/who we really are, we come (in time) to realise that we are divine and are at one with All that Is/LightSource.

I was blessed/cursed with being so acutely aware ever since popping out of the womb. I remember my first thoughts as being: This isn't real ... this isn't me ... I don't belong here ... I want to go Home! Alas, I was so overcome with grief that I was in this form and on this plane, that I was a very sad child and very much a loner. I also had had the distinct memory of coming from a place filled with love and harmony! But this place was nothing like what I knew—not at all.

Sadly, but for important reasons for the process of discovery, this world is so filled with darkness and we're brainwashed, straightaway, into thinking that we're worthless 'sinners', helpless, limited, at the mercy of a vengeful god ... and so on—all of which are lies. But it is only through experience that we can actually come to know the difference between what is real and true versus what is unreal and false.

I've always had the audacity to think for myself—ever since I was very small—and I've certainly not been 'popular' for it, nor have I ever 'fit in', because I've refused to be one of the 'sheeple' who allow others (mainstream media, parents, teachers, governments, society, etc.) to think for them ... rather than allowing themselves to come to their own conclusions. But as David Icke and I were discussing and noting, people are starting to feel really uncomfortable with the state of affairs and they're also starting to talk about all this. Something's not right; something doesn't work right; something doesn't feel right; something needs to change... And that's a good sign. People are waking up and it's people like you who are coming forward and asking questions that will break the spell of the darkness once and for all. Your own innate divinity is 'making noise' and forcing its way to the surface and enabling you to wake up and question all the answers. Good for you!

So, in a very simple short statement, I'd say that we're here to discover our own divinity and the fact that we are made up of the same stuff that Source is. Think of the sun and it's sun-rays. You see individual rays of light emanating from the sun, but they're always connected to the sun—never separate. Well, it's really the same with us ... and as Nanci L. Danison so brilliantly referred to this in her book, Backwards: Returning to Our Source for Answers, she refers to us as 'Sourcebeams', (I love it!), applying the same principle as with the sun. Interestingly, she was very inspired by my NDE account, that she's 'borrowed' some of my references as well as applying her own. She was a guest on my radio show.

So now, as we traverse a world full of darkness, it's actually forcing us to ultimately remember who we are and what is real. During my NDEs, I was told that what is on this plane is a total illusion ... and I could actually see this whole plane as a hologram! So it was very powerful when David Icke's book, Infinite Love is the Only Truth; Everything Else is Illusion came out. I also found it odd that no one had interviewed him about this book ... so I jumped to invite him on my radio programme specifically to discuss this book. What's interesting is that I was able to validate what he's written as a result of my experiences! That was a wonderful two-hour long interview that took place on 20 May 2007 that is also archived and then there's the recent one that took place on 21 October 2007. DI will be back on my show on 2 March 2008 and we'll be talking about ... consciousness!

As we discussed the details of his book, Infinite Love... I was able to say "I've been there and experienced this first hand...!" I know that he was so grateful for that as well. Here, he's done all of this tremendous research and work and I was able to validate his findings as a result of my own experiences whilst he validated my experiences through what he's written and researched! To me, this is a wonderful example of how the Light is bringing special souls together to abolish the darkness once and for all.

Having said that, however, it's always the most painful and difficult as we're nearing the 'end of the battle' as it were. The darkest hour is just before the dawn ... and so on. So it's not going to be a picnic for a while, but it's always good to remind ourselves that 'this too shall pass'; i.e., everything is coming to a head and will change and right itself. The sun will rise again and there will be a new day.

Some people refer to being on this plane as a ride; some refer to it as being in a play in the theatre. They're both good analogies, really. But when we remember that we're just playing roles; we're just actors in a process of discovery and this isn't who we really are, then things start to make a lot more sense and take on a whole new meaning. People are always asking about Hitler, for example, because he was regarded as so deeply evil. Well, so are the Bush family, the Windsors, Dick Cheney and so forth ... but what's interesting is that they're losing power (believe it or not) and they, too, are a part of divine consciousness and are just playing out a role that they were sent here to fulfil. But their essence isn't any more 'evil' than an actor playing a villain. It's all a show; it's all a ride. It's very believable when we're in it ... but it's something that evaporates once we leave this plane and can see the bigger picture.

Love is indeed the ultimate truth. It's not a cliché or some kind of New Age hype. Some of us have been fortunate enough to experience unconditional love first hand and it is something that can never be described in words. You've got to experience it in order to 'grok' it, if you get my drift. But it is real and in time, we will all come to this same great knowing, because we are that love in essence.

I hope this helps, dear Soul. It is hard work to extract ourselves from all the lies that are so deep and thick, but that is exactly what is taking place now. The light is being switched on and the cockroaches (dark ones) are scurrying round about in a frantic display to save themselves. But the light must ... and it will prevail.

Change & Transition

I'm sitting in my new abode here in Vermont and reading a book by Dr. Pam Kircher, Love is the Link, that's centred on her NDE as well as her practice as a hospice physician. She's made a number of references as to the importance of going into the silence and withdrawing from the distractions of the world and the daily routine and responsibilities we're burdened with. How interesting that I've been yanked from my normal working world as a result of this move and the fact, for example, that I've got no internet connection!

The majority of my work revolves around my being on line and in constant communication with others. Then there's the writing and website work I must do and keep up-to-date, since I do a weekly radio show and am constantly applying updates as things occur. Now, with the fact that I cannot be on line for a good while, the silence is quite striking. Everyone is going to have to wait to hear from me or for me to do my usual routine of the telecommuting. I'm 'out of commission' for now and it is a time to go within and listen to the message from the divine and allow myself to flow into this new chapter of my life.

Even the mobile reception is nearly nil so this, too, forces me into the silence. What's interesting is that I really love the silence ... but feel such a profound obligation to be 'at the ready' for all those who need me. Indeed, it never occurs to me to take a day off or to go on holiday; I only think about my work in being of service to others and always available to them!

Why is this? Is it because I make good $£ doing so? Heck, NO! I make hardly any $£ at all, because most of my work is strictly a labour of love and does not involve generating $£. I am very poor when it comes to $£, but that is no reflection of my true worth or value. But here I am—feeling such an urgent need to be at the beck and call of anyone who may need me ... that I don't think about taking time off for Juliet and to simply ... Be.

But now I am, as it's been imposed on me. Take a holiday, Juliet! It's time you did so! Everyone will simply have to wait. Besides, good things come to those who wait! It's true ... and with Mercury still in retrograde (Rx), it's a time to 'go back' and take inventory of our lives and the inner workings of our psyche and do much-needed evaluation and gain the clarity needed to start a new chapter on good footing.

I have always been a very reflective and introspective individual and not one to be in the middle of social settings—much preferring my own company and to be in nature. When I was contemplating my next move, I asked that if I cannot live on or by the ocean, then I want to be situated in the mountains and on a lake. Well, guess what! I'm now in a small town on the Canadian border that's surrounded by Lake Memphremagog and the beautiful green mountains that Vermont is noted for! I walk to the corner of my road and look down and there's the lake—a stunning lake, the majority of which is in Quebec. I walk along this beautiful body of water and never fail to be in utter awe—between taking the breathtaking view of the lake, the mountains that surround it, and the 'skyscape' above.

I've had enough of the big city. I've found that I've become less tolerant of cities in recent years and, in fact, have never been a fan of cities—other than to visit them. Sadly, American cities are notoriously so filthy and riddled with crime ... and talk about not having any opportunity to go into any silence! How can one do so when there's constant noise--sirens, car horns and 'drive-by-radios', yelling, traffic and so on?

So many thoughts and metaphors have gone through my head of late. I've been aware of the trauma of moving house—which is really no different than dying in so many ways. Think about it: when you're preparing to move house, haven't you gone through such uncertainty as a result of being suspended in the process of the move—no longer living at 'Point A' yet not living at 'Point B' either—that, for an instant, you may question if you might actually be preparing to cross over? That has certainly been the case with me—numerous times when moving house—and especially when things just don't seem to want to work out. I've found that a number of people go through this—at least more mature people that I've spoken with and with whom I've compared notes.

It is interesting to ponder my work that's centred on death, dying, NDEs and the Afterlife and the similarities it has to the process of moving house. There's always that profound feeling of uncertainty that comes with moving house and with transitioning to the Other Side. In reality, they are no different—other than that the physical body is discarded in death, not just unneeded possessions. However, and this is a very important point, every ending is followed by a new beginning! When we cross over, we do not become static, motionless, inanimate beings who are non-existent! It is always the cycle of life-death-life where death is just the ending of one chapter that is immediately followed by a new one! Nothing dies; it just changes form and frequency, that's all. Death is merely a passageway into a new realm. That's why a lot of us won't even use the word 'death', as we prefer to use the more accurate term, 'transition', because that's exactly what it is.

Another analogy that I've oft times used is that of the caterpillar that spends a portion of its life only knowing how to tread the ground, then it must spin a cocoon and withdraw into the deep dark silence ... until it one day emerges a glorious winged creature! It must pull away from all that it has known up until the point prior to spinning the cocoon; then it must enter it and go into the silence alone and in a state of total trust. But let's think about that for a moment. These simple seemingly 'lowly' creatures are so in harmony with their own natural rhythms and flow and what they must do as they unfold in their little lives ... that I'd venture to conclude that it never occurs to them to be worried or frightened; they instinctively know what to do and are absolutely fine with it! Granted, the caterpillar doesn't have a clue what 'butterfly' is, but there's something in its innate nature that allows it to flow into the process that will ultimately manifest as this magnificent winged creature. It doesn't fight and resist the 'death of caterpillar' so that it can be re-birthed as 'butterfly'. It just knows when the time has come for this transition and withdraws to spin the cocoon. And even being birthed as a butterfly is traumatic and fraught with great effort and pain. However, it's through this severe challenge that the wings are given the strength they need in order to fly. Everything in the evolutionary process has got its purpose and meaning.

Yet, as human beings, with the power to reason, we are plagued with fear and worry all the time—living in so little trust in the divine flow and feeling like we've constantly got to be in control. Yet we spin ourselves off into the wrong direction so much of the time, because we're such manipulators by nature and we often fail to see or perceive the bigger picture. We've got to make things happen rather than allowing things to unfold in their natural process. And this is what gets us into trouble...

During my transcendent NDE in the mid 70s, I experienced no fear or worry. I was so full of trust and being constantly enveloped in unconditional love, there was, indeed, no room for fear. I knew in no uncertain terms that everything was evolving exactly as it should and that everything would be just fine. Another thing I learned—which I've mentioned a number of times—is that fear is an acquired state, not a natural one. That is due, sadly, to the fact that the human species has been controlled and manipulated from cradle to grave for thousands of years ... and fear was introduced to us through such manipulation. If this planet were truly centred in love, there'd be no place for fear—none!

Let's face it: so many of the thoughts we have aren't even our own! They're manufactured and programmed into us by outside sources. Then we parrot what's been programmed into us without even realising it. We're taught that we're powerless, sinful, worthless, insignificant, helpless, uncomely, and so on. Just look at these words. Do you see one word that reflect love? I think not. They're all about fear and keeping us locked in fear. In such a mental state, of course we're not going to have an ounce of trust anywhere in our psyche, because we're too centred in fear and 'oh-my-god-what-am-I-going-to-do' syndrome. But it's not about 'doing'; it's about 'being' and 'flow' that can only be accomplished when we're centred in love.

Again, during my NDEs, I only knew love and honestly never had a care! The peace that I felt as a result cannot be compared to anything experienced on this plane—not even sitting by the lake and listening to the breeze blowing through the trees and the lapping water and the call of a distant bird with the sunbeams streaming through the clouds.

It is not our fault that we've been manipulated by a host of sinister agents who control this planet, but it is within our power to take responsibility as to how we choose to deal with this—to call their bluff and turn away from the lies that we've been forced-fed and to resolutely turn to love and having that rule our lives rather than fear being at the helm. We do not have to believe what we've been told; we do not have to believe in the lies and myths that are only there to mislead and confuse and disempower us in the first place.

It's very interesting to me that these sinister forces seem completely sold on keeping us from entering the cocoon and going through with the natural process of evolving into magnificent beings! We're so very close to entering that state, yet we stop short of it, because we're so afraid of change and the unknown. We hold back and opt not to take that quantum leap of faith and delve into uncharted or unknown territory. In our frail minds, we've got to hold fast to what is familiar and we refuse to change or grow!

I've got a friend who's so attached to everything past, he'll even hold on to things that are broken! He just can't let go, because he perceives himself as losing power or his sense of self if he does. Yet he's the loveliest person and a joy to know. He's lived in the same house for a quarter century and I, on the other hand, move every few months! At least, that's been the case for past few years. Alas, I just did move number twelve since 2003!

I'm not advocating moving house every few months ... but I've had to accept that there's a divine reason for all of this change and it's certainly had a way of keeping me in the present and ready for new endeavours and not being allowed to be 'stuck' or 'attached' in my life. People, places and things have always so easily been removed from me all my life—whether they were dear and meaningful to me or not. It didn't matter. I've always had to change and grow. I didn't come here to 'loiter'; I came here to get something done—something that's in service to others--so that is bound to carry me to unknown places and situations.

Now, I have been moved into somewhat of a cocoon ... and who knows how many layers there may be to it! Yet, one thing was made clear to me during my NDEs: the LightSource is the ultimate power who's always going to see me through—regardless of what may appear on the surface. If we experience set-backs and delays (which I certainly have been dealing with now), we've got to realise that there's a very good reason for it. There is a divine order at work here, but it's not going to function according to the agenda set by our own egos.

We are multi-dimensional beings who actually reside on different dimensions simultaneously and we need to be in sync with our soul and what it dictates. Our soul is aware of Source and the flow of the 'multiverses' that it resides in, so there's a lot more to take into account than just the physical persona residing on planet Earth. Haven't you had something inside nagging at you to wait a moment or go in a different direction than what you'd originally wanted to do—only to find out that the delay or change of direction saved your life? That was your soul speaking to you and offering you higher wisdom, because of its constant and aware link to Source! This is nothing to baulk at here.

That's another thing that the powers-that-be don't want us to know: that we're always connected to Source and have got the capacity to engage in dialogue with the Light and possess great awareness. Have you noticed how anything that hints at intuition or being 'psychic' is regarded as 'evil' or 'of the devil'? It's because this is yet another ploy to keep us dumbed down and locked in ignorance. If being aware were not demonised and we were encouraged to use our minds to their full potential—and not just 10% of it—we'd be enormously powerful beings with the capacity to break the spell of fear and servitude once and for all.

Fear is the by-product of a host of lies that have been shoved down our cosmic throats since time immemorial and it's now time to cough up that poison and claim back our divinity, which is our rightful heritage. We are divine in essence. We are 'Sourcebeams' that are always radiating from and connected not only to Source, but to one another and all life. This is another thing that is so apparent to many of us who experience near-death states. When we can detach from the ego-mind and the physical body—which isn't 'who' we are anyway—we see a much broader picture of what is real and we remember who we are and what we're made of. Oh, it's such a joy! Consequently, many of us come back to this plane indifferent towards materialism and, instead, opting to do work that's centred in service to others. We recognise the divine in all life and feel a gleaming responsibility to love and support all life, because it's part of us. We are all One.

Dr. Peter Fenwick on Toward The Light

On 30 September I had the honour of interviewing Dr. Peter Fenwick on Toward The Light. Alas, if I were to have a 'hero' in the medical field, Dr. Fenwick would definitely qualify as one, as he's done a tremendous amount of work over the years to validate the NDE as authentic and real—it not being some sort of hallucination or the product of a 'dying brain'.

I first met Dr. Fenwick at the annual IANDS (International Association for Near-Death Studies) conference in Chicago in 2004. He gave a most compelling lecture on the nature of NDEs as he detailed the extensive research that he's done over the years.

I remember sitting next to PMH Atwater during his lecture and she and I were both so animated and excited with everything that came out of his mouth. It was quite something to behold two white-haired ladies bobbing up and down like two excited children. Given that we're both NDErs—ones who truly believe in the legitimacy and validity of the NDE—we were truly excited that Dr. Fenwick gave very clear, concise details about how and why the NDE is real, when it occurs and how it is distinctly different from a hallucination. He also pointed out that the lucid clarity that occurs with an NDE is something that is maintained by the experiencer and does not become a faint memory over time; nor does it become distorted as a hallucination does.

Dr. Fenwick provided a 'powerpoint' presentation that featured detailed graphs, dialogues from patients—including a child who'd had a near-death experience—and other images and illustrations.

During our interview, he recapped a lot of this data and shared it with the listening audience.

Dr. Fenwick got into the NDE research as a result of a patient who'd come to him regarding a cardiac catheter that had gone wrong. He became unconscious and he left his body; then he watched the resuscitation process and was very frightened by the whole thing. He was told by the physicians that they'd have to do it again, but he wasn't about to endure another traumatic ordeal, so he simply left the hospital. This patient only told Dr. Fenwick and his wife, Elizabeth, about the NDE that he had had. This took place in 1986.

This triggered Dr. Fenwick's research with Margo Grey who did extensive research into the NDE.

Peter participated in a film centred on NDEs on a QED documentary on BBC Television in 1987. He and his wife wrote a book called The Truth and the Light. As a result of all this he received over a 1000 eMails and letters thanking him for his work in this documentary.

He said that there are several reasons why the NDE is valid as occurring during a flat-line. He's done a number of studies. For example, he found a person, Penny Satori (sp?), who just finished her Ph.D and she conducted a study where she invited cardiac patients to describe their OBEs and then rate them. Through these studies, they were able to determine that those who claimed to be OBE during a resuscitation, actually did accurately describe the resuscitation process.

A third of the people that Penny worked with, had NDEs that included an OBE. Peter points out that people are only interested in their bodies when they're floating above them. They don't look round the room—only focusing on their bodies. That's why targets are placed near where the patient is situated, so that they will be seen whilst the patient is out-of-body.

Dr. Fenwick has been working on these studies a lot over the past five years. He's working with Dr. Sam Parnia where they've planted targets in the rooms, for example, where one has had a cardiac arrest and they've set this up in 18-20 hospitals throughout the UK. These targets are placed in strategic locations where one can easily spot and identify them whilst out-of-body during a near-death episode, then report what they saw afterwards.

I asked him about his being open with hospital staff about NDEs and their research projects. He explained that the ethics committee is extremely important and they get permission from them to conduct these studies and have been granted them. There are resuscitation officers who are brought in whenever anyone has a cardiac arrest and they preside over each patient and work in the resuscitation process and also report to the physicians.

He's also working on researching the DBP (deathbed phenomena) with different hospitals and it's so moving, really. He's realised that in our western culture, we're so unaware of the state of mind of the dying person. This is when I brought up the article that I'd written entitled, The Dying Process ~ From an Experiencers Perspective and how this all ties in to what is actually occurring during the dying process. I describe in clear detail what is actually happening to one as one is dying and this also includes how ones consciousness shifts and expands as one prepares to transition and what occurs after one transitions.

Peter observed that, a week before a person dies, one is greeted by deceased loved ones who are there specifically to help the person through the dying process. What the loved ones say—along with the response of the dying person—is very accurate. The dying person will then say something like, "Tomorrow, I'll be going on a journey with so-and-so," and that is exactly what has happened. Peter did a TV show in England about this and, once again, he received a thousand eMails from people who've given examples of DBVs and there's also the phenomena of deathbed coincidences.

At the moment of death, the dying person communicates telepathically with another family member and indicates that he or she is dying, but is okay. A person sees the dying person and is reassured that s/he is okay. The mind of dying individuals is able to connect with ones they love at the moment of death and it is reassuring to the living.

Often the body of the dying person is surrounded by light at the moment of death. There are great things that happen. Dr. Fenwick was pointing out that people's clocks often stop when one crosses over—not just digital ones, but mechanical ones as well. Bells will go off and animals will also react. It's indeed a deep and complex phenomena.

Dr Fenwick is working with a nurse, Sue, and another lovely nurse, Hillary, who are working in palliative care in hospitals and nursing homes as well. He explained that the staff in nursing homes are very unwilling to talk about this subject—a real reluctance to talk about it—as if it's 'taboo'. Many of the staff feel that they've not been trained property about the dying process, so they avoid it. We talked about this issue and the fact that there need to be more training in the area of death and dying and to face it squarely and not regard it as something 'taboo' or to fear.

It's not right to think that the dying are 'hallucinating', etc. Dr. Fenwick is a strong advocate of the validity of the DBP and asks for reports from staff regarding what they observe with the dying and does outreach after one year's time to find out what's occurred with the dying.

Dr. Fenwick is putting together a model of by which people can go into hospitals and different facilities and talk about these phenomena as well as to create a pamphlet. I offered him the use of my article in support of this endeavour. He also wants to create a CD that features stories/accounts of experiencers.

He points out that story after story after story are all so consistent and knowing that they've got to be valid in every way.

He explains that, when a deceased person comes to visit the dying person, it's always for a very specific reason—not for fun or entertainment. The dialogue is meaningful and to the point—usually with the deceased relative letting the dying person know that s/he's come to accompany him or her Home.

I was mentioning the fact that when people are on the verge of death, their ego is dissipated and they're not going to fabricate anything. They're very honest, open and authentic. Peter talks about the importance of 'dying well'. It's very important, for example, to resolve issues with loved ones before one transitions. If there are issues within relationships, for example, these need to be resolved before one transitions.

Another thing that happens is that dying people indicate that this is not the end and they're aware of the fact that they're just making a transition into a new or different realm. Sometimes it also happens that, when a dying person is visited by a deceased loved one who's come to assist one in transitioning, he or she may not be ready, so the deceased person will say, "All right, I'll be back for you tomorrow" and the dying person knows when he or she will transition. Death is very structured process.

Many eMails that Dr. Fenwick received addressed what happens at the moment of death. In the Tibetan culture, one talks about the mental state of the dying and the sequence of things that they see and experience. A dying person will first see a sort of mirage, then smoke, then appearances of sparks or fireflies; then the dying person stops breathing, then comes the orange light, then white light, then the living blackness, loss of consciousness and then moving into a higher state of consciousness and switching to a higher vibrational frequency.

Next we got onto the topic of the content of NDE accounts by recent NDErs as opposed to those who had NDEs before knowledge of NDEs even existed or was well circulated. Dr. Fenwick did a survey centred on NDEs and took 500 out of the 2000 NDE contacts he had and asked them: "What did you know about the NDE at the time of your experience?" and 98% of them had never come across it and didn't know anything about it at all. He also informed me that there really was no difference between the accounts of those who'd had NDEs with no prior knowledge of them and those who did have prior knowledge.

He states that over 70% of people who've had NDEs were transformed by their experiences and positively so.

Next, he explained that 'hallucination' is a psychiatric term where someone experiences a sensory experience that is nothing to do with what is going on outside someone. This is very different from what occurs during near-death states.

In cases when the heart has stopped, the cardiac arrest is an excellent model for validating the NDE. The clinical definition of death is when there's no pulse, no respiration and fixed dilated pupils. Yet it is during such states that, after resuscitation, people report being fully aware of the resuscitation process—among other things. The NDE is not a confusional experience; they're very clear.

Dr. Fenwick points out the fact that the NDE actually occurs whilst one is clinically dead—not before or afterwards. When people faint, they lose consciousness very quickly and when people come out of the unconscious state, they're very confused; so none of these states would coincide with the NDE.

He's now working on a book compiling people's experiences as well as the target research. I'm certain that it will be another powerful statement validating the NDE as real and rich with meaning.

I'm truly blessed to have had Dr. Fenwick on Toward The Light. He was so gentle and full of compassion and deep knowing with every word he spoke. I am so pleased and grateful to see what is considered credible evidence in favour of the NDE reaching countless individuals worldwide. Peter is such a tremendous source of inspiration to me ... with all of the work that he's done in this field. What he has done is huge and he's creating a legacy that will change the way we view death and dying that will impact humanity for years to come.